the blahs of life

Attention!!

2009-01-08T16:34:00.004+08:00

This blog is MOVING!

thanks for reading the blahs of (my) life. :)

xoxo bella

edit: this blog is inactive. I've moved to Wordpress, for privacy and also the COOL factor. LOL. See you there!

sigh

2009-01-08T14:52:00.001+08:00

STUPID STUPID STUPID

HOPELESS USELESS OHF:LIHDKSBGFUGADGFSOILAHL:HF:KHA

ps: results are out.

It's Driving Me Crazy

2009-01-07T01:11:00.002+08:00

SQUEAKKKK

SQUEAKKKKSQUEAKSQUEAK SQUEAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKKKK

SQUEAKKKKKKKK

In case you're wondering, that's the sound of my ceiling fan making obnoxious squeaks. It's enough to drive a person mad.

Is it raining??

Oh it is. I couldn't tell through all the squeaking.

I still have not been able to fix my sleeping pattern. I'm having trouble falling asleep on time and I'm having trouble getting out of bed early. T.T

5 days to uni. And still no sign of results? I'm guessing it'll be tomorrow. (Or today, since it's 1am.) So tired of waiting.

xoxo bella

In Your Eyes I'd Like To Stay

2009-01-06T22:44:00.004+08:00

Hello my babies.

I'd just like to say a very happy birthday to..........

MISS VICKI CHONG!! hey look this was taken during my birthday. cool cool. hahaha. anyway what can I say? You probably are one of the very very few people who actually laugh at the stupid lame things that I say, and for that you are one of my favourite people ever! Not to mention we are on the same wavelength most of the time (with our super sisterly psychic link!) and hanging out with you is always fun. Except when you are miss crankypants, and that would be the times that I am hiding in my room :P May this year be better than the last, with lots of good surprises coming up :) hugs!

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Also not forgetting...

Happy 22nd to Mister Tashry!! I don't know if he reads this, but I know he's stumbled onto my blog before so here it is just in case. Notice the shirt in the picture. I don't know if it's true, but I'm sure we girls (Fairuz, Lina, Rinni, Amee and I) would agree, a gift from God indeed :P hahaha. Stay the way you are Tash, and I'll see you during our next get-togethers! :D

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I am going CRAZY waiting for the results. It's definitely coming out no later than tomorrow though. HURRY UP ALREADY! It's 5 days till semester reopens for goodness' sake.

BYE ALL.

xoxo bella

We Can't Play On Broken Strings

2009-01-02T02:01:00.003+08:00

I suddenly have an inclination to blog!! hahaha. I'm christening my sister's brand new laptop by blogging on it for the first time. Also for 2009!! HAHAHHA I RHYMED!

Anyway how was your first day of 2009? :) It rained here. Pffft.

I'm feeling happyish? Like content somewhat. I don't know if it's a phase or whatever, but I'm feeling like focused... somewhat??? Or maybe that's just from days of spending time at home with the family. I don't know. The holiday is coming to an end, and I'm feeling good about it. I didn't really feel like wasted it away doing practically NOTHING, but I did go out and meet some friends like every once in a while. BUT I also did what I yearned to do during the previous semester: bum around and sleep for as long as I want WITHOUT feeling guilty :D

so 'twas good :D

Oh yeah my NYE was okay. My little cousins are so cute. Especially the birthday boy! He is so adorable and we all wanted to take him home. He has the most adorable high-pitched voice and he is just so KUAI! Such a good boy! After he blew out the candles on his cake, he insisted on serving every single person a slice. And when my mum was cleaning up the mess, he saw and went like "Aunty aunty!! Wait, I help you carry, I help you carry the things!!" and my mum replied "No no, it's okay you can carry the tissues on the table" My cousin: "Ok ok! I carry the tissue!!"

SO CUTE OKAY!?!?!?!?! I just wanted to hug him and not let him go.

:)

There are some pictures but I can't be bothered to upload them into the laptop. Too lazy... too lazy...... :P

At midnight the neighbours played fireworks so we all went out to watch. I like fireworks. And some people just drove around holding down their carhorns, which was strange but okay.

Then around 45 minutes past twelve we went home and then I watched CSI and went online till almost 5am. So all in all, a mellow entrance into the new year. hehehe.

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I'm bored actually. Is it just me, or are there less and less people to talk to online?? I mean, I haven't been online much either, but this just proves that there's no point anyway. NOTHING TO DO LOR!

I am loving James Morrison's Broken Strings. Also, Katy Perry's One Of The Boys.

Results out soon! Let the suspense end! And a week till uni so I can see everyone again!! hehe. Actually, the holidays went by quite quickly, don't you guys think? Or is it just me?

My cousin's daughter and yours truly

Ok that was random. Hehehe. I told you I gained weight................

Alrighty nothing much to ramble about now. SEE YOU ALL! MWAHS.

xoxo bella

Here We Are Again

2008-12-31T01:25:00.001+08:00

God, I can't believe we're at the end of another year again..... I know I sound like a broken record, but it just throws me off, how time can just get away from you.

Anyway, last year I did a round-up of the year with pictures. I'm too lazy to do that this year, because it entails scouring through a boatload of photos. So I'll just ramble. :)

This year, I think I've come to appreciate my friends a little bit more. To be honest, I think before I've been sort of taking some of them for granted. Like they're good for a laugh and all that, but it just seems surfacial (I don't think that's a real word but it's the only one that fits) somehow. But... I realised that it's hard to build the kind of rapport that I have with them, and I realised that I am totally at ease with them, and that I am truly myself when around them. They laugh at my lame jokes (or maybe they're just laughing at me), we never run out of things to talk about, I don't feel uncomfortable talking about personal stuff, and it's always fun with you guys. I really am grateful that we're friends. Damn, I'm actually getting choked up. Moving on!

For the new friendships I've made, I'm grateful for you too.

I also tried to work harder (more in the second half of the year though). I'm thinking that it paid off... We'll see in a week. I think with a little bit more discipline, I'll be flying high.... Ok maybe a lot more discipline. I refuse to let myself get lost again...

Next year I want to push myself even harder. I want to be able to juggle everything and do well. I think next year will be extra busy. I've signed myself up for more working hours. I'm quitting at the end of March to concentrate on exams though, then immediately after exams, work attachment!

Two things that I'm determined to do next year is work harder and save. I figured the fruits of saving would go towards rewarding myself for working hard. :) we'll see how it goes. It's all I've been thinking about this holiday though. Hahaha, it's sad I know. But that's what I'm determined to do!

Umm I guess that's it. Sadly I won't be celebrating the end of the year with a bang, but it's okay. I'll be spending it with family. One of my little cousin's birthday falls on new year's eve (COOL RIGHT?!) so we'll be going over to their place for STEAMBOAT.

2009! Here I come! HAPPY NEW YEAR YOU GUYS!! HUGSSSSSS

xoxo bella

So This Is Christmas...

2008-12-27T00:12:00.003+08:00

... and what have you done?

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL! I know this post is a little late, oh man I just looked at the time at it's 12.14am, therefore it's already 27th December. WHOOPSIE. I haven't been online much, NOT because I'm extremely busy, but rather I didn't feel inclined to go online. lol. I'VE GROWN!

hahaha. but seriously, all I've been doing for the past week is reading my many many many books. I'm home home right now so I've been rereading my old books. A bit dusty, but I love them! I love how my shelves are crammed with all sorts of genres of books. Now I look to my left and I see:

1) Bubbles Unbound by Sarah Strohmeyer (I think this is my sister's. I think it was boring.)
2) A Tale Of Two Cities by Charles Dickens (I think this book is SO sad!! and I think this book belongs to Tzen :/)
3) Killjoy by Julie Garwood (one of my many many many Julie Garwoods :D)
4) Prince Caspian by CS Lewis ( I think this belongs to my little sister.)
5) Someone Like You by Roald Dahl (A compilation of short stories by the author, and I have a feeling this was lent to me by Rinni during our PJN days...)
6) Sweet Valley University (HAHAHAhAHAHA!!! OMG CLASSIC!)
7) SHOPAHOLIC SERIESSSSSSSSSS
8) The Amber Spyglass by Phillip Pullman (This was given to me by my English teacher back in Form 4 when I won this story writing competition. sigh... One of the few moments of pride I've ever had in my life...)
9) Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince (Hardcover, yo!! but I lost the jacket!! T.T)

AND MANY MANY MORE!!! I don't find being labelled as a bookworm insulting. Au contraire, it is a privilege to be called as such. haha. I dunno what I'm saying. Conclusion: I LOVE BOOKS!

Hmm not a very Christmassy post methinks. meh. Oh well. I'm not feeling very christmassy this season. la dee da!

And what are you people doing for New Year's? Cos I think I'm doing nothing. :/

xoxo bella

Guilt Has Nothing To Do With It

2008-12-18T20:57:00.006+08:00

I'M EFFING BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EXCLAMATIONMARKEXCLAMATIONMARK!

Sigh.

I'm afraid to eat nowadays because I am gaining weight, too much, too fast. *tear* I was looking at some old photos and I'm like I WANT TO BE THAT SIZE AGAIN. It's like I'm gradually gaining weight over the years.......... I don't want. I don't wantIdon'twantIdontwant

My boss asked me today why I don't go out with the other girls from work. And honestly I don't really know why. I get along with them well enough.. I guess it's cause I always feel awkward and uncomfortable around them, and I guess I'm past the point where I have to WORK for people to be my friends. In my opinion, if I'm at ease with a person right off the bat, then we truly can be friends. :)

I can't believe it's Christmas next week. Sometimes it's scary that time passes so quickly; it's like a thief that steals bits of your life without you knowing it.

I'm counting down.... 7 days to Christmas... 13 days to 2009... 20 days (I'm guessing) till results are out, 3 semesters away from graduation, and the real world.

Damn.

CONGRATULATIONS TO LINA AND RYAN ON FINALLY COMPLETING THEIR HND AND ALSO THEIR FABULOSO RESULTSSSSS!! *confetticonfetti*

How come we UBD students, who finished exams earlier than ITB, have to wait for like a month for our results??? You just want us to stew in our anxiety, don't you. Sadists.

My wisdom tooth from my left lower jaw is making its debut. It aches.

Mmmmm, I don't really know what else to talk about. Meh. Okay I guess that's all.

Ciao!

xoxo bella

I Wanna Make Love

2008-12-16T01:18:00.006+08:00

RIGHT NOW NA NA! That song keeps playing in my head!!! And it reminds me of the fake Akon we met at Thai(?sp) Bar. The one that nobody wanted to dance with. Akon FAIL!! LOL

Anyway! I was bored and so wanted to do another senseless questionnaire. (also I'm totally in love with my blog, I keep clicking the headers just to see it slide. I love that slide action baby HAHAHA!!)

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1) Where and when was your last kiss?
- BLAH. and BLAH.

2) What color underwear/boxers/thong wearing now?
- omg these questions are shameless

3) What are you listening to right now?
- I Hate This Part by PCD

4) Whats your favorite number?
- 27?

5) What was the last thing you ate?
- Cadbury's peppermint chocolate

6) When was the last time you smiled?
- probably earlier, laughing at something online

7) How is the weather right now?
- hot during the day, but it's pouring atm.

8) Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
- uhhh probably my sister

9) What is your worst habit?
- procrastinating!! WORST EVER

10) Do you drink?
- yeah.. but not that much, and not often.

11) Do you dance?
- yup

12) When was the last time, if ever, you blacked out?
- ......... probably a year ago...

13.) Girlfriend/Boyfriend?
- Robert Pattinson, please.

14) Your Hair color?
- black.

15) Eye Color?
- brown

16) Do you wear contacts?
- yup, shortsighted like crazy and I hate wearing glasses.

17) Favorite day?
- Friday.

18) Favorite Month?
- September? :PP

19) Have you ever cried for no reason?
- omg, like always, I hate my emo-ness

20) What was the last movie you watched?
- TWILIGHTTTTT!!!! LOVEEEE!!!

21) Favorite Day of the Year?
- hmmmm. off the top of my head, CNY. LOL.

22) Are you too shy to ask someone out?
- 'someone' as in a guy I like? probably. I don't think the case is shyness, but the fear of rejection.

23) Last advice you received?
- "wash off your makeup or else you'll get pimples in the morning" - directed by Tzen to a passed-out Mandy, but it scared me out of bed.

24) What was the highlight of your weekend?
- bbq! Miri!

25) Chocolate or Vanilla?
- vanilla!

26) What is the last text message you received?
- I think from my sister saying I don't need to pick her up.

27) What is the last text message sent?
- don't remember eh. probably to my sister.

28) Who was the last person you called?
- my sister. (I totally need to talk/text other people :S)

29) What was the last sports game you watched?
- probably football. I didn't exactly watch it, but it was playing like everywhere in Miri.

30) When was the last time you slept in someone else's bed?
- ahh last weekend??

31) Favorite movies?
- too many to mention

32) Favorite football Team?
- LOL sorry, I don't do football.

33) What were you doing before this?
- watching Private Practice.

34) Any pets?
- nope.

35) Favorite Drink?
- iced lemon tea

36) Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
- buttered!!

37) Dogs or cats?
- dogs!

38) Favorite flower?
- ahhh the really pretty ones I guess.

39) When was the last time you got in trouble?
-hmmm can't remember.

41) Have you ever loved someone?
-I guess....

42) Who would you like to see right now?
- people I'm missing

43) Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
- hmmm the only person I think I still am friends with is Lysa, who is my cousin anyway.

44) Have you ever fired a gun?
- never even held one.

45) Do you like to travel by plane?
- yeah. I get the least of motion sickness.

46) What websites do you go to frequently besides friendster?
- I deleted my Friendster account. FACEBOOK FTW!!

47). If you could be with anybody right now who would it be?
- I don't know...

48) How many pillows do you sleep with?
- One comfortable pillow is all I need. Oh, and my teddy bear.

49) Are you missing someone?
- yes yes.

50) How was your day?
- it was alright.... uneventful.

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number 40 is missing~

okay I'm probably going to bed soon. Toodles!!

xoxo bella

ps: THREE HUNDREDTH POST!!

Give My Regards To Soul And Romance

2008-12-15T22:52:00.002+08:00

What do you think? Nice, yes? Removed Feedjit cos it was too bulky and it looked ugly when expanded so no more stalking stalkers, lol. I especially like the sliders. :) :) Took a while cos I haven't switched skins in a while. I hate the html codes.

I'm feeling sick atm. Nausea and stomach pain. Ack. And I still haven't exactly recovered from my fun/tiring weekend. I started work again today, but only up till Friday. Freedom till next year then! WHOOP!

Still don't know what to do new year's eve but probably KK? Yes? No? *shrugs*

Anyway..............

Nothing to ramble about now so TA!!

xoxo bella

Twilight

2008-12-12T02:37:00.003+08:00

Actually this post is just going to be about Robert Pattinson. OMG! I am so in love with him now. There are very few actors that can make me swoon and lately Jake's been MIA so I've fallen out of love with him and am now infatuated with ROBERT PATTINSON!

I cry from the sheer beauty that is thee, sweet Robert~

I mean how perfect is it that the main character in Twilight is called Bella! Whenever my name passed through his lips I thought that I could die happy. HAHAHAHAAH!! No seriously, he is so hot. I've always thought that he was good-looking (even as Cedric in Harry Potter I noticed) but omg. He just oooooozzeedddd sexxxxinesssssss. RAWR! He is so gorgeous. I hope I dream about him tonight. hahahahahahahahahhahah *dreamy smile*

Twilight wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Vampires are such sexy creatures in that movie. :/

Too lazy to talk so much. Ok bye bye

xoxo bella

I Don't Care What You Think

2008-12-10T18:02:00.003+08:00

as long as it's about me

So I was thinking the other day.

End. Update: I had thought!

LOL

Okay seriously, I was thinking, how I should stop whining to my parents about how miserable I am. If I were in their shoes, and my kid was complaining about how unhappy she was or how sucky her life is, I would feel like such a failure as a parent. Which isn't true. No matter what, I think I'm happy that I turned out the way I did.

I can take care of myself. I'm smart. I'd like to believe that I'm strong... Even if I'm emotionally fragile sometimes... but I'll still survive. I know what's important and what's not. I think I'm quite mature for my age.

I'm not trying to toot my own horn, but I just think that all those qualities, I must've gotten from the way my parents raised me. They're not perfect, but in my family, my father is the figure of strength, and my mother represents patience. And I'd like to think I inherited a bit of those from both of them.

I'm saying all this because I'm feeling a little homesick. I want to go home where my parents will take care of me. It's a little lonely up here :( I want to feel like a daughter.

Ok ok enough brooding hehe. Now reading The Historian by Elizabeth Kostova :)

xoxo bella

For You A Thousand Times Over

2008-12-09T14:38:00.004+08:00

Hello!

Just thought I should update on some stuff, cos my previous post wasn't really much of an update. So I had my last paper last saturday and it didn't go as well as it could've. Friday night I managed to get a migraine which made it really hard to read through Tax one last time so I took an actifast for it. Two hours later my head was still pounding and I couldn't do much except lie on my bed and groan so I took another one, which thankfully kicked in after almost an hour. Then I just read through some of the chapters so I could remember all the details (it's annoying cos there are a lot of rules and treatment for different stuff) but after a while I decided to sleep and wake up at 6 to finish off the last remaining chapters. I set my alarm at 5.45 (15 minutes for me to loll about in bed before actually getting up)

I woke up feeling strangely refreshed... looked towards my window... 'Wow, it's mighty bright for 5.45am....' Pause. Strange, I don't remember my alarm ringing................. holy crap. I make a scramble for my phone and saw: 8.13am.

My exam starts at 9am. At this time I am usually already at the examination hall.

So I scramble to the toilet, and washed up as quickly as I could. Threw on a baju kurung, collected my stuff. Drove like a maniac to uni. Anyway, my hair was in disarray and my head was still feeling a little stuffy. I didn't manage to finish my revision, and yeah. I was very upset.

I'm okay right now, cos really, I have no one to blame but myself. Anyway next time I'm not taking more than one actifast. No way no how. I'll take the pain.

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I watched Bolt sometime last week with Tzen. (Oh and Nana came over to say hi, but I couldn't tell who it was at first cos it was soooooo dark, so she was like chattering on and on while I was like who the eff is this? hahahha)

ANYWAY.

9/10!!!!!!!!

IT IS SOOOOO FRICKIN HILARIOUS!!!! And although it pains me to say this, but it is probably better than Wall-e. I sooooo recommend it people, and I wanna watch it again!!!! I was laughing throughout the whole movie, except for one part where we teared up because it was sad :'( but it is so very good. LOVED IT. I WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN!!!! I promise that you would love it.

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I just finished reading 'The Kite Runner' by Khaled Hosseini. I really don't know whether it's better than 'A Thousand Splendid Suns', but I think I found The Kite Runner sadder... It's just so... I don't know. It's very good. I put down the book feeling happy and sad at the same time. I think the theme of the whole book was redemption. Could you possibly make up for the sins that you've committed? Again, it is based in war-torn Afghanistan. It's very sad to read all the atrocities that was committed in the book, because it is probably committed in real life. So horrible. I felt so disgusted and outraged.

Okay haha, better not give away too much, pero este libro es estupendamente. :) :)

I have a few other books that I've not read yet so I'm looking forward to those.

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Okay I guess that's all.... I'm wondering where everyone is because even though it's the hols there doesn't seem to be much activity online.. but then again I haven't been online much either. haha.

See ya.

xoxo bella

Tagged

2008-12-06T15:25:00.009+08:00

Okay I got tagged by Razan so here it is.

1. What’s the relationship between you and her/him?
- coursemates, though we only had one course together this sem, and I think none next sem!! haha well anyway uni mates then!!

2. Your 5 impressions towards her/him?
- very good boy, very nice boy, very rajin boy, very mean boy, very orange boy (malas I want to think bah zan. anyway it's all true :P)

3. The most memorable things she/he have said to you.
- Once, I was saying that I think I'm developing muscles from going gymming and he blurted EWWWWW :(

4. The most memorable things she/he had done for you
- not FOR me, TO me lah!! I received a nudge from him on MSN at 4am (I had left it on overnight) and when I asked him why the next day, he said that it wasn't him. And I got freaked out because I am gullible :(

5. If she/he becomes your lover, you will:
- Get him to do my assignments HAHAHAHA

6. If she/he becomes your enemy, you will:
- kick him when he's not looking. OH I KNOW, I'll steal your iTouch :P

7. If she/he becomes your love, she/he has to improve on
- belanja all the time.

8. If she/he becomes your enemy, the reason is
- probably I did something to piss him off :( like steal his iPhone or kick him

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?
- ON HIM? WTH?? err I usually just poke you. in the arm. with my finger. frequently. hehe.

10. The overall impression of him/her is
- oh yeah I forgot first time I saw him, I thought he was a sleepy quiet boy. Because he looks sleepy all the time and I don't think he talked to me until like second or third semester :P

11. How do you think the people around you feel about you?
- dunno.

12. The characteristic that you think you have?
- cracking lame jokes.

13. The characteristic that you possess that you hate?
- my tendency to fall into depression

14. The most ideal person that you want to be is?
- hm. I don't think there's a point to answering this. I am who I am.

15. For the people who care about you and like you, say something about them?
- Thanks for putting up with me :) I know I can be annoying and difficult sometimes. Love you all!!

16. Name ten people

Sheena
Grace
Mandy
Tzen
Ryan
Iain
Razan
Elvis
Fairuz
Rinni

(lol that's like almost all my friends :)

17. Who is No. 2 having a relationship with?

- HAHAHA I KNOW WHO SHE WANTS TO HAVE ONE WITH LAHHHH WINK WINK

18. No. 3 a male or female?
- Female

19. If No. 7 and No. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
- hahahaha seeing as they're both taken, and have never met each other, I don't think it's possible.

20. How about No.5 and No. 8?
- LOLLLL yeah No.5 wishes

21. What is No. 1 studying?
- Degree in Business Administration

22. Is No. 4 single?
- No lah, she's my girlfriend. HAHAHAHA

23. Say something about No. 6?
- He likes to say hi

hahaha. Ok now from Mandy's blog :P

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The rules are simple. Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of results, and post it as your answer. Then tag 7 people.

My age next birthday

Do the math

A place I'd like to travel to

around the globeeee

A favourite place

bed! my bed

A favourite thing

you being friendsies!! people I love!!

Favourite food

Favourite colour

Town I live in

Kiulap, because a picture of Lumut is hard to find. I'm always up here anyways

Nickname I have

minus the bandanas :P

College major

Name of my love

UPDATED: 11/12/08, after watching Twilight. I am in love with Robert Pattinson :(

Bad habit

omg, that is spot on :S

Wishlist

Happiness

Travelling

$$$$$

tagging everyone on blogroll!!! :)

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omg that was exhausting ta people!!

xoxo bella

ps: HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! HOORAY FOR FREEDOM!! WHOOPEEEEE

How Do I Feel This Good Sober?

2008-12-01T11:27:00.002+08:00

If you're wondering why my titles are sounding a little random and cryptic lately, it's cos I've given up on coming up with titles that sounds good and that have anything to with the subject of my blog. I've decided to just use lyrics from songs that I like the sound of. Anyway you can have fun guessing which song it's from too (SEE IT DELIVERS MORE THAN ONE PURPOSE)

I'm holidaying like exams are over :/ Ah well.

I've been feeling angry lately because I think I've been feeling resentful (to certain individuals more than others) and I guess when that much resentment builds up you just can't control your reactions anymore. Resentment, it's the story of my life. I resent the fact that people take me for granted sometimes. I resent the fact that I am only your friend when it's convenient. I resent the fact that I can't be needy, and yet people expect me to take care of their needs. I resent that my life is nothing like I thought it would be. (Not depressed now, just feeling jaded. J-J-JADED)

I'm a little self-absorbed, lol. Meh. Whatever. Who isn't, anyway?

Tabs opened to: Facebook, Blogger, Cracked, National Geographic.

WHICH OF THESE THINGS DO NOT BELONG!

The squid with elbows creeps the hell out of me. HEHEHE I just searched for "gnomes" on the site. No show. DAMN!

Back to real life. And by that I mean I'm going to lie in bed and waste more time.

xoxo bella

You're Oh-So-Charming

2008-11-30T17:50:00.001+08:00

Dad: *berates little sister* Why are you acting like that? Macam anak orang utan! (Translation: Like the offspring of an orang utan!)

Bella: ..... Won't that make you the orang utan?

Dad: .........

Everyone else: LOL

:D

xoxo bella

Take A Sad Song And Make It Better

2008-11-29T07:57:00.001+08:00

I imagine that this is how some local radio stations hire their djs.

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1: We look for specific qualities in our djs.
2: Yes I understand. I can speak fluently in English and Malay, I'm easy to get along with, I'm-
1: No, no, firstly, I must ask.... Are you annoying?
2: What?
1: Annoying. Irritating. We like to annoy our listeners whenever we can. Especially early in the morning. That's always fun.
2: Er.....?
1: OR you could just speak in a fake accent?
2: Fake accent?
1: Yes, British, American, we encourage our employees to get creative.
2: ..... I've been told that I can do a really good Indian accent...
1: WE'LL SEE YOU MONDAY!

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seriously, I think that's how it's done...

xoxo bella

For A Moment I Can Tell I've Got You

2008-11-28T02:10:00.002+08:00

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This song struck a chord in me (no pun intended), I couldn't help but tear up...

I just found the melody so beautiful and simple, and the lyrics...

"Empty stage, with nothing but this girl
Singing this simple melody and
Wearing her heart on her sleeve.."

I don't know. I think I'm in a super emo mood... but it is a beautiful song imo. :)

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Don't you wish that you could just erase bad memories in your mind? Or blunt their effect on you? I know that you learn from pain, it makes you grow.. but sometimes it's just too much. I've tried steeling myself against hurt, but it just made me feel like it's there in a box somewhere, and one day that box will fall apart and all those emotions will break me.

I kind of have this fear that I may go crazy when I'm older. I'm totally serious. Because right now I'm struggling to keep all my emotions under control and it's getting harder and harder...

This is not making me sound good, is it? PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME FRIENDS :'(

I reread that article on why the 21st century is making us so miserable. Give it a read. It's a really good one.

Sigh. I think I'm drifting away from friends. I've had an awkward text conversation earlier with someone who used to be a good friend. One MSN convo that ended abruptly because I was just plain tired of making small talk. One that wasn't much of a convo in the first place, because we had nothing to talk about. All these with people I used to confide in. I don't know what's happening.

I need a change of scenery. I need to surround myself with something unfamiliar. I need to get out. I need help. :(

EMO TO THE MAXXX.

Night people.

xoxo bella

<3

2008-11-27T00:26:00.004+08:00

I AM SO TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH DAVID CHOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Awesome awesome.

I think he''s one of those artists who made it big through Youtube? (heheheheh I think there's an innuendo there somewhere)

Here are some of my favourites.

My Time With You - Kina Grannis and David Choi

Also check out his covers: Womanizer (Britney Spears), How Deep Is Your Love (BeeGees), Viva La Vida (Coldplay) and lastly (AND MOST WICKEDLY AWESOME) Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Theme Song :D

hehehe okay ttyl hugs!

xoxo bella

ps: fyi my MAC paper was meh. Same as FR. Ah well. Resting before starting with FM and Tax! Halfway to freedom people! WHEEEE

.......... Nothing Comes To Mind

2008-11-25T23:32:00.003+08:00

It's tiring to come up with titles too you know?

I'm not even near halfway through MAC. I'm just so tired. And maybe feeling a little defeated. I mean if I did not so great for something I actually studied for (studied quite thoroughly and in advance too I might add) what's the freaking point eh?? But nvm, I shall persevere. (I hope.) Am feeling a little sleepy now.

I don't know what is up with my body lately, but I think I've been looking very tired/sickly for the past few weeks or something. There are permanent shadows under my eyes and my lips are constantly dry and I just look pale all the time. I was thinking that I look like Morticia now.

Morticia Addams

............ Dammit she's gorgeous. No, no I don't look like her. Errrr oh yeah I was thinking of Lily Munster.

"Hwoaaaarrrrr!!!!"

LOL! Well minus the hair. And the lipstick. And uh.... Ah well I look pale and ghostly that's the nutshell of it =____=

Also my backaches are back again. If I don't get enough rest, I'm like practically bedridden. AND! My period is late again. (Screw it, I'm talking about my menstrual cycle whether you like it or not NEHHH!!) I think if this goes on (the irregularities I mean) I'm gonna go see the doctor. A bit worried about it.

Anyway yeah, obviously I am not in the best shape... :( Gotta start gymming again.... It's just SO expensive! And I need a gym buddy!! One that is not lazy! (Like me.)

Okay ttyl guys mwahs

xoxo bella

:(

2008-11-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

I was searching for my result slip for my third semester so I turned my room upside down looking for it... Found my notebook from a year ago.

Specifically the one from second semester.

All the doodles..... His name written everywhere. "I don't want to study, I just want to sit here and daydream about him." I actually wrote that. wtf. I don't miss him at all, but I do miss feeling that way about someone. And have that someone feel the same way. Also I realised that people in love are disgusting. Because I was embarrassed for myself, reading what I wrote. lol.

Anyway, long story short, I'm depressed now and my result slip is still missing. :( :( :(

xoxo bella

ps: I did laugh at what I wrote though. Apparently I was feeling a little down and listening to Foolish Games by Jewel and writing down the lyrics... And under that I wrote: Note to self, do not listen to sad songs when you are already depressed.

Love It!

2008-11-22T16:28:00.007+08:00

I should stop posting from other sites, but I just had to share the joy!

Presenting GOD'S FACEBOOK!

source: CollegeHumor/Geekologie

Ok back to MAC.

xoxo bella

WHAT IN THE FREAKING HELL

2008-11-21T10:44:00.001+08:00

I know I'm supposed to be on hiatus. but screw it, I've already broken my fb hiatus, and last night my msn hiatus as well

ANYWAY! I JUST HAD TO POST THIS (warning: may inflict trauma on sight, mind and overall screw you up lol)

source: geekologie!!! i love this site mannnn

OMG WTF I WAS IN GIGGLES BUT ALSO HORRIFIED LIKE HOW YOU WOULD REACT TO A LITTLE KID FALLING FLAT ON HIS FACE EXCEPT IT'S REALLY REALLY FUNNY LOLOLOLOLOL

seriously, what in the freaking hell was this shit? (SEE WHAT I DID THERE :D)

destressing - xoxo bella

Gonna Be Okay

2008-11-10T22:56:00.004+08:00

DAH DAH DOO DOO JUST DANCE SPIN THAT RECORD BABY DAH DAH DOO DOO

:D

No I have not lost my mind (that I know of), but I am totally addicted to Lady Gaga's Just Dance!

It makes me want to go clubbing/dancing. :(

Oh another song I'm playing on repeat: Another Way To Die from Jack White & Alicia Keys. It's the theme song from Quantum of ~~Solachi~~ Solace. WHICH I saw last Friday btw. It was very meh. James Bond travels all over the world and gets shot at lots of times. All the while with a very unruffled expression. I don't even know what the whole movie was about (though I did not watch Casino Royale but imo you should at least make it so it could be a standalone!) HAHAHAHA I am suddenly reminded of a lame joke Tashry told me about James Bond on msn.

"So James Bond wants to withdraw money from the ATM. He thinks: 'What's my PIN number again? Oh right *keys in number*... zero... zero... seven...'"

HAHAHAHAH that made me LOL so hard.

I'm feeling very chirpy atm because I just came from Sheena's blog. That Maple at Midnight thing is FUNNAY! Very Asian, but still hilarious. youtube it yourself if you haven't seen it, i'm too lazy to post the link (or type properly for that matter hahaha)

OHHHH I AM LOVING MUSIC ATM!

The whole of Sunday (when I took breaks from tax) I karaoke-d with me sister. Then on the way up to Bandar we sang along to my song collection. WE SHOULD TOTALLY GO KTV SOMEWHERE! You know like have drinks, big group of people, great song collection to wail your lungs out to. FUN EH? After exams! Group destress activity. SINGING ORGY! AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH

Crap I am so totally hyper.

Here's the random part of my post:

Keane - The Lovers Are Losing

I dreamed I had nothing at all, nothing but my own skin

TA PEOPLE!

xoxo bella

Hello hello

2008-11-06T13:25:00.003+08:00

I wasn't planning to blog at all today but my blog is sad and empty.

Hello you who's reading! :)

Anyway.

YAY FOR OBAMA! lols. I don't know why I feel happy that he won (would affect me in no way whatsoever) but I know I'm happy that McCain didn't win, being pro-war and all that. Obama would mean less deployments to Iraq! NO WAR PPL! *randomly political*

Also, hey, the first African-American President! :')

Okay I should go now. I'VE BEEN PROCRASTINATING!!

xoxo bella

ps: oh yeah, I didn't get to blog the other day but 4th November (Tuesday) was my sister Gloria's birthday! So a happy belated birthday to her!! (I know you read my blog ting :D SHOUTOUT!)

Messed Up

2008-10-31T23:43:00.004+08:00

Hello people.

My revision's going really slowly, I always end up sleeping or doing something else I dunno. Sigh.

Not doing too well.

I was feeling a little stressed out a week before which resulted in me breaking out in hives/rashes... tis not pretty :( I'm feeling a little ugly now. Yeah yeah it happens to me when I get superly stressed out.

I'm frustrated! I am doing revision. I am doing work. It's just that I always leave them halfway, grrr!!!!

I'm gonna have to go and do FM in a bit, but I'm feeling sleepy now... but no, I must do it before I sleep!

I'm feeling a bit depressed somewhat. I don't know.

Anyway.

Watch this!!

He tapes electric stimulators, looking like the same type used for electroshock therapy, to his face, and syncs them with his music so his involuntary facial contortions match up with the tune.

Source: geekologie!!

This made me want to laugh and cry at the same time!! It looked totally retarded but it was scary because I thought his face was gonna melt off or something!! I mean this totally falls under the category of WTF?!!!

Ok time to go.

I miss you guys :)(friends who I have not seen/talked to in a while.)

xoxo bella

:(

2008-10-25T03:40:00.003+08:00

Hello all.

Yes I am awake at this time. I'm not too sure why but I haven't been able to sleep last night either. I went to bed at 11ish, woke up at around 1am, and couldn't get back to sleep. Same thing tonight.

I'm feeling overwhelmed. We're going to have a crash course in Biz Tax because we're running out of time, so starting Monday, we'll be having classes EVERYDAY (and I really mean everyday, Monday through Sunday). No more free Wednesdays. 8am to 4pm. I want to cry. 22 chapters left to cover in three weeks :S

I'm wondering how to juggle that and revise for the exams as well..... plus the fact that I have three core papers in three days ain't helping. Why does this semester suck! WHY!

Also, I managed to catch a cold. I blame the weather. I mean it's hot as hell during the day and then it pours heavily in the evening. It's messed up. I'm feeling much better now though, I was feeling really crappy earlier and was sneezing non-stop. Thank goodness I'm feeling much better, cos this ain't the best time to get sick!! Grr.

Okay that is all.

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

2008-10-22T17:08:00.004+08:00

I just dropped by to say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MANDY!

lol this was ages ago :S heheheh 'twas fun though :D

I look like crap in this one, but you look great. SEE! I'm nice :D hahaha this was back in May this year

Sucks that you're sick at the moment :S you can postpone the birthday fun for another day then!! Get well soon :)

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On a totally unrelated issue, here's Wall.E showing me some love hehehehe:

WHEE!

Okay, I'm a bit cranky now cos I have to drive out in the super heavy rain, which I HATE. Because it's so dangerous and hard to see :(

Laters.

xoxo bella

A Few Days Left

2008-10-21T17:13:00.003+08:00

till I absolutely need to get started on revision. MEH! I was up all night working on my Spanish speech presentation thingamabob and was worrying like hell for it WHICH was pointless anyhoos because it ended up getting postponed to Saturday =____= what a waste of nerves, stress, sleeping time, and nausea. HAHAAH seriously I don't make sense most of the time.

Now I have that stupid MAC presentation to get started on but I feel soooo lazyyyyyy. I don't want to do it!! Grrr. Mainly because I think it's pointless lah, but whatevs. I think I'm just lazy....

I've been fighting with a mess of emotions inside of me, I swear if you prick me with a needle this whole mess of sludge will come out. Though please don't try. I will bleed and cry. :D

I identified with some random blogger as how she interpreted the university experience: When you're used to being the top of the class in high school, it will all go downhill in uni, because EVERYONE who got into uni was at the top of the class. Of course, I was just average in high school (because I was too lazy to study hard) so in uni I'm extra average. POO :(

Alriteys I gotta run now. Ciao bellas! :)

xoxo bella

ps: I didn't realise that they revamped the UBD website! lol, it's a vast improvement I have to say, but NO IAIN YOU STILL CAN'T ENTER :P I also find the banners that they hang along the roads very distracting while driving hehehe.

HAHAHA

2008-10-20T02:43:00.003+08:00

I don't know if it's the late hour or the boredom, but I am finding these hilarious!!!!

Product Name Translations:

"Schweppes Toilet Water." -- "Schweppes Tonic Water," as originally translated into Italian.
"Manure stick." -- "Mist Stick," a brand of curling iron, in German slang.
"Micro tender rat." -- "Microsoft Mouse," as translated into Italian on the instruction sheet for a Taiwanese Microsoft-compatible mouse.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAA MICRO TENDER RAT!!!

Advertising Slogans:

"Eat your fingers off." -- "Finger lickin' good," as originally translated into Chinese.
"Are you lactating?" -- "Got milk?" as originally translated into Spanish for advertising in Mexico.
"Suffer from diarrhea." -- "Turn it loose," as originally translated into Spanish for advertising of Coors.
"Fly naked." -- "Fly in leather," as originally translated into Spanish for advertising of American Airlines' leather first class seats.
"I saw the potato." -- "I saw the Pope," as translated into Spanish. The slogan was used on promotional T-Shirts for the Pope's visit to Miami.
"Nothing sucks like an Electrolux." -- An English slogan used by Scandinavian vacuum manufacturer Electrolux for an American advertising campaign.

ROFL LMAO!!!! LOL LOL LOL ARE YOU LACTATING??? OMG HAAHHAHAHA

From Foreign Menus:

"Our wines leave you nothing to hope for." -- From a menu in Switzerland.
"Savour best match of the mysterious sauces." -- From a menu in Japan.
"Modernly arranged miscellaneous European Flavors." -- From a menu in Japan.
"Vietnam bird salad, mixed Chimaki and asian corses." -- From a menu in Japan.
"Seasonal ingredients specially pre-pared and directly imported from their place of origination." -- From a menu in Japan.
"Cold shredded children and sea blubber in spicy sauce." -- From a menu in China.
"Jam and Cheese Sandwich." -- From a menu in Costa Rica.
"Pastry Chef." -- From a menu in Costa Rica.
"Waffies." -- From a menu in Thailand.
"Children soup." -- From a menu in India.
"Deep Fried Fingers of my Lady." -- From a menu in India.
"Grilled lamp ribs." -- From a menu in Barcelona.
"Vegitational beef soap." -- From a menu in Brazil.
"'Boys style' little chickens." -- From a menu in Barcelona.
"Pork with fresh garbage." -- From a menu in Vietnam.
"Limpid red beet soup with cheesy dumplings in the form of a finger." -- From a menu in Poland.
"French fried ships." -- From a menu in Cairo.
"Fried friendship." -- From a menu in Nepal.
"Fried fishermen." -- From a menu in Japan.
"Friend eggs." -- From a menu in Laos.
"Gordon blue." -- From a menu in a Korean hotel.
"Cram Chowder." -- From a Chinese buffet in Canada.
"Rather burnt land slug." -- On a menu in Thailand.
"Chessburger." -- On a menu in Poland.
"Hod dok." -- On a menu in Poland.
"Turkey meat, salad, and sos." -- A creative spelling of "sauce" on a menu in Poland.
"Roat poik." -- From a menu in a Chinese Restaurant in the United States.
"Ckicken Velvet and Ckicken Noddle." -- The soups of the day listing, from a menu in a Chinese Restaurant in the United States.
"Ha Ha Fortune Cookies." -- From a menu in a Chinese Restaurant in the United States.
"Sweat from the trolley." -- From a menu in Europe.
"Salad a firm's own make." -- From a menu in Poland.
"Dreaded veal cutlet with potatoes in cream." -- From a menu in China.
"Strawberry crap." -- From a menu in Japan.
"Beef rashers beaten up in the country people's fashion." -- From a menu in Poland.
"Buttered saucepans and fried hormones." -- From a menu in Japan.
"Indonesian Nazi Goreng." -- From a menu in Hong Kong.
"Muscles Of Marines/Lobster Thermos." -- From a menu in Cairo.
"Toes with butter and jam." -- From a menu in Bali.
"Teppan Yaki - Before Your Cooked Right Eyes." -- From a menu in Japan.
"Soon Go Fatt" -- The name of a Chinese Restaurant in Kuala Lumpur.
"Hamanegs." -- From many menus in Slovakia.
"Guinea-Pig Breast." -- From a menu in Slovakia.

(more)

HAHAHHAHAHAHA OMG I AM DYING!!! PORK WITH FRESH GARBAGE! YUMM! and HOD DOK!! LOL LOL LOL better not eat so much or you'll SOON GO FATT LMAO OMG

ohhhhhhhhhhhh I am crying with laughter over here!!!!

oh man.. HAHAHAHHA

xoxo bella

Ahh.........

2008-10-14T15:32:00.002+08:00

I actually had something to blog about but the page took so long to load that I forgot...

Anyways.

I was talking to this guy I work with (who is also from uni) and we both realised that exams are almost a month away...... that revelation caused a whole series of "omg" (from both of us), me clutching my head in horror, him staring at the ceiling while his mouth moved wordlessly (trying to figure out if he had enough time to make deadlines and study).

ahhhhh panic!! I really want to get good grades!!!!!!!!!! :( Please give me the willpower and discipline to do so during the next month. Amen. :D

I'm still finding it surreal that it's already mid-October and approaching the end of the year.. Three semesters away from graduation!

:O

And then work??

:O

And then and then.... Other crap!!

:O

Ok I think I am taking a hiatus in a little over a week. I think I should take a full-on internet hiatus (MSN + Facebook), being an FB addict, I think it would be much better. I would be so bored, I'd study :D HAHAHAHA well saying it is different from actually going through with it, I don't trust myself :D

I don't know what I'm saying. I haven't totally recovered from last week, I still seem to be tired and sleepy when I wake up. So yeah. Ok I am rambling so I should go.

BYE BYE!

xoxo bella

Revel In The Chaos

2008-10-11T20:28:00.002+08:00

Although I may bitch about how tired or busy I am sometimes, deep down I enjoy the flurry of activity. Keeping busy is the best way to distract yourself.

FM test was horrific. Seriously. I have no idea how I did :S Oh and random - I LOVE SPANISH! AND DR PAOLO! :D

I'm super tired atm, sleep deprivation for two days. Plus the heat. Plus beating my brain into a pulp for the test.

I read that Bill Gates is no longer the richest man in the world. Apparently, as a result of the financial crisis he lost a whopping $1.5 billion.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Crazehh!

His successor is this guy. Forgot his name. They called him Wizard of Omaha for some reason. Oh wait. Warren Buffett's net worth has actually gone UP by $8 billion in the last few months.

WTF?

How is that possible?

OMG, this is such a dorky/boring post. lol, sorry I'm tired.

I'm thinking of starting my internet hiatus soon, because I haven't been online much these days anyway so might as well right? Haha, but let's just see how it goes. I'm planning to keep myself busy revising for stuff but this might just be one of those (rare) moments that I get a burst of productivity and motivation that usually disappears the next day.

Will let y'all know. But don't expect many updates. I'm trying to cut down on emo posts so yeah.

Ta! and for those who DON'T have lectures on Sundays, have a great weekend! :P

xoxo bella

Shoot It's The Weekend Already

2008-10-04T14:15:00.003+08:00

:(

End of mid-semester break. Although this has been the free-est that I've been during the break (usually I would be swamped with assignments and such) I've only had one assignment and we got it done earlier and it wasn't really that much anyway :S The next one is due in November, I should really take a look at it lol.

However I am worried because my courses this semester are all :S :S :S

TAXATION!! barely even started the course and I missed the second lecture (fourth overall but second USEFUL lecture that SOB I so hate that ohglkaksgainhgilm) I didn't even wanna miss it, but it's a long story and it makes me mad everytime I think of it. GRR! Fridays and Sundays no free time no more. Thank goodness for Wednesdays...... (No work, no classes, WHOOPEE!)

MAC!!! LKS chapters are alright. But Roly P's not so much. And I'm worrying because I really really need to get A's this semester so............. Which reminds me, I have replacement lecture this Monday.

FR!!!!! Since we were done with it early I think I'm probably gonna forget most of what we've done, PLUS!!! M's not here, so who are we gonna ask for help??? :( Not Roly P, that's for sure.

FM!!!! OMG! I am totally lost in this course.......... It's so hard......... I really need to read up on it, and test next week!!!! I'm so screwed :( Tzen, if you're reading this, WARGHHH!!! Bella, if you're reading this, get off your ass and study!

Spanish. CRAP! I forgot about the assignment. Will get it done tomorrow. lol.

Ok top things on my list:
1) Revising
2) Gymming

I think I'm gonna start being a ~~loser~~ loner :D (not that I have friends to hang out with anymore anyway :S HAHAHA!)

Okay see you guys next week, and hope you're enjoying your Raya ^^ I've gained weight :S lol.

Toodles!

xoxo bella

Someday We'll Meet

2008-10-01T13:34:00.003+08:00

FAIRUZ I MISS YOU ALREADYYYYYYYYY :(

Gosh two of my best friends are awayyy awayy awayy from home now. I sad because we won't be hanging out no more. But it was a good summer and I had loads of fun :) See you next year babes! I MIIISSSSS YOUUU GUYSSSSSSSSSS *hugs*

I need to focus on uni now.

Keyword: "need"

What I do instead: Bum around watching FRIENDS. You know you've watched something too much when you start noticing that they use the same extras from season to season. Don't judge me, I need FRIENDS to replace my friends. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA :D

It is raining so hard now I can barely hear myself think. HEAVY RAIN HEAVY RAIN!!!!!!

Oh and a Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends!! (Btw, someone invited me to their openhouse on the 4th day of Raya, but I don't know the number. Whoever it is thank you for the invitation and may I know who you are please :D )

It's the second day of Raya in the UK already though, hope you guys are having a good time :)

I just realised how little I blogged in September. (Ten posts only???) Oh right it is October now!! OMG time does fly!!!!!!!! Soon it'll be the end of the year, and then... 2009? Another year, another new year.... I'm getting old and have done nothing special...................................................................

:S

Anyways.

Ciao!

xoxo bella

THANK YOU~

2008-09-30T00:23:00.002+08:00

I had a great birthday this year!! Usually my birthdays are meh, making me dread it as each year goes by, but this year it was surprisingly a good one! :)

THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO TEXTED

THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO GREETED ME ON FB

THANK YOU FOR THE BIRTHDAY HUGS! (mostly Sheena :P)

I don't know if I'm gonna go into detail here but.

27th September 2008:

I turned twenty one. The day was more or less okay. I was feeling really exhausted from having trouble sleeping two nights in a row, plus Body Jam session at the gym on Friday. So I was a bit loopy and weird and pretty much spouting nonsense the whole time.

Some birthday texts woke me up, but that ain't the worst way to get woken up right? :)

Tutorial, lecture (where the boys started to sing happy birthday but LKS walked in so I shushed them lol), lunch with Tzen (THANKS FOR LUNCH BABE) and then again at Excapade with Sheena and Grace where we were all giggly haha

I went back for a much needed nap.

Woke up to get ready for dinner.

Dinner (at OGH again) was quite fun. We had some funny conversations that I can't remember now.... but I do remember we were talking about when we were born, like who was the hardest to give birth to, what time were we born, etc. And my dad was telling us about an ailment one of my sisters had and we were asking why she had this ailment and he started to tell us that it happened before she was born.

Sisters: Huh? What do you mean?

Dad: You see, when you were conceived-

Me: I don't wanna hear this *plugs fingers into ears*

lol. I think he used the wrong word :S heh heh.

Argh. Can't remember what else. Anyhoos. Moving on.

28th September 2008:

I turned twenty one and a day! :) I had dinner plans with the gang at 6.30pm at Fratini's in KB. Tzen had asked me to pick her up so I texted her before I left home telling her that I was on my way.

So when I reached her place I gave her a call to see where she was. She picked up after a few rings.

T: Hello...?

B: Hey.. where are you??

T: omg!! I just woke up??

B: Er.. you do know that it's 6.15 right? I'm waiting outside your house.

T: ok ok! I'm so sorry!! I'll get ready now! Come up lah.

B: Nah it's okay, I'll just wait in the car.

T: Aiya come up lahh!!

B: No seriously, it's okay I'll just wait in the car. I need to call Fairuz anyway.

T: ohh.. okay then.

I hang up.

I called Fairuz. No answer.

I hung up feeling frustrated and just a little bit annoyed. I was thinking how inconsiderate it was that Tzen asked me to pick her up, and is making me wait because she didn't wake up in time, and I was also annoyed that Fairuz isn't answering my call or text. Then I started thinking, why was Tzen so adamant that I wait upstairs? If she can get ready quickly it wouldn't make sense for me to turn off the engine and walk upstairs only to go back down again?

It clicked.

OMG THEY'RE ALL UPSTAIRS AREN'T THEY!!!!

I started laughing and wondered if I should go up then. Hmmm, nah I think I'll just wait till Tzen calls me again (and I was sure she was gonna call me again if I was right)

TA-DAH my phone rings!!~

T: *nervously* I don't know what to wear!!

B: *resigned, but smiling* Okay, I'll come up

lol. Made my way upstairs. The living room was deserted. "Tzen~~" I sang out.

Her bedroom door was closed. I knocked. Tzen called out, "Come in"

And I opened the door to find darkness but the three candles lit on my birthday cake :)

"Happy Birthday Anna/Bella!" My friends said sheepishly.

:D

It was sooo funny and soooo sweet that they had planned this out. I didn't expect this at all, and I wish I did not figure things out at the last minute ^^ YOU GUYS DID NOT COUNT ON MY LAZINESS DID YOU! HAHAHAHAH it was funny because they were arguing over whose fault it was that their plan did not work :P

But thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!! It was seriously sweet!!

Special mentions!

Fairuz and Tzen: The masterminds of the plan~ lol. LOVE YOU WOMENNNNN

Tash, Ryan, Mandy, Sheena, Chong: For showing up! THANKIESSS

Iain: FOR THE CARD! I really do love it!! <3

Amee, Lina, Rinni: I know you wanted to be there, but couldn't. Don't worry I still love you guys!!

Pictures on fb, I can't be bothered to post them up here ^^ If you really cared to look you would go to fb now. GO! I SAY GO NOW!! LOL

Okay that is all.

LOVE YOU GUYS! I can't say that enough :D

xoxo bella

HAHAHA

2008-09-21T17:59:00.006+08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

HAHA I love C&H :D

xoxo bella

Everything At A Standstill

2008-09-21T14:44:00.003+08:00

.... when you're not around.

My days are finally slowing down. I've been feeling a bit overwhelmed by all the hangouts and driving up and down Bandar Lumut blah blah (I hate my long commute! lol you can tell I'm not a Sony Ericsson user can't you HAHAHA)

Anyway I had the whole house to myself yesterday and today :) I had to work over the weekend but my sisters had Saturday off so they went home. No matter! I finally had everything to myself whee!

So yesterday was crazy hot! According to online sources it was like 40-43 degrees yesterday :(

No likey the heat. But it's nice and cool today though, looks like it's gonna rain :)

I keep having dreams of finding someone I love and running away from them to see if they'd follow. Usually they do, but I can't help but think that it would be otherwise in real life.

Didn't do much other than work. Ran some errands after. Blah blah.

I'm feeling serene??? I don't know. I miss my friends.

My drive to succeed is now officially OBLITERATED. lol. I have no idea where it went. Laziness!! :(

What I've read in the past week:

1) Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold

I HATE THIS BOOK! It depressed me to bits and the ending made me feel cheated. Wasted all those emotions on that??? LOLS. Nicely written though, but make sure you're not pmsing when you're reading this. D-E-P-R-E-S-S-I-N-G!

2) Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer

Final book in the Twilight saga. Not too bad yo!

3) A Thousand Splendid Suns by Khaled Hosseini

omg this is so good! It was so moving, sad, thoughtful, I love it. :) I should really stop reading in the office though, I must've looked pretty weird biting my lower lip and clenching my jaw trying not to cry. I'm definitely getting his other book The Kite Runner. It reminds me of The Book Thief because the setting is in war torn Afghanistan (where as The Book Thief was on World War II) Do I like books on wars or something? lol. Anyway I really recommend this book!!

Lastly, I wanted to share a song I came across when Perez-ing. Love the video and the song's not too bad :)

Ta!

xoxo bella

ps: Mid-sem break in a week!! :)

:(

2008-09-19T22:42:00.004+08:00

Rinni has left the building (building = Brunei) haha!

I am gonna miss youuuuuuuuu RONNI! Glad to have had lots of hangouts during your last few weeks in Brunei :D LANGGAR _____ !!! (this is not a racist blog) Inside joke, har har :P

Anyway by the time you read this you shall be in the YOU-KAY! lols.

Take care, and I am sure you will do spectacularly in the final year of your degree :)

See you next summer chica!!! HUGS! <3

xoxo bella

Shortlived Epiphany!

2008-09-15T11:28:00.002+08:00

I realised yesterday that I focus a little too much on the bad stuff in life these days, and I think I should remind myself about how good I have it:

I have a home
I have a family that loves me (no matter how dysfunctional we are)
I have friends who care about me
I still have a chance to make something out of my life
I am still healthy, and have all my limbs (now. *touch wood*)

That being said, I was back to whining about the little dramas in life again this morning and also I'm getting lazy already (not doing work, not revising, feel like skipping classes) so that is why I think my epiphany was shortlived :P

Help me people!!

Ta!

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

2008-09-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

Just dropped by to wish a very happy birthday to my babe!!

Happy Birthday Sheena!!

(Yeah, we need to take more pictures together :S uni's been hectic don't ya think? Barely hung out with you guys :S)

Love you woman!!! :) :) I don't think I'll be seeing you tomorrow :( so I hope you see this!! Also, I shall text :D

Enjoy enjoy enjoy and stay the sweetiepie that you are!

hugs! :)

xoxo bella

I'm 20 Going On 12

2008-09-09T00:56:00.004+08:00

I'M SOOOOO SHORT!!!!! :(

Or this must be for giant kids. Mmm right. lol.

Gawd, so pathetic. All 153cm of me :P

xoxo bella

You So Sexy Like Chopstick

2008-09-08T00:28:00.002+08:00

lols! I had muchos fun with the girlies (plus Tashry) yesterday!! Was frickin' exhausted though. I had tutorial at 9 (which I almost forgot about, and hence, was late) then lecture 10 to 11.30 (it always ends half an hour earlier than it should) then I hung around FBEPS with Sheena, Grace and Nazey who got annoyed when we couldn't stop talking about food. WAH! :S

lols. Anyway the reason why I was hanging around there was because I was waiting for Rindy Windy and Miss Fairuzeta to come up bandar. Anyhoos they picked me up and we went to MOE (because Fairuz had to melapor) and then drove around (trying to find OGH HAHA we're so KBian hehe) then we went to Gadong where I couldn't stand the hunger and thus ate at Jollibee. With my friends who are fasting :S I only had a pear for breakfast, I'm so sorry!! but they didn't mind. :D
lalalala they sent me back to UBD cos I had Spanish at 3. Tzen no se siente muy bien (HARHAR the only thing I actually managed to say to Dr Paolo. so sad)

Rushed to work after that.

After work rushed to OGH.

Had dinner. At around 9, left for home. Sat in front of laptop trying to do assignment.

Went to bed around half past midnight.

Woke up at 8 for work :(

Worked till 2.30pm

Came home. blah blah blah I just realised what a boring post this is so I shall end it here :D

Rinni's leaving on the 19th :( :( :( :'( :'( There's just not enough sad smileys to describe how SAD I feel!!!! :( :(

I'm gonna miss hanging out with everyone so much!!! To be honest, you two are like the glue that brings us together. Other than that we're all just so busy, so caught up with other issues, so scattered all around the place.... I'm gonna miss you girlsssssssssss! :(

Gonna miss you toooo Miss Fairuz!!!! :( You haven't been home long enough!! And you're leaving on the 30th! :( But thanks for fixing your flight after my birthday :) WAH I FEEL SO SAD!!!! :( :(

Sigh.

End of suddenly sad post.

:(

xoxo bella

Hmmm

2008-09-05T17:38:00.004+08:00

Dang I wasted my Friday!!!!!!

I'm lazy.

I'm cranky.

I haven't been blogging because there's really nothing much to blog about.

(~~Asides from my irregular menstrual cycles as of late, but I'm trying not to blog about those in case Arun comes around!~~ Hi Arun :P)

Hello all!!

Hola!!

Ni hao ma??

Que tal? :)

Comment allez vous?

Gosh I'm bored. Heheheheheheheh

Anyway!!!!

I found this on MSN Videos!!

OMG HE IS JUST SOOOOOOOO ADORABLE!!! MOST CONTAGIOUS LAUGH EVER! LOL!!!!! It's like "heeheeheeheeHYOHHYOHHYOH!" HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHA oh lawdy that made me laugh for minutes. I love how the redneck just falters off midquestion because he got distracted by the guy laughing. HAHAHAHHA so cute lah!!

"Turn the mike back on, let's just listen to Doug for a minute"

LOVE THE LITTLE FELLA!!

I wish I had a contagious laugh! I would bring joy to everyone!!

Oh I didn't like the bit where he hit the guys' heads, it just seems not nice. But maybe that's just the Asian values embedded in me lol

xoxo bella

ps: Iain watch this vid, it's longer!

p.ps: A Happy Birthday To DOUSE! :D

OMG LOL!

2008-09-01T00:36:00.003+08:00

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHH!!!

THIS IS FREAKING HILARIOUS!!!!

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

HAHAHA!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tummy aches.... can't stop laughing...

HAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!

I think I better go now!!!

xoxo bella

ps: still giggling fit! HEHEHHAHAH

Inspired (not so much)

2008-08-31T00:42:00.003+08:00

I think it's pretty much noticeable that I'm blogging a lot less now.

I NEED INSPIRATION! (or something interesting to happen :S)

Today I skipped my FM lecture and tutorial :S I just couldn't do it! I haven't been sleeping well and I've been waking up at 6.30ish all the time for some reason!!

What is up with the rain lately?

It's been raining alll the time! I imagine the sky is quite dehydrated now! Must be some typhoon going on someplace (my sister says HK)

.................

I'm not even inspired to rant randomly :S

I'm out! I'm all OUT!

Connection here sucks. I'm at home by the way :D

I want the holiday to be on MONDAY! MONDAY I SAY! Please let there be a moon :(

lol.

I don't wanna go back up bandar tomorrow :(

I don't know what to do tomorrow.

Random random random.

Rant rant rant.

Ok I think this has gone far enough. BORING POST. I hate writer's block. Or should I say blogger's block!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAH that cracks me up somehow :D

bye bye bye! (bye bye, don't wanna be a fool for you, just another player in your game for two, I miss the nineties! LOL)

xoxo bella

:D

2008-08-29T13:34:00.003+08:00

Presented topless, for your pleasure :D

photo courtesy of ronni marlipono

xoxo bella

ps: I just thought I should blog to move the depressing post from the top of the page :D

Desperation

2008-08-26T20:55:00.004+08:00

... will make you want to believe anything.

Do you know what I mean?

When you're so desperate to have this perfect life, you are willing to blind yourself to people, or make up lies so you don't have to face the truth.

He's only acting that way because he cares.

I'm pretty sure there's someone out there who's in love with me.

I am not a bad person.

He feels the same way.

Do you know what I mean?

But when you just can't lie to yourself anymore, when that illusion shatters, you just see this nothing of a life stretched out before you. Because you're so intent on blinding yourself, you have made pretty much a mess of your life in reality.

It also suddenly hit me how underachieving I really am. (Is there such a term as underachieving?)

My name is synonymous with no particular achievement.

It feels like everyone has moved on with their lives, and I am left behind.

I know this is an emo post. Hehe, sorry. :)

xoxo bella

Break!

2008-08-25T01:27:00.004+08:00

I need a break from this thing. AGAIN I procrastinated. GAWD WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? :( So much for new resolutions, I'm hopeless. Anyhoos.

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1. what time is it?
- 1.28am

2. what are you listening to?
- Just the little clicks and clacks that goes on around the house.

3. what are you wearing?
- a white t-shirt and cat boxers!

4. is your hair up or down?
- up. where it does the least damage.

5.are you an innie or outie?
- innie :)

6. are you shy?
- errr depends on the circumstances I guess. Usually no?

7. what do you say when you being introduced to someone?
- Hi/hey/hello!

8. where are you right now?
- in the living room

9. name a bad habit that annoys people?
- a tie between my inability to stop whining and correcting people's grammar.

10. first thing you said this morning?
- nooooooooooo (because I didn't want to get up)

11. is it hot or cold?
- it's cool.

12. are you ticklish?
- yes, at my neck.

13.are your lips kissable?
- er.

14. hottest celebrity?
- guy: I can't decide. (You were expecting me to say Jake weren't you? lol.)
girl: OH!! Megan Fox. oh my she is a hottie.

15. name 3 songs that you currently love.
Elevator - T-Pain ft. Timbaland
Bella Luna - Jason Mraz
Clockwatching - Jason Mraz

(I know the last two are old, but I'm loving them again!)

16. what do you wear when you sleep?
- clothes.

17. do you like to cuddle?
- :( who doesn't?? I have no one to cuddle with!!

18. last time you cried?
- errr sometime last week I think.

19. reason behind it?
- I was upset :P

20. do you have any posters on your bedroom walls?
- No. Hellooo? I'm 21. OH I have this poster of my name, but it's not hung up on any wall.

21. phobias?
- Ending up alone

22. hot or cold weather?
- COLD!!!!!

23. something bothering you right now?
- "something". hah.

24. something you're excited for?
- Hangouts with the girlies

25. do you have an even tan?
- NO! :( My arms are a bit more tanned than the rest.

26. where were you at 3pm?
- Here. There. Nowhere!!

27. last time you laughed?
- earlier.

28. what shoes did you wear today?
- flip flops. comfy!

29. a compliment you received today?
- "no you don't sound like a man" not exactly a compliment but I'll take what I can get

30. adriana lima or angelina jolie?
- Adriana Lima

31. brad pitt or jay z?
- Brad Pitt

32. youtube or metacafe?
- Youtube

33. are you easily amused?
- hehehehehe this question amuses me, does that mean I am easily amused?

34.choose a same-sex celebrity to make out with for $5,000
- Refer hottest celebrity.

35. who did you last kiss?
- oh man.

36. mood?
- a bit tired and cranky.

37. who did you hug last
- my sister.

38. do you like your smile?
- I do! :D

39. did you enjoy this survey?
- cheh, it's just a distraction.

40. what are you listening to now?
- still the same silence.

41. what time is it?
1.39am

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Screw it, I'm going to sleep. I'll wake up early to finish everything off.

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

2008-08-23T00:24:00.004+08:00

Today is (technically) Iain's birthday!!!!

Happy Birthday Iain!!!!!

Green. You know why :)

And I say technically because in the UK it is still 22nd August.

So happy bruneian birthday!!

So some of you may wonder who on earth this Iain is. Or maybe you do know because he magically appeared on this blog around 5 months ago. HEHE. Iain is my MSN BFF, my poke buddy, my fellow stalker (and stalkee), and he is a pervert! :D

lol, just kidding Iain's a sweetiepie!

So have a hyper hippy happy huggable birthday Iain, and I hope you enjoy your special day. You deserve to have a really great one because you are one of the nicest, kindest, most tolerant (to me at least :P) person I've ever known. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise!!!

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

:D

xoxo bella

WARGHH

2008-08-22T00:14:00.003+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I have never been so bored :(

And I keep forgetting what I wanna blog about, I know there's a bunch of stuff in my head somewhere.

Speaking of forgetting, I'm getting more and more forgetful, it's a little scary. :S

I keep leaving stuff around, like I left my textbook at the office, and then I lost my trusty pencil, and I always forget where I parked my car :S

I know it's in Parking Lot B, I just can't remember where. hehehehe thank goodness my car is pretty easily noticeable :D

Also bellatitis is making a comeback VIS!! I typo so much these dayssssss!!

Am I getting old or something? LOL

LALALA

I'm still lazy :P I'm not working hard enough in uni it seems. But so far I have not skipped yet. Though it's not like I pay attention though, I just chit chat with Tzen and bother Mike who actually tries to pay attention HAHA >:D

MEHHHH imma be a couch potato and watch Desperate Housewives. :(

xoxo bored bella

A Beautiful Farewell

2008-08-21T01:28:00.002+08:00

I heard this on Desperate Housewives and thought it was beautiful. Unsure of who really penned this poem, but this is the one closest to what I heard on the show:

Do not stand at my grave - and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep...

I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond - glints on snow...
I am the sunlight on the ripened grain-
I am the gentle Autumn's rain.

When you awaken in the morning hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft starlight of night.

Do not stand at my grave - and weep
I am NOT there; I do not sleep...
I am awake, and guiding through the Night -
Towards a gentle gleam of Light

Do not stand at my grave and weep -
I am not there; I do not sleep...

-Karin Aleida Vorrink

xoxo bella

BORED!: The Seventh

2008-08-20T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hola, I had such a lazy day today.

Barely moved. And did not touch my books!! :S I was planning to revise but arghh too lazyyy

I'm bored..................

We're feeding a stray kitten atm, it's been starving, and going blind in one eye :(

Vicki and I are NOT cat lovers, but we couldn't help but get sad looking at it!! It'll meow and meow pitifully and look up at you with one of its eyes glued shut *heart shatters*

LOL

but yeah, we're both allergic to cat hair so we can't really take care of it properly, but at least we're feeding it. It's so tiny and cute!!!!

SPEAKING OF CUTE!!

WEEHHH!!! so cute!!

This movie is SOOO adorable, I love it!!! 8/10 :)

The storyline is quite unique, and it got cheesy in some parts, but you can't help but go AWWWWWWW!!!!! Plus it's funny! :)

I really recommend it, especially to you girls who are suckers for sweet stories :)

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A Guide To Hugs!

Hugs are an important expression of affection. By hugging someone, you remind them that you care about them and support them.
Steps

Approach the person. Depending on the person's relationship to you, you might want to approach differently:
Family Hug: Approach kindly, but not too emotionally.
Friend Hug (girls): Approach caringly, sometimes humorously, and smile.
Friend Hug (guys): Approach quickly, usually not looking them in the eye.
Crush Hug: Approach carefully, but do not seem shy. Smile slightly and perhaps say a caring word or two.
Lover Hug: It doesn't matter who starts this; either can make it just as romantic. When approaching, put your hands on their shoulders and look them in the eyes. Say you love them, how much you care for them, and how much you are loving every second with them. Then fall into each other and hug with all your heart.

Embrace. Lean forward and wrap your arms around the person.
Family Hug: You can keep talking when hugging; it will not ruin the momentum. Where you place your hands is not important; the hugged won't think it over too much. Press gently; it is not necessary to have head-contact. Stroke your hands quickly across the top of the hugged's back. Smile when letting go.
Friend Hug (girls): Close your eyes and think about how much you love your friend when hugging. Press as much as you feel like. (But don't squish!) Do not clap the hugged on the shoulders or such; it's too masculine and some girls think you don't like them if you do it the guys' way.
Friend Hug (guys): Embrace strongly, and clap each other on the top of your backs. If it's an emotional moment, keep in the hugged position for a brief moment and do not clap each other's backs.
Crush Hug: Press the hugged warmly towards you. If you are a man, remember that it is more masculine and more protective to fold your arms under hers. Her arms should be around your neck, and you should be embracing her around the waist. When pressing her against you, you can lift her up a bit, pressing her chest and upper stomach against yours. Keep it in that position for a while, and then let go. Look her in the eyes when you separate and continue the conversation naturally.
Lover Hug: 1) Males: Carefully sliding your hands down from her shoulders, put them on her waist and slide them around her lower back. Put your head on her shoulder and press her towards you for as long as you like. If you want to, you can give her a small massage with your hands, and try to warm her. When separating, you can look into her eyes, smile genuinely and, if the situation is fitting, kiss her. 2) Females: Extend your arms toward him and hold them around his neck and shoulders. Lean as close as possible and press your torso against his. In situations of extreme intimacy, interlocking your leg in his is appropriate. Avoid holding your arms below his shoulders and/or embracing strongly and tensely.

Don't hug too tightly. The best way to judge how tight or loose to hug is to let whomever your hugging tell you by how hard they squeeze. If they are soft, be soft back; if they like bear hugs and squeeze tightly, do the exact same back (but don't suffocate him/her).
Don't let go too early. A hug is a powerful way to communicate your caring for another person, as it can feel great and greatly improve one's mood. If someone hugs you, they may want a long, loving hug (maybe they are upset or down), so just go along with it and hug them until they let go or loosen their hold.

Tips

Be welcoming when you hug. If either of you requested the hug, then be warm and loving and just make it feel like the person you're hugging is safe from anything else and that you and whoever are the only people that matter at the moment.
Make sure you're clean and showered.

Warnings

Do not confuse a lover hug with a friend hug. Things might get complicated and awkward.
Unless you've hugged the person before, don't hug them without asking first. In addition, use your best judgment in choosing when and where to hug someone. There are certain situations where one might be embarrassed to be seen hugging someone else.
Hug only when the person you want to hug has their arms out, they may not want to be hugged if their arms aren't out.

[source]

And on another related issue (I find it hilarious):

How To Hug A Tree

Find yourself a quiet park, forest, or woodland area.
Walk among the trees until you feel comfortable in their presence.
Feel the different bark textures with the palms of your hands.
Smell the scent of the various woods.
Absorb their life's energies as you look upwards to the sprawling branches overhead.
Find the perfect tree that fits your mood. You will know which one is right for you.
Vertical Tree Hug: Encircle it with your arms while gently pressing your cheek to the trunk being careful not to scratch your face. Squeeze tightly. Sigh deeply. Be one with your tree.
Full Body Tree Hug: Sit upon the ground wrapping your legs around the base of the tree and at the same time embracing it with your arms.
Up in the Air Tree Hug: Climb a tree. Sit upon a strong limb and straddle it with your legs. Bend forward and place your belly against it while wrapping your arms about it.
Tips:
Feel free to hug more than one tree if the mood strikes. Besides, other trees might get jealous.
You may like to take home a fallen leaf or nut as a keepsake from your new friend.
Be sure to return each season to visit your tree. And don't be afraid to talk to it as trees are good listeners.

[source]

Yes I've gotten lazy. I don't rant anymore. :D

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

2008-08-19T00:26:00.000+08:00

HOLLAAAA! *major celebration*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TZEN!!!

love ya loads babe!!

fun times!!

Let's see I met Tzen a little over two years ago in State & Society (YUCK). She asked me for my notes, I lent them to her, and we've been inseparable ever since... LOL

It sounds stupid, but that is the truth though. :D

We had the same classes, we stayed in the same hostel block, and we basically hung out all the time.

Once, Tzen and I were heading towards our class, but I hung back a little because I was too lazy to walk fast. And Yani caught up with me and asked in a hushed voice, "What happened?" And I was like "what???" Yani: "How come you're not walking together? Did you guys argue?" And I laugheddddddddddddddd!!

I think that was when it dawned on us that we're strongly associated with each other. hahahahah

And how bout that time, that only time when we got into a real argument? And the subject of the argument was SO STUPID!!

MIB!

We had just finished an MIB lecture at Chancellor Hall, and had just fixed our hair and everything after taking off our tudungs. Coming out of the toilet....

T: Hey you've got something stuck to your kain
B: Oh? *looks down* Oh it's a sweet wrapper.

*brushes off wrapper*

Then I started to walk.

T: You're just gonna leave it there? *incredulous voice*
B: What? It's not my wrapper.
T: Yeah, but you're littering.
B: So??
T: So unethical!!

And I swear, the look on her face when she said that, like this look of disgust and disdain, really ticked me off.

B: SO? Do I look like I give a f***? It's just one tiny wrapper! I don't f***ing care!

(Yes I know my language, but I was really pissed off :P)

And at this point we were just screeching at each other. Then we fumed in silence all the way to Tzen's car (we had made plans to go eat after the lecture so we just automatically headed towards the car)

Silence.

Drove out of parking lot.

Silence.

Drove past entrance to UBD.

Silence.

Highway.

Tzen started to laugh, and I looked at her with a WTF look on my face.

T: Can you believe that we got pissed off at each other over a SWEET WRAPPER?

HAHAHA that pretty much broke the tension and I don't think we got into any other stupid arguments such as those :S But such a funny story!! :D

MBargooooooo!

Anyhoos, I've went off topic but yes that is basically some of the funny times during out friendship.

Tzen is probably the first (and possibly only) person that I've met that has the same violent mood swings as I do. Tis scary! We even have a psychic mood link! Our moods can be synchronised, or influenced easily by the other's. I dunno.We're weird people :P

Anyway Tzennypoooooo Happy 21st Birthday, though your mind is waaayyyyy advanced beyond your years :P *whispers* Tzen's mind is a dark and scary place.

HAHAHAHHA I just realised whatever I've said in this post is not necessarily nice. :S

Ok I'm editing this if Tzen doesn't like the content :P

Everyone say Happy Birthday to Tzen, or GET OUT!

love love.

xoxo bella

Muy Loca

2008-08-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

I krazy!! It's 12.12am and I still have not finished my taxation assignment.

PROCRASTINATION SUX! Also my sister just HAD to put on Desperate Housewives, and I can't tear my eyes away from it :(

I'm beginning to panic yo. ~~I hope I won't get called on tomorrow and crap, did I just jinx myself by writing that down~~

I dunno. I just have this thing like if I screw up this tutorial, THE FIRST TUTORIAL, I'm pretty much screwing up the whole semester. I'm also terrified of the lecturer a bit. I don't think I take criticism very well and he seems very critical/mean. :(

I'm so stressed, I'm chugging chocolate milk like no tomorrow HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA chocoholicccc

No booze bah eh. :P

Anyhoos, I have a journal article to summarise, and bulls**t to come up with :D

I have some little anecdotes of my niece to share but I'm thinking I should finish my assignment first.

toodle-a-loo!

xoxo bella

Journals Suck

2008-08-16T08:46:00.003+08:00

HATE HATE HATE scouring through journal articles :(

And I hate emerald. Actually no, scratch that. Emerald is good.

Why do I feel like there are so many things to do? Why did I schedule three tutorials on the same day? GAH! *bangs head against the wall*

I hate taxation. I changed my mind. I don't want to migrate, I wanna stay in tax-free Brunei. LOL

I think I'm stressing myself out unnecessarily. I'm having trouble sleeping because I'm constantly worrying.

My sister flew off to Korea yesterday. This is one thing I malas wanna talk about. Only that the silly girl actually cried when we sent her off. I, heartless as I am, pointed at her and laughed. Ten days lah, not ten years! lol.

tax tax tax tax tax tax tax semua pun ada tax

Ok, I go now

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

2008-08-14T00:19:00.003+08:00

Oh dearie me, lookie at the date 14th August!!

Happy Birthday Elvis!!

HAHAHAHAH this picture cracks me up.

Hope your knee feels better, stop showing off.

:D

Ciao bello!

xoxo bella

Mumble Mumble

2008-08-13T13:51:00.003+08:00

Blogging because I've been slacking off apparently :S

I've been feeling muchos frustrated over everything in my life. School-wise, me-wise, love-wise.

PAH! Why can't life be like The Sims? So easy to find a job, and if you ever get lonely someone will create a mate just for you. Also you increase your skills just by doing stuff like attempting to paint, or reading... Man, from all the reading I've done I would be a total genius in The Sims. har har.

Ok went off on a tangent over there.

Having a slooooooooooooooooow msn convo with Elvis because he's online through mobile. And we all know how that service sucks.

I'm sorry but I'm not the sort to say out loud how I really feel. Putting myself out there, it bugs me. Plus the risk of losing someone so special to me is just too damned scary. I kid myself that I'm being practical by doing this, but I'm actually quite scared.

So far had two meltdowns. Meltdown one with Tzen in the car. Meltdown two chatting with Scott and Fairuz.

I give up easily. I'm a quitter! If I weren't puhlease I would NOT be feeling stuck in life right now.

Oh there's this mysterious smell in the house that I've yet to get rid of. So I'm gonna go ahead and try to solve that mystery.

Toodles!

xoxo bella

Infuriating!!

2008-08-10T21:50:00.003+08:00

National pride at an all time low today. Definitely in the negative range. :( You probably know why.

Of course going to The Mall and witnessing some stupid kids doing some kinda dance-off which resembled seizure attacks did not help. ~~DUMBASS PUNKS YOU SHOULD STOP WASTING YOUR TIME AND GO STUDY DAMMIT~~

My sister and I wanna cari some angmohs to kahwin :P

Anyhoos.

My family came up to Bandar today. As usual, we got into arguments and heated debates. Well at one point my dad was getting all worked up over some random thing and we were listening (well I was tuning out) and he was like saying how some relative was talking big and said, "I was nodding along, but in my heart I was like yeah right!!!" The thing was when he was saying "in my heart" he reached up and tapped his temples.

That made me burst into giggles!! We kept going, "so how do you feel in your heart daddy?" while tapping our heads. LOL

And people keep spitting on me today!!

I was on Facebook playing Text Twirl and my sister and mum were watching and they kept shouting random words to help me (and they weren't much help most of the time! They kept giving me either nonsensical words or words I've already gotten) and both my mum and sister got too excited and splattered me. SAY IT DON'T SPRAY IT!! :P My dad said they're just trying to "bless" me with good luck, lol.

Ok lectures officially start tomorrow. ROAR.

I am broke. :(

xoxo bella

ps: why so many foreigners in the mall today?? American from what I heard. But doesn't look like soldiers/sailors.

your careful words both reassure and discourage.

There's No Point

2008-08-08T01:25:00.003+08:00

...to this post :P

I'm just bored. Fell asleep earlier after dinner due to tiredness (from the heat, also did not get enough sleep the night before :P)

Got up around 11pm.

And heeeeeeerreee I am. LALALA

I'm constantly waiting to be inspired.

OH OH OH!!!

It is now 08/08/08 :D

BEIJING OLYMPICS OPENING CEREMONY!! (which I will not be able to watch on account of having to freaking work. WHOOPEE! T.T)

frick, why is it that whenever I'm online NO ONE SEEMS TO BE! WAH!! (maybe because it's 1.30am girl.)

I argue BUT IT IS FRIDAY TOMORRAH! Sleep in! :P

hahahaha I'm boooooorrreeeeddddddddd :P

----

I like things done a certain way sometimes. A bit neurotic methinks. I realised this when in the shower. I always have a routine! I'll always start with my hair, then work my way down. (I'm trying not to be too descriptive here, hehe)

Hmm, hold on.

The True Neurotic
You scored 57 anxiety, 67 awkwardness, and 61 neuroticism!

Congratulations, you are The True Neurotic, you nail-biting, conflict-avoiding worrier, you. You're plagued by self-doubt and anxiety, which makes social activity hard--even though you may be well-liked, you feel under a storm of silent criticism. It doesn't help that people give you funny looks for organizing all your pens by color or sharpening your gnawed pencils to a delicate point.

Your high anxiety score implies that you are unable to relax, worry about the future often, and probably are plagued by irrational fears and self-doubt.

Your high awkwardness score implies that you are socially inept, probably stick out from the crowd, and feel uncomfortable in large groups of people, such as at parties.

Your high neuroticism score implies that you exhibit neurotic behaviors--probably organization, fanatic obsessions (can you recite the entire first LOTR movie?), repetitive mantras, constant checking, or orderly rituals

Really??? I don't think I'm that bad. Though I think I am a worrier. And self-doubt, definitely!! I'm seriously worrying about how I'll do this semester!! I don't trust myself, honest!

I get anxious at the thought of being outside of my comfort zone. If it's something that I've never done before I usually get nervous and worry that somehow I'll do it wrong. Though NO I can't recite the entire first LOTR movie. I can't remember a specific line even! harharhar, but yeah, I do get obsessive :P

Oh yes I HATE CONFLICTS!!! But I've always thought that was just the Libra in me.

WAH!! :S

----

It is much too quiet. I shall put on something on to watch. HAHAHAHAHAHA OMG. RYAN! I'm still laughing about what you commented on Lina's photo. Frick that is some funny stuff.

Am I just fooling myself?
To want something, that I can't have. To have something, that I don't want.

Okay, somehow between beginning this post and ending it, I managed to depress myself. :(

xoxo bella

A Kiss Is Not A Kiss

2008-08-06T08:34:00.003+08:00

without your sigh.

I like Casablanca! Although I have never watched the film, but I do love that song. There's a sad quality and it also brings back memories of laser discs and my dad singing. The reason why I know a lot of oldies is because I grew up hearing my dad sing them on karaoke! :P

In case you don't know what song I'm talking about:

Need more sleep.

xoxo bella

Bwahahaha

2008-08-05T15:48:00.003+08:00

Heat makes me random, and I am hot. (Panas bah eh, :D)

Holllaaaa I did not have Spanish today and here is a list of what I wasted by going to uni:

Sleep!
My shower (which went to waste once I stepped out of my car)
Tissues (wiping up sweat)
My energy (You think walking from Point A to Point B ain't exhausting yo?)
Water (I drink to combat the heat, and my shower was a waste and I sweat everything out)
The soles of my slippers (The hot hot hot bitumen ain't good for the soles of me slippers, hahaha antam)
My baju that I have to wash because I sweat, and hence water and Breeze powder and also fabric softener
Fuel! Hell yes my fuel because I rushed to school and thus I sped.
Panadol that I am going to take because the heat gave me another headache.

Bah, I think that's all. In hindsight, it was all my fault for not checking Dr Paolo's office. Anyway I got to hang out with Sheena, Grace and some of the boys so 'twas not all wasted :)

I feel very zexy now because I stripped once I got home. LOL just kidding I'm still wearing the tube I wore under my top. Why did I wear a long-sleeved shirt plus a tube underneath in this weather? Because the top low-cut and also aku paloi for not thinking, I just grabbed the first thing on top of the pile of clothes lalala

Ok, I am still sort of moody, but now in happyish mood. I want a sundae but the traffic is crazy so maybe later.

It's tiiimeee to bum around now.

xoxo bella

Hell No!

2008-08-04T17:16:00.003+08:00

DAMMIT I'm feeling so friendless. :(

Oh I need a life. Am I forever doomed to be stuck in this explosion of stink that is my suckfest of life? I like my words!

Yes oh yes I am feeling angsty/emo/depressed now, the fire that was my rage earlier has finally fizzled out, and for some inexplicable reason I feel unliked! And I'm not liking myself either at the moment.

..... and I'm remembering what my previous post was like so I can't say that I'd blame anyone for that HAHAHA!!!

Could it be that my period that is almost A MONTH LATE has finally decided to make an appearance? I've been stuck in permanent pms limbo for ages, or maybe I am just being unpleasant for no reason NO! Hell no! I wanna be nice!

I swore that I wouldn't write about my menstrual cycle but I can't help it!! :S

Ack, time to fulfil my duties as an unpaid chauffeur, sigh. Life is boring.

xoxo bella

Gah

2008-08-04T11:57:00.004+08:00

CRANKY! I'm so cranky!!!!!!

Hello people today I am a very angry Bella.

If I was a bitch to you today then...

Actually I'm not gonna apologise if I was. Because it wasn't an unreasonable bitchiness, only little nuisances seem to really set me off today, so HAHA serves you right for being a nuisance :D

Also you can blame the heat. And the fact that the stupid frickin airconditioning wasn't working. If I knew I wouldn't even have bothered taking a shower.

Headache now because it's so hot.

I don't know what to do now. I hate the fact that my timetable's like one lecture per day, WTF I feel so unproductive, and it depresses me to come home. I'd rather just have something to keep me busy all day.

I started this semester with NO expectations of a perfect timetable or a great lecturer. I think I'm used to having sucky timetables so I don't really bloody care when or what time my tutorial is. Whoopee if I get a good slot, whatever if I don't. Company Taxation doesn't seem easy, and wtf, did he say that he rarely gives B's, much less A's? Die lah, definitely cannot slack anymore. I'm actually worrying already. But I guess it's better than being all lackadaisical like I usually am. Though I might turn out that way later in the semester, but I've commisioned Mike Lee to give me a slap if I ever start getting lazy. So yay! HAHAHA

I'm rambling but I don't care :)

Spanish tomorrow, I'll get to see Dr Paolo again! YAY YAY YAY! Spanish is like a de-stress class for me! The only thing I actually feel motivated to do well in :D Not sure if Tzen is taking it this sem, she's all maxed out on units and I have no idea if the other people from last sem is still continuing but oh well. I'm in Intermediate Spanish, yo! But ask me to say something in Español and you'll see me opening and closing my mouth like a fish out of water lol. Oh well! Viva España! Random.

Oh right, I forgot to draw out a timetable thingy for my notebook har har. Ok I'll guess I'll do that now, and take a nap after that lalalala I didn't sleep well last night. HEHE, just like old times :)

bye bye you who bothered reading this!

xoxo bella

ps: I can't stand stupid smart people.

edit: Oh I forgot to say. Funny wah this Mike. The Taxation man was like saying,"I've got good news and bad news. Good news is, you are back. The bad news..." and Mike scribbled in his notepad and showed me: "Bad news is perut ku besar" LOL that made me laugh, it was so randomly mean! hehe.

Birthdayyyyy

2008-08-03T00:15:00.005+08:00

It is officially the birthday of my very very special friend: FAIRUZ!!! LOVE LOVE YOU LOADS!

Happy Birthday Fairuz!

Babe, I so can't wait for you to come home! :)

I MISS YOU, FAIRUZETA
you gorgeous gorgeous piece of ass :D

LAWA KAN! HAHAH stolen from her facebook! shhhhhh :P

I've been friends with Fairuz for yearssssss now, almost a decade! We (Rinni, Lina, Fairuz, Amee and I) are BFF's! I love my friends :D

Centralised post because Fairuz is the centre of my life

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Ciao bella!!!!!!!! (I learnt this from Fairuz :P)

Ok that is all. So basically what you learnt from today's post:

1) It is Fairuz's birthday
2) I miss Fairuz
3) I love Fairuz
4) We are getting married LOL
5) I don't know what the point of this was.

xoxo bella

The Most Annoying Thing!

2008-08-02T01:40:00.004+08:00

Construction going on in my area and it's so bloody noisy!!! It sounds like it's right outside my bedroom window and it also sounds a lot like some big machine picking up trucks and throwing them around, so damned annoying! It's impossible tosleep through all the racket :(

So yeah, I'm all good now, not so sick anymore :) Not totally well though, I have the sniffles and my nostrils are still clogged :P

I think it's the sick season or something. I either got my cold from my colleagues or from getting caught in the rain the other night. Anyhoos, my boss got sick as well :S Whoopsie daisy!!

So it's the end of the holidays! Nooooooo/Yayyyyy!! (Mixed emotions) lol. I can't wait to see everyone again but I'm scared of how this semester will turn out...

I'm reading The Lollipop Shoes by Joanne Harris. :)

My summer reads:
1) The Book Thief by Markus Zusak (most recommended!)
2) Crimes, Crooks & Corruption (interesting and disturbing read. I enjoyed reading about the murders the most heheheh)
3) The Good Guy by Dean Koontz (very meh!! anti climax much?)
4) Return To The Summerhouse by Jude Deveraux (not as good as its predecessor, but better than the Dean Koontz)
5) Chasing Harry Winston by Lauren Weisberger (also quite mehh)
6) A Quiet Belief In Angels by R.J. Ellory (depressing much???? it was a bit too dramatic for my tastes. it's hard to believe that THAT many bad things would happen to one person. also it's very sick/disturbing.)

Best so far: The Book Thief :)

I miss reading. There was a point in my life where I read everyday, though I think that was because I was depressed and the books allowed me to escape to a different place for a while... :)

but still, I love reading.

Ok back to MSN!!!

xoxo bella

Harry Potpot!

2008-08-01T02:07:00.001+08:00

Sixth movie out 21 November!

I wanna go to Hogwarts! *random*

xoxo bella

Sick!

2008-07-29T13:16:00.003+08:00

I'm sick~

Sigh.

Anyhoos.

I watched The Dark Knight last night. WHOO HOO!! I felt like the movie took forever to end though but that might be because I was sick eheheeheh

Heath Ledger was FRICKIN' AWESOME as The Joker.

Awesome.

He managed to freak me out and make me laugh at the same time! And!! He really really came off as a crazy maniac. I think he may be one of the coolest villains ever. :D His voice, his mannerisms (like the way he would occasionally lick his lips with a flick of his tongue, was so subtle, yet so creepy), the way he talked, and his FREAKY LAUGHTER. He was soooo good.

His stories of where he got his scars freak me out. hehehehehe. I don't like knives :S

Malas wanna say so much lah. My head feels like it's stuffed with cotton :P

xoxo bella

I Love This

2008-07-28T09:35:00.003+08:00

True, no? So Iain... whenever I'm in a pickle... ;)

xoxo bella

All By My Lonesome

2008-07-26T23:05:00.003+08:00

... tonight. Usually I'm okay with it. But tonight while driving home from work I looked up and saw fireworks. It made me feel like crying suddenly because I think you should always watch fireworks with someone, special or not. Also I was very aware that my friends were hanging out somewhere at that very moment, and my sisters are back at home with my family. I was coming home to an empty house :( Yes I'm so melodramatic tonight. Hehehe.

Anyways my mood was lifted up by the appearance of this person:

Val Emmich, guest starring in 'Cougars', an episode of 30 Rock. He is so YUM, and he has dimples! And a deep sexxayyy voice. He's actually a musician who does little bits of acting. EH! I just read that he'll be starring in recurring episodes of Ugly Betty! WHOO! How awesome.

OMG. I think I am in love.

Absolutely Still

Oh damn. He is married. :( HAHAHAH as if I had a chance if he was single. lol.

You're Not The Only One Lonely

His songs make me sad. Heheh.

Goodnight people :)

xoxo bella

I Wanna Go Back!

2008-07-26T15:44:00.005+08:00

Rewind to a week before! What is it with the end of vacations that depresses us so?

Sigh.

It's not only the blandness of life, but I really enjoyed being on my own and not really having to worry about things.

I'm such a worrier sometimes.

I love my music.

You, Me & The Bourgeoisie - The Submarines

American Boy - Estelle ft. Kanye West

Mirando - Ratatat (video a bit violent-ish)

I love driving with these songs playing at full blast. :)

Am I looking forward to uni? I don't know. I half am, if only to do something productive. I am mostly dreading it, because I want to do well, yet I have no faith in myself. I don't believe that I have enough willpower or discipline to stick to a healthy study plan. Why am I so lazy? I probably can do it in the beginning (I usually start out really rajin in the first half of the semester) but I usually fall off the wagon after a while :(

I think this semester will be different. I hope this semester will be different. I feel like I've been such a disappointing failure. To myself, to my parents. I just keep thinking, do I want to be average all the time? I know I have it in me. I do.

Must work with what I have.

I must!

:)

I also should take a hiatus from the internet before my exams. :S I don't know which I'm more addicted to, Facebook or MSN. lol.

I feel better now!! I just realised that You, Me & the Bourgeoisie is a happy song

Everyday I wake up,
I choose love,
I choose light,
And I try, it's too easy just to fall apart...

I should live like that :)

Alright, enough rants.

I'll see you later people!

xoxo bella

Hewwoo!!

2008-07-25T00:23:00.005+08:00

Must I blog?? I just uploaded a crapload of piccies on fb, captions and tagging and all. I'm tiiiireddd!!!!!

:'(

Actually I'm okay. Just lazy :P

Bali was grrrreat. :)

I had loads of fun and lots of laughs. Can't really remember so I'll just post random moments.

"It's AirAsia bah!"

This we discovered on our last day in Bali at Ngurah Rai Airport. We were complaining of how slow the counter was and how inefficient and stuff and we concluded that everything sucked because it's airasia bah!!

A: Someone died on the flight.
B: OMG! what happened?
A: Aiya, it's AirAsia bah!!
B: Ohhhhhhh *nods in understanding*

-as related by RYAN LEONG! lol so hilarious!!!!!!

WE LOVE STARBUCKS' HOT CHOCOLATE

Tzen and I overdosed on hot chocolate while in Bali. (Brunei no Starbucks :'( ) So I think in the end we got a bit hyper and high from all the sugar (mine was caramel chocolate YUMM) and got all giggly and stuff. I remember jumping up and down on Ryan's bed and we were just in giggling fits over nothing in particular. :D Might also be the tiredness from a loooong looong day. hehehe.

Balcony moments!!!

I quite like our nights on the balcony. Usually we hang out there when we're eating or waiting to club (since the clubs only open at midnight) so there was one night in particular (the last night I think) when we were talking about random things, like life and love (or lack thereof to be more exact) and then we put on music and sang. Horribly. (Ryan lah, Tzen and I weren't too shabby) we moved onto nineties' songs!!! Trying to remember the lyrics to all the 98 Degrees, Backstreet Boys, and other boybands we loved in the nineties. 'twas fun :)

Crazy Bali drivers

You want to drive like a through and through Balinese? Just follow these steps.

Drive in the middle of the road. Only move when there's a car coming from the opposite direction
Drive fast.
Overtake as much as possible.
Honk when the car isn't moving out of your way fast enough.
Honk when you're speeding around a bend.
Honk when a car is taking up the road.
Honk when someone sneezes.

:)

Too lazy to think. Tzen and Ryan, I don't remember any more :'(

My favourite pictures from the trip:

Straw hatsssss us in straw hats~~

I REALLLYYYYYY like this photo :)

hehehehe I liked the blurry quality on top and our jaws look sexxaay HAHHA

Such a gorgeous sunset!!

Loved this.

Okayyy the rest up in fb. Loads of moments that I did not enjoy though, but meh, I don't really wanna blog about it :)

ta ta people!!

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

2008-07-18T00:30:00.001+08:00

We're in Bali right now buutttt it is RYAN'S BIRTHDAY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN!!!!

Hope we're having fun right at this moment :) lol.

xoxo bella

Goodbye

2008-07-16T08:00:00.000+08:00

BRUBRU AND HELLO BALI!!!

Eye candy here I come. :)

xoxo bella

I'm Off!!!!!

2008-07-15T14:30:00.002+08:00

I'm leaving for Bali tomorraahhhhh!! :D

See you guys soon!!!

I'll be back in Brubru on 22nd.

tata!!

xoxo bella

ps: Don't miss me too much :)

Quickies

2008-07-14T12:26:00.003+08:00

Briefly again:

1) Am back at home home but going up later because I have to work.

2) Feeling like I'm getting sick, NOOOOOOOOOOo

3) I finally got a haircut. At the salon:

Woman: Eh why don't you get your hair straightened? (obviously after seeing the frizz disaster that is my hair :'( )
B: Cannooot lahhh I have no moneyyy
Woman: How can no money?
B: I go makan angin laaa
Woman: Wah wanna go makan angin but your hair so ugly!
B: T.T

Realllyyyy mean wahhh (but true, oh so true)

4) KARA-OKE!!!!! I like to sing-a!

5) Body clock semi-fixed! Fell asleep around 11pm but woke up around 1.30am. Tossed and turned for about an hour and a half. Fell asleep. Woke up around 11am. IMPROVEMENT OKAY! I got out of bed before noon :D

6) Oh, I FINALLY upgraded my SIM card to that 3G thing. My SIM card says GO! lol. I wonder if I can use it in Bali. And I think my annual fee of $25 is coming up soon. I swear I don't know the point of the fee.

7) I was randomly inspecting my IC and drivers' licence and I noticed that it expires the end of July.

Ok that is all. Can't think anymooooore. My head feels drowsy and my throat is scratchy and my nose is itching.

xoxo bella

Sleep = Sanity

2008-07-12T04:45:00.003+08:00

No sleep = Insanity.

Definitely having insomnia for the past few days. It's screwing me up in the head a bit. And yes, I did say I was staying off the net for a while on Twitter, but screw it, I need to blog.

I was happy that I managed to fall asleep around 1.30am, but I was woken up by my phone. And it wasn't even for a text or anything, it just beeped softly because the battery was dying. I woke up with my mind racing. Stared at the ceiling (or a blur of the ceiling, I'm blind haha) for half an hour before I realised I definitely was not gonna be able to fall asleep. So yeah, here I am, awake since 3.40ish.

Oh I wiki'ed insomnia and here's what I found (highlighted ones are the ones that I think applies to me):

Insomnia can be caused by

Psychoactive drugs or stimulants, including certain medications, herbs, caffeine, cocaine, ephedrine, amphetamines, methylphenidate, MDMA, methamphetamine and modafinil
Hormone shifts such as those that precede menstruation and those during menopause (OH HAHAHAHAHAHA SCREW YOU MENSTRUAL CYCLE!!!)
Life problems like fear, stress, anxiety, emotional or mental tension, work problems, financial stress, unsatisfactory sex life (Great. No sex = no sleep.)
Mental disorders such as clinical depression, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, general anxiety disorder (I'm not ruling out mental disorders. Because I know there's little crazy in me somewhere.)
Disturbances of the circadian rhythm, such as shift work and jet lag, can cause an inability to sleep at some times of the day and excessive sleepiness at other times of the day. Jet lag is seen in people who travel through multiple time zones, as the time relative to the rising and setting of the sun no longer coincides with the body's internal concept of it. The insomnia experienced by shift workers is also a circadian rhythm sleep disorder.
Certain neurological disorders, brain lesions, or a history of traumatic brain injury
Medical conditions such as hyperthyroidism and Wilson's syndrome
Abuse of over-the counter or prescription sleep aids can produce rebound insomnia
Poor sleep hygiene (Oh most definitely.)
Parasomnia, which includes a number of disruptive sleep events including nightmares, sleepwalking, violent behavior while sleeping, and REM behavior disorder, in which a person moves his/her physical body in response to events within his/her dreams
The full moon lunar phase (Does this mean that I could be a werewolf? That's what I think of when I hear "full moon".)
A rare genetic condition can cause a prion-based, permanent and eventually fatal form of insomnia called fatal familial insomnia (Say what now?)

Hate this. I've been uber depressed for the past couple of days too. I don't know if it's because of my inability to sleep or whether it's causing my inability to sleep.

Now I'm depressed, and also cranky because I haven't had a good nights' sleep in days. I want to cry.

Oh I am so tired.

"Here in these deep city lights
A girl could get lost tonight
I'm finding every reason to be gone
There's nothing left to hold on to
Could I hold on to you?"

Sara Bareilles - City

Ok back to reading about murders and crime and all that crap.

xoxo bella

Hancock

2008-07-11T02:06:00.002+08:00

Went to watch Hancock with Ryan earlier.....

(I don't like the poster)

And I'm not too fond of the movie either.

I liked it up to the middle. Then it just got weird/lame/meh.

I really liked Hancock when he was all cranky and drunk and stuff, hehehe he was pretty funny.

Woman: *disgusted* I can smell the liquor on your breath!!!
Hancock: 'coz I've been drinkin', bitch!

HAHAHAHA that made me laugh.

But yeah, not a great movie. I might actually prefer Wanted (but that's just because I love the shootouts <3 )

So I don't really have much to say.......... It really wasn't as good as I expected.

Next movie of interest? The Dark Knight? I'm not sure if I want to watch this movie. I think it might depress me (Heath Ledger! Waaahh!!!) but I probably will lah. I dunno.

Feeling a bit ..........................

Looking forward to getting out for a while.

xoxo bella

BORED!: The Sixth

2008-07-10T02:56:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG I can't SLEEP!

You'd think I'd be zonked out on my bed by now. I had work, and I went to gym. Actually the work was not exhausting (but it did cut into my sleeping time, I woke up at noonish rather than my normal 2 or 3pm :P HOLIDAYS WAH HOLIDAYS! I've been sleeping at 3ish and 4ish and I have to wake up to send my sister to work again and blahblahblahrandommeaninglessrant) but the gym!! I went to Body Jam for the first time since like NOVEMBER, and what the hell, the dance moves were practically the same!! But it did a number on me, I developed a stitch in my side and had to stumble outside to sit for a bit and then I got hungry, and then I just couldn't keep up so I just swayed from side to side while the others performed HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH but at least I lasted through the hour :D a few others couldn't take it and bailed midway ^^

Anyhoos, I came home around ten-ish and showered and went online. Chatted with Fairuz, Rinnayy and Scott!! Then the girls left and I started to get sleepy so I said I was turning in. "Early night for me!!" I said.

Yet here I am..... I made a hot drink but if anything I think that woke me up more. Paloi.

Oh and my back aches~

Whooopayyyy!!!!!!!

Darn, I thought I had something else to rant about. Hrmmmmmmmmmm.

Oh well. I haven't done one of my random long posts in a while anyway. HAHAHAHA.

What's small, black and sweaty?

An ant doing push-ups.

HEHEHEHEHEH I think I heard that one from Vis :D

OR!!! What's big, yellow and eats rocks?

A big and yellow rock-eater! That one from GP in Sixth Form. From She Who I Loathed or better known as She Who Loathed Me. harharharhar.

OH! HAHAHHAHAHA I remember what Ryan answered to that!!

What's big, yellow and eats rocks?
Ryan says: Miss Tham on a bulldozer

HAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAAHHA OMG SO FUNNY!

lalalalalalalalalalalalala

I finished "The Book Thief". It's quite good!! In the beginning it was so very confusing because of the way it was written but then it got really good in the middle. And it was SAD! I was reading it at work and I got to the really sad part in the end and I got teary and someone walked in and gave me a weird look.

MEH! I hate war :'(

Anyway now I'm currently reading "Crimes, Crooks and Corruption" (I think that is what it is called, not sure of the order of the words) I'm still in the front bit with all the bits of famous murderers. (It's non-fiction btw.) Quite interesting in some horrific way. So many sick people out there. And that book makes me feel so cynical/jaded. hehehehe

Hmm. I think I wanna read it now.

Which means this post has ended.

Goodbyeeeeeeeeeeeee

xoxo bella

Soundtrack To Your Life

2008-07-09T01:42:00.002+08:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.
4. Write the answers down, or even comment on it.
5. Tag 5 people.

1. How are you feeling today?
Seal - Kissed By A Rose
mmmmm, if that means pms-ey and cramping that whoopee how fitting! ^^

2. Will you get far in life?
Blink 182 - All The Small Things
say it aint so i will not go turn the lights off carry me home na na na na na nana

3. What’s your best friend’s theme song?
System Of A Down - Hypnotize
interesting. which best friend?

4. What is the story of your life?
Oasis - Fade Away
how depressing

5. What was school like?
Christina Aguilera - Reflections
hmmmm

6. How can you get ahead with life?
The Killers - Mr. Brightside
okie dokes!

7. Whats the best thing about your friends?
David Guetta - Love Is Gone
whaaaa-? :'(

8. Describe your grandparents.
I don't wanna do this question.

9. How’s your life going?
The Kooks - She Moves In Her Own Way

10. What will be played at my funeral?
The Strokes - Politics

11. Will you have a happy life?
Evanescence - Everybody's Fool
..... I guess not.

12. What do your friends really think of you?
Get Well Soon - People Magazine Front Cover
artiste - song. So people think I should be on People's Magazine? *delighted*

13. Do people secretly lust after you?
Mariah Carey - Touch My Body
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

14. How can you make yourself happy?
Oasis - She's Electric
oooohh!!! One of the songs on my happy list!! :D

15. Will you ever have children?
Keane - On A Day Like Today
what? that's too damned soon :S

16. What song would you strip to?
Nobuo Uematsu - Otherworld
fyi, the soundtrack to Final Fantasy X. That would be such a strange strip.

17. What does your mom think of you?
Puretone - Addicted To Bass
.... alritey.

18. What is your deep, dark secret?
Sara Bareilles - City

19. What is your enemy’s theme song?
Nobuo Uematsu - Victory Fanfare
=_____= fyi, the song they play in FF games when you win a battle.... so I guess my "enemy" was victorious! :S

20. What’s your personality like?
Twista ft. R. Kelly - So Sexy
:D you're so sexyyyy purrfect for meeee

21. What will be played at your wedding?
T-Pain - Buy U A Drank
uh. what?

Tagging everyone on blog roll!

xoxo bella

Quickies

2008-07-06T23:25:00.003+08:00

Brief updates:

1) I'm gaining weight :(

2) I've only been to gym once. I'm SO LAZY! I will try to go tomorrow.

3) Vicki woke up with a millipede on her face. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

4) I hate that I smile without realising sometimes. I was thinking of something funny while walking earlier and apparently I was smiling to myself. My sister caught me and said, "You're so weird." :'(

5) Bali in a week and I've spent more than I'm supposed to the past two weeks :( (Iain please send me money ^^)

Alrite that's all, sighh

xoxo bella

Wanted

2008-07-05T01:01:00.004+08:00

I watched Wanted last night. :)

Overall rating: 6/10

I'm a bit conflicted about the movie. I don't know. I don't hate it, but I don't like it either. What I do like about the movie however!!!!

1) Beautifully choreographed violence LOVES IT!!!!!!
2) James McAvoy YUMMMM!!!!

:D

I was trying to find a clip of my faaaavvooourriiiteee scene in the movie. It was a kick-ass factory shoot out. SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's just so indescribable, but unfortunately I can't find a clip of it :(

Here's a trailer though, you can catch a bit of the scene at 1:58 :)

And the movie might not make sense to you. But bear in mind it's based on a graphic novel :P

Oh and as usual, I managed to guess the plotline again, I watch way too many movies methinks, lol.

Oh and my second favourite thing:

Three whoops for JAMES MCAVOY!!!

WHOOP!

WHOOP!!

WHOOP!!!

:)

hehehehehehe

Ok that is all

xoxo bella

I Wanna Be Reese Witherspoon

2008-07-01T02:48:00.005+08:00

How. Lucky. Is. She!

First, Ryan Phillipe.

And now.... now.... *sobs*

JAAAAKEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are just so hot....

....that I wanna cry T.T

So damned luckyyyy!!! Random. He is the Prince of Persia.

I sighhhhh heavily :(

xoxo bella

ps: Ed Westwick & Chace Crawford.......... gay? Is Perez spreading rumours again? btw, is Wentworth Miller gay or not, I still don't know. and I don't care if you're sick of my boy-craziness! Happy July everyone.

EDIT:: Wentworth Miller IS gay. hehehe. Ciao, bello!

Hot Hot Hot

2008-06-30T01:39:00.004+08:00

Why is it getting so hot these daysssssssssssssssssssssss???

:(

I feel the humidity even at night! ><

Anyhoos.

Yesterday was my dad's birthday. Happy Birthday Daddy! lol. He's 61 btw, although he certainly doesn't look it. We went out for dinner and went to JP after that to just check out what's over there. Anyway I'm too lazy to talk much so here's some pictures. :)

Nenet and I. It was seriously so humid that night.

The theme was Aliens and Fantasy creatures. I think.

MUSICAL FOUNTAIN (that's what it's called right?) Brings back memories!!!

Pretty!!!!!!

Vicki mimicking the robot thingy. lol.

Walking through JP really makes me feel nostalgic. I wish they had maintained the park. I remember having so much fun there! Made my childhood a lot more fun. sighhhh. It was especially sad seeing most of my favourite rides gone and empty. :(

My sisters and I were talking about it and they were like saying, "So sayang they don't maintain the rides, makes people takut to go." And I was so blur and said, "Why takut?" because in my opinion I was like yeah sure it ain't as pretty as it once looked but it's basically the same.

G: *looking at me incredulously* Hellooo? You wanna go on the rollercoaster that has been poorly maintained?? like "So fun! Wheeeee- AARGHHHHH!!!!!" when something comes loose or something

HAHAHAHHAHA that made me laugh so hard. And we were saying that "Pusing Lagi" wouldn't be called that anymore, it would be "Pusing Sekali, Terplanting Kesana" HAHAHAHHAHA I am giggling so hard as I type this, oh mann so funny. HAHAHAH

Ok - other pics on fb. If it'll allow me to upload. My sister kept getting "Upload Failed" the other day.

Ciao!

xoxo bella

BORED!: The Fifth

2008-06-28T02:24:00.003+08:00

Alritey I'm posting this before I collapse on my bed. I am tired!!

I finally ended my gym hiatus :D

Went to gym and then straight to work. I tiredddddddd. But it's a good kind of tired. I think. Anyhoos I get to sleep in tomorrow so yeayyy ^^

Random!!

Them old CARTOONS!

I remember watching Jonny Quest every Saturday afternoon ^^

Scooby doooo!!! I loved and hated this show actually. It was SO predictable, but I do love Scooby Doo! Ruh-roh!

OMG I loved watching TMNT!!! :D

:D hehehehehe I love that they can be pretty and be heroines at the same time. And I lived for those moments when she'll touch her earring or when they'd drive through the wall

I'm smarter than the average bear, yeah-hey-hey!

and last, but DEFINITELY not least:

BEST SHOW EVERRRRRRRRRRRR!!! OMG I LOVED THIS SHOW! I miss it so much!!!! :(

wokays. That is all. Goodnight people.

xoxo bella

Lalala

2008-06-27T02:14:00.005+08:00

I'm bored! :)

I don't know what to blog about anymooooooooooooore. HAHA!

Ok, here's what I usually blog about:

1) My random, usually stupid, thoughts.

2) "Today I kicked a dog..." "I had pizza earlier..." "So I was walking today and..."

3) I'm sad!!! I hate my life!! :(

4) I'm angry!!! I wanna kill someone!!!!

5) I'm happy!! HAHA HEHE HOHO!!

6) Pondering over the meaning of life, the universe and everything :D

Okay I'm tired of thinking already. HAHA :)

Hey ho! Whaddaya know!

I feel like doing those blog questionnaires/surveys thingies. Lemme at 'em, lemme at 'em!!!

Ah crap. Can't find any good ones :(

DAMMIT! I thought of something to blog about while I was looking for stuff and now I've forgotten. Nooooooo what is wrong with my memoreh!

I a bit hyperish now. Very strange. lols.

Ok just because I'm bored and lazy. :)

You are fun and unique.

Your parents should have named you...

Ivy

What should your parents have named you?

at QuizGalaxy.com

Ivy? Really? I like my name better. Though I love that I am fun and unique! :D Oh, random thought, if everyone who is fun and unique should be named Ivy, then that makes Ivy not so unique anymore. No? I dunno? HAHAHA I am a master of confusion! :D

Ok another one! ;)

What Bella Means

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.

You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.

Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Ok it sounded right up till the last part. "Best at everything" HAHAHA you have not seen my grades mister/missy!! "strive for perfection" LMAO! I am the laziest person ever!! "confident, authoritative, and aggressive" LOL LOL LOL :D OH! And also, I am SOOOO not even bold or daring! I hate venturing out of my comfort zone :) Me no outrageous :)

You Are a Social Blogger!

Your blog is more of a semi-private affair for your friends.

It's how you keep in touch... sharing stories, jokes, and pics.

What Kind of Blogger Are You?

Meh. Me bored now. lalala. btw, I stumbled across a "Are You Pregnant?" quiz while browsing. Sure, that's what I would do if I wanted to know! DURRRRR :P

Ok that is all people! :)

xoxo bella

ps: OH OH OH! Before I forget!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMMIE!

Just For Show

2008-06-27T00:22:00.001+08:00

*help I.M - Iain cakap hi dengan "hyper-happy hippy hug" yang besar dan sebuah "wonderous wigle wave" says (12:17 AM):
Blog about bali
make a bruneian bella bali blog

-bella- says (12:17 AM):
nahh
too lazy

*help I.M - Iain cakap hi dengan "hyper-happy hippy hug" yang besar dan sebuah "wonderous wigle wave" says (12:18 AM):
Blog about laziness!!! :D

-bella- says (12:18 AM):
you blog
:P
why do i have to do all the work

*help I.M - Iain cakap hi dengan "hyper-happy hippy hug" yang besar dan sebuah "wonderous wigle wave" says (12:18 AM):
I don't have a blog :b

-bella- says (12:18 AM):
just write what you want

*help I.M - Iain cakap hi dengan "hyper-happy hippy hug" yang besar dan sebuah "wonderous wigle wave" says (12:18 AM):
Cos it's YOUR blog!! lol

-bella- says (12:18 AM):
i'll copy paste
HAHAHA

*help I.M - Iain cakap hi dengan "hyper-happy hippy hug" yang besar dan sebuah "wonderous wigle wave" says (12:19 AM):
Ok!! :D
Keep it short and sweet
*ahem*
Here goes:
Iain says hi!!!!
xoxo bella
lol

-bella- says (12:19 AM):
=___________=

*help I.M - Iain cakap hi dengan "hyper-happy hippy hug" yang besar dan sebuah "wonderous wigle wave" says (12:19 AM):
hey i'm not as creative as you ok!!!

*help I.M - Iain cakap hi dengan "hyper-happy hippy hug" yang besar dan sebuah "wonderous wigle wave" says (12:20 AM):
I have little more than that 3 word vocabulary!!!
:%

-bella- says (12:20 AM):
right.......

*help I.M - Iain cakap hi dengan "hyper-happy hippy hug" yang besar dan sebuah "wonderous wigle wave" says (12:20 AM):
Iain says hi!!

-end-

As per instructions above: Iain says hi.

xoxo bella ;)

Quickies

2008-06-26T03:09:00.002+08:00

A lame ole joke:

Q: What's hot in Brunei?

A: The SOAS field at mid-day

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

courtesy of Vicki.

xoxo bella

Sistahs

2008-06-25T00:41:00.004+08:00

My little sister is up in Bandar for the week, since she's having her holidays and she's bored at home.

I don't really mind the company, it beats waking up to an empty house most of the time. Also she's such a good little girl who does the dishes ^^ Plus, she does things that I'm too lazy to do *looks down in shame*

I don't have privacy though, but meh, it's just for a week.

---

We were watching 30 Rock last night and there was this scene where some hobo spits into Tina Fey's mouth, and we were all grossed out by it.

V, B & Little B: Ugh, GAWD that's so gross!!

G: *looks up from laptop, while munching on takoyaki* Huh? What, what happened?

V: So gross, you have to watch it *rewinds back to scene*

G: WHAT WHAT I DON'T WANNA WATCH

V: NO LOOK!!

Everyone watches scene again.

V, G, B & Little B: GROSS EW YUCK BLECH

V: OMG it's just so gross, and she was kinda calm about it! I mean, imagine if the hobo smiled at you like with a mouthful of rotten teeth-

G: OMG SHUT UP I'M STILL ON MY LAST TAKOYAKI!

---

Hahahahaha I just found that so funny.

I had to work tonight, but everyone else went to the arcade and went k-boxing :(

Anyhoos they told me that they were in the booth singing, but the next booth were full of girls who were screeching and shrieking along to the songs and Vicki got annoyed and yelled out in frustration: "EH TERUK JUA!"

Funny thing was ngam2 got lull in the song so she was pretty audible LOL

I wish I had been there :'( They went DDR-ing and played what looked like rhythm bongo drumming. FUN! I love rhythm games! I am so good at them *hero pose*

There are Krispy Kremes in the kitchen! I'm so tempted to have another one (I already had two earlier this afternoon) :( Alternatively, I could also have Koko Krunch, or the still unopened tub of Cadbury Mint Chocolate Chip Ice cream in the freezer.

OR!!! the kitkats or the twix or twisties or cheezels or cloud 9's.

THE KITCHEN IS SO FREAKING STOCKED WITH UNHEALTHY FATTENING FOOD. Dangerous for my waist! :(

I keep drinking water so I won't eat anything.

btw!! AirAsia keeps changing the flight times!! Grrrrr.

xoxo bella

ps: I am as random as my stupid moods.

Bunnies & Bagels

2008-06-24T03:21:00.003+08:00

BUNNIES!!

BAGELS!!!

Ok - that is all :D

xoxo bella

I'm a-Stumblin'

2008-06-23T03:32:00.002+08:00

I heart stumbleupon!! Get your own people! It's good for those boring nights when you don't know what to look for. The lazy internet surfer's dream :D

Anyhoos.

Some quotes from some dude called Terry Pratchett. I dunno who. Hold on. *whips out Wiki in a new tab* Oh he's a British author. Speaking of Wiki. Rinni asked me something about herpes earlier so I wiki'ed it. Yeah. The pictures caught me offguard. The images are forever burned onto my corneas. I am traumatised. :S

Anyways as I was saying. I like these :D

Build a man a fire, and he'll be warm for a day. Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life. (*nods solemnly* I like this one better than the fish one. xD)

Everything starts somewhere, although many physicists disagree.

Fantasy is an exercise bicycle for the mind. It might not take you anywhere, but it tones up the muscles that can. Of course, I could be wrong.

Five exclamation marks, the sure sign of an insane mind. (ah yes, so true. *whistle whistle* oh hi Iain. xP)

In ancient times cats were worshipped as gods; they have not forgotten this. (Yeah those smug creatures. I don't like cats :S)

In the beginning there was nothing, which exploded. (=_______=)

It is often said that before you die your life passes before your eyes. It is in fact true. It's called living.

It's not worth doing something unless you were doing something that someone, somewere, would much rather you weren't doing.

Light thinks it travels faster than anything but it is wrong. No matter how fast light travels, it finds the darkness has always got there first, and is waiting for it. (ooooh nice one :D)

The intelligence of the creature known as a crowd, is the square root of the number of people in it.

The pen is mightier than the sword if the sword is very short, and the pen is very sharp. (HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA)

The trouble with having an open mind, of course, is that people will insist on coming along and trying to put things in it.

The truth may be out there, but lies are inside your head.

They say a little knowledge is a dangerous thing, but it's not one half so bad as a lot of ignorance.

You can't trample infidels when you're a tortoise. I mean, all you could do is give them a meaningful look. (random but so damned funny!! HAHAHHA)

------

Oh yeah I totally forgot to mention that results are out already :( Well........................ what's done is done, I am SO gonna work harder next sem. >:( I can't keep doing this to myself!!

I will try! *hero pose*

Oh my is that the time? :S

xoxo bella

The Wiggle Worms & The Zip Zorps!

2008-06-23T00:24:00.005+08:00

:D I love that line. It's from friends. ^^

Ey, there seems to be some teddy bear craze lately me dunno why~

Anyhoos.

This my teddy!!!<3 <3 <3

I've had it for like a decade, and I've never slept without it. Also! Note that it is bright purple, favourite colourrrrrrrrrrrrrr :D :D :D

Well actually I have slept without it, there was that time when I neglected it in favour of that stupid Taz pillow. Which I still own btw, but I prefer to kick it to the bottom of the bed. lols. I prefer falling asleep hugging something. :)

I love this teddy because it fits oh so perfectly in the crook of my neck. :)

Yes I am turning 21 this septiembre.

HAHAHA me no care. I sleep with a teddy!! Now you know one of my not so deep, not so dark, and not so secret, secrets. HAHAHAHAHAHA

xoxo bella

Bored Is Me

2008-06-21T01:29:00.003+08:00

I am so BORRREEEDDDDDD

What to do? What to do?

Hmmmmm...

HMMMMMMMMMM....

Counting the days to when I that big, ol' metal flying machine woooooshhhh me off to Bali. Bali, I cannot wait for the day I step foot on your sandy beaches and get a glimpse of the eye candy that Bali has to offer. 25 more days to go and then I'm off!!!

I wish I can just go out now and do SOMETHING. Anything even. Anything at all. But I can't. I can't do anything. I can't dooo anyyytteeeennnggg *imitates Maritess*

That Maritess cracks me up.

*sigh*

I'm back to being bored again. I feel like I wanna go out and watch a movie, NOW!! Seriously, I do. Any movie would just do. Any movie at all. But somehow, I doubt there are any worth watching. But no horror. Horror movies just gives me nightmares. And they are depressing. Sometimes I kesian those people die for no reason at all and sometimes I feel sorry that these characters are so, and I mean it, so stupid. They are like lambs to the slaughter. It's clear that danger is just around the corner, why don't u just run beech? Run!!! GAWDDD!!! Your silicone is not going to save you from death!! Half of the time I get so worked up I feel like strangling each and everyone of them and make it easy for the villain.

*fumes* stupid, bimbotic victims always manages to piss me off.

I don't know why some people love watching horror movies. *points at vis, whistles innocently*

The other night he was telling me about this Thai movie called "Long Khong". Long Khong ah people not to be mistaken for "longkang" LOL I crack myself up. By the way he talked about it, I definitely don't wanna watch it. It sounds so EWWWWWWW.... Yuck!!!! Why, man, why?!!!?

Hokay, I am done. I am still bored. Somebody save me from this boredom. I am in dire need of some attention. Attend to me NOW people!!!

xoxo bella

I Wasn't Tagged

2008-06-20T01:44:00.002+08:00

... but I stumbled across Ammie's blog while blog-hopping. ^^ (Hello Ammie if you're reading this!! :D)

Four jobs I’ve had in my life:
1. Accounts Trainee
2. Part-time admin clerk
3. Full-time procrastinator
4. Freelance stalker :D

Four movies I can watch over and over
1. Mean Girls
2. Mulan
3. Shaun of The Dead (this movie seriously cracks me up)
4. Stardust!!!!

Four 'places' I have lived
1. KB house
2. BSP bungalow
3. Lumut house
4. Kiulap

Four TV shows I love to watch
1. F.R.I.E.N.D.S
2. Scrubs
3. Gossip Girl
4. How I Met Your Mother

Four places I have been on vacation
1. Singapore
2. Kuala Lumpur
3. Brisbane
4. Labuan............ HAHAH I need to travel more, seriously.

Four of my favourite dishes
1. Unagi sushi!
2. Baked chicken chop with rice [Gripps]
3. Lasagna
4. ...... Anything from Jollibee!!! :D Must there be only four? xP

Four web sites I visit daily
1. facebook
2. perezhilton
3. this blog
4. whatever's on my blogroll :D

Four places I would rather be right now
1. my bed...
2. anywhere but here
3. anywhere but here
4. somewhere with mint chocolate chip ice cream!

Bloggers I am tagging
1. blog roll
2. anyone who's bored
3. fellow bloghoppers *HELLO!*
4. :D

xoxo bella

Still Waiting...

2008-06-20T01:02:00.003+08:00

Wahhhhhhhh when will the wait be over?

I'm talking about the results, people. I know my results are gonna suck, but the suspense is killing me! :(

I've been eating too much lately. My cravings, intensified by pms. :( grrrr.

Anyway I was saying to my sister G and cousin R two nights ago:

B: Gawd, I need an appetite suppressant.

R: Why?

B: I've been eating too much *pats tummy*

G: There's donuts on the table.

B & R: =________=

I mean, what did I just say??? I ended up eating those donuts too :( :( :(

DAMMIT!!

Me getting fat... No good no good

xoxo bella

Secrets

2008-06-19T01:56:00.004+08:00

I was thinking earlier this afternoon, how only a selected few knows my deepest darkest secrets. And I also realised how much power this gives them. It's scary, but also strangely liberating.

Sometimes you meet that one person that you want to just whisper all your secrets to. Because to know your secrets, is to know you.

When you give away your secrets, you give away a piece of yourself.

I wish I could take back those secrets that I whispered so carelessly to the wrong people. I can never get that back. That little piece of me will always remain in their possession. It frustrates me.

I still have many that only I know.

xoxo bella

ps: inspiring.

How can I know you
if you don't whisper your secrets in my ear?

BORED!: The Fourth

2008-06-18T02:07:00.002+08:00

I can spell bored!! B-O-R-E-D

Random words that I blurted out just now. I got bored of saying I'm bored so I ended up spelling "bored".

That's a lot of "bored"

I'm just so ~~bored~~ idle

I'm feeling so neglectedddddddddddd. Where all my kawans and amigos and frensies??

:(

LALALALALALALALALALLALALALALALLALALALA

Too bored!! Don't know what to do!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

*runs headfirst into a wall*

*groans* xoxo bella...

BORED!: The Third

2008-06-17T13:09:00.007+08:00

*ahem*

Opera-style:

IIIIIII Ammmmmm BooooooOOOOOOOOOOOREDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!

*bows* Thankiu Thankiu :D

Heh heh heh.

Hello all!! I thought that would wake my blog up because it seems to be deaaaddddd.

Oooooh! I just read that Kenny Sia just came back from Bali. Bali is the place to be people!! Bwahahahahaah! And I so iskie that I put countdown clock already *waves vaguely at sidebar* I really cannot wait laaaa. It's been a long time since I've had a vacation and everyone thinks that it is about time I took some time off. (Everyone = Vicki and Bella) ehehehehe

OH! And the word hanger cracks me up! :D HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Okay I go now. LOL

xoxo bella

ps: I am also very the hungry. Waiting for my sister to come home with my lunch!!! LUNCH!!! Wherefore art thou lunch!!! Deny thy father and refuse thy name, and bla bla bla I shall no longer be known as a Capulet. :D You know I tried reading Shakespeare once. I had no idea what that dude be saying. :s Ok this a very long post-script :P

Crankiness Over

2008-06-15T23:45:00.011+08:00

... methinks?

pms is over and I am now cramping. But I'm beginning to feel happy again? I think ler... Also it may be a result of Vicki and I singing the duet of Lucky (I was Jason Mraz, she was Colbie Caillat) lol, we did pretty well if I can say so myself :D

I watched Kung Fu Panda!! This time I really watched it at the cinema with mi familia. It's quite good, they really managed to make the concept of animals doing kung-fu quite cool. Plus, the plotline ain't too bad, and it's funny too! :)

And hey, do you guys feel sleepy after watching a movie? I always do. HAHAHA

My eyes are itching and stinging right now so I can't say more. Talk more later.

edit!!!

I am post-shower and smell gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood :D

And my eyes are now itch- and sting-free ^^

YES I AM DEFINITELY BACK TO HAPPY!! I do love Lucky :D :D :D

anyhoos!! Randomnesssss baybehhh!

I HAVE FINALLY GOTTEN MY HANDS ON SCRUBS SEASON 7!! Thank you piracy! Although it's only the first 11 episodes, the ones I'm guessing they managed to squeeze out before the writers' strike. I curse the day that strike happened! So many shows I have watched only halfway. PRIVATE PRACTICE!! CHUCK!!!!

OOOH OOOH!! You guys should totally watch Jericho. It is awesome-ness. It's also a bit scary in how realistic it seems, you can totally imagine that's how it must be like in a nuclear terrorist attack :(

*reads Wiki entry*

HOLY *&%F&^&EF&^E^&U!!!!!!! They CANCELLED Jericho?!?!??!?! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's so good!! :( STUPID DUMB PALOI DAMMIT!!!! I'm so angry >:(

WHY? WHY DO THIS TO ME?? Make me love a show only to just snatch it away again. Oh cruel fate!~

*sigh* fine... at least I'll still have Private Practice and Chuck. Hmm. Yes I know I watch too many shows. Give me something else that I might love doing and I might stop.

And by "doing" I don't mean anything sexual!!! >_>

OH! Which reminds me (please don't ask me how I made this connection)

GOOD LUCK I A I N !!!!!

Iain's having his exams and he's a nervous little bunny (his words, not mine) Let's all wish him luck! :D

We all know you'll do great because you're a genius! :D and hey!!! You'll be back on MSN after it's all over! ^^

Ah, I cramp. Okie dokes, I'll continue watching Jericho again, though what's the point anymore... :(

second edit!!!

Ok, I don't wanna seem heartless by putting this last, but Happy Fathers' Day!!!! We don't really celebrate it (not because we're terrible daughters) but my dad really doesn't believe in Fathers' Day, Mothers' Day or even birthdays. :( Makes it hard to have much festivity during those days but sometimes we all say AH HECK!! and celebrate it anyway :) So... to all fathers:

Happy Fathers' Day

xoxo bella

ps: cranky no more, hiatus no more? but I still......................

Guilt

2008-06-14T15:27:00.004+08:00

Why do I feel guilty for not being able to please people all the time? It's hard to please everyone.

*sigh*

And I hope things will get better soon. I can't wait for BALI! A change of scenery will do me good. :D

update!

I watched Kung Fu Panda. :D

And by watched meaning putting on a blurry DVD and falling asleep on the couch while it played :D

And I am not going home for the weekend.

And I'm thinking of quitting the gym because it's is too damned mahal. I still have till July to decide. :S I was supposed to go today but my sister is asleep and I don't wanna go alone.

I should look for Rinnayyy! She asked me out for either a movie or laying around at the beach (early) tomorrow morning. I malas wanna drive out to Empire wah. LOL. Ok I go text her now :D

xoxo bella

Reminiscence ft. Ronni Marlipono

2008-06-13T15:31:00.005+08:00

I had dinner with Rindy Windy last night. Basically we gossiped (about other people because our own lives are so boring, lol) and then we started reminiscing about the good ol' days in PJN. So fun, those times, when we barely had anything to worry about. And everything was so much easier. And we were all so much happier. *sigh*

Anyway, recalling some of our antics back in PJN:

That time when we were doing those gas tests or whatever, I can't remember. But one of those tests required that we test the gas with a damp litmus paper. Rinni and Deidre (who were lab partners) were like, "Is the litmus paper damp?" And they were panicking because the gas was already escaping and they started yelling at each other (and the rest of the class) SOMEBODY DAMP THE LITMUS PAPER! SOMEBODY DAMP THE LITMUS PAPER! and suddenly Rinni started singing like some Broadway musical, "Somebody damp the litmus paper~ Somebody damp the litmus paper~" I think I laughed till I cried that day. LOL. Also it just occurred to me that "damp" is not a verb. :P
That time when I almost set myself on fire. I reached over for something and I remembered thinking, "Wow, my arm feels so hot." and I looked down and realised the bunsen burner was right under my arm. lol. It melted my baju kurung a bit :s
That time when Rinni broke the glass lens and Tashry took the blame for it (and habis kena goreng by Miss Chin :S :S awww so nice of him to do that)
OH OH OH RIN REMEMBER THE SILVER BOOK!!!! OMG where is it now????
HAHAHAHHAHA RIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Remember POA???? "Isn't it-ah?" LMAO!!! I remembered that time when she asked me, "Annabella, are you Chinese?" and Rinni was like, "No, no, the Chong is just there for decoration"
"Cheh-mistry, bah, kamu ada blajar Cheh-mistry?" Rinni:"Awu, chu-dah" HAHAHAHAHHA
When Mr. Kwan called me Chong that one time, and Rinni started calling me that too. "Eh, Chong!"
Fairuz's habit of singing everything. "Foolscap paper!~" "Annabella Chong Suk Mei~ Annabella! Annabella! Annabella~"

Oh man... those were good times....

I wanna build a time machine. I should've taken Physics. LOL.

xoxo bella

ps: It's Friday the 13th! No wonder my day was kinda sucky.