Angry!!!! I'm feeling angry angry angry!!!
Specifically at UBD. And at some of my lecturers (is the annoyment). And maybe at myself.
Why I am mad at:
1) UBD:So bloody inefficient!! Totally not effective!!!!! Where my ID card leh?!?!? Why the juniors already got theirs? I am halfway through my second year!!! >=( (Actually I dunno why I'm feeling angry, but I just know I am mad at UBD.)
2) Some of my lecturers:WHY GIVE SO MUCH ASSIGNMENTS SO CLOSE TO EXAMS?! ARGHHHH I can't sleep now because I'm just so worried. Exams, assignments, exams, assignments, presentations, blah blah.
3) Myself:Still not motivated to do well. I dunno. And hating myself for being so lazy and not prepared for my exams.
Sigh. Anyhoo, enough ranting.
Again, sorry for not blogging much nowadays. Not much to blog about and it's all the same rants anyway. (This one ain't gonna be any different)
Feeling the stressssssssss
And I guess my Sunday night/Monday morning insomnia is back. Whoopee.
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Halfway through the assignments but I'm majorly worried about English. The lecturer is a bit hard to please and I have no clue on how the progress is going on the work so I am just worried about it. WORRIED! ArGHHHHH
I think I will be fine by the time English presentation is done.
Then I'll only have FIS and the exams itself to worry about. MUST DO WELL THIS SEMESTER!
Ok ok, should I talk about something frivolous now?
Stardust is good!!! Well, I am a romantic so I'm always a sucker for happy endings and fairy tales but I still think it's good. I love Robert De Niro in there, and I think the cinematics were gorgeous. Bella recommends Stardust people!! Go watch it!
Or um, don't watch if you've got exams and assignments and stuff, lol.
I am totally crushing. Must work on subtlety.
Damn it.
I had this post I wrote out before but I didn't publish it, it was all about pessimism and optimism (shit I had trouble spelling those words). It's probably in drafts, shall look for it.... Ah here you go:
There is a thin line between pessimism and realism.
Pessimists will always think that they are being realistic. I am one of those. I think the term pessimism is just an illusion used to cloak the brutal truth.
What's the point of being an optimist anyway? "Always hope for the best"?
I mean, the way I see it, it is always safer to expect the worst. Why?
Well, obviously there can either be a good outcome and a bad outcome. So when you expect the worst, it's a win-win with either outcome.
Good outcome: You were expecting the worst and is pleasantly surprised.
Bad outcome: You get what you were expecting so there are no surprises or disappointments.
See? Win-win.
Does that make me sound cynical? Maybe.
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Then I had a conversation with Tzen about that very thing after that. Talking with her sometimes depresses me because she can be so cynical sometimes. Why? (And I shall remove this if Tzen is displeased)
She does not believe in love. Well, long-lasting love anyway. She thinks it's just a temporary phase that will always fade away.
She thinks optimists are naive for a slightly different reason that I do. For her, it's because there's no point looking forward to happiness that's gonna be temporary. I think her words were like, "You get happy for a few seconds then what? Some shit happens. No point!"
I was all like =S and =/ after that.
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*BIG BIG MAJOR BIG SIGH*
I very the stress. I think too much, but so many things are stressing and frustrating the hell out of me. Not my business also I stress. WHY AM I SO KAYPOH!? =(
Ok then I stop here lah. Sigh.....................................
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ps: Great. Now I have a headache.
Labels: It's All About Me, Vent
