S'up.

Hellow mellow!

I'm procrastinating. I am supposed to prepare my presentation for Company Accounting. Except that I have no freakin' idea how to do it. Grr. It's so hard... it's so hard...

Ok, I continue.

ROFL

But anyhoos yeah, other groups also dunno. The book is damned useless. Know how to ask question only but then answer nada pun in the book.

Anything new? I know I wanted to blog about something, but I can't remember what.

Sigh.

Oh yeah, Rinnayyy and Yus are baaaaaaaaaaaacccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

WHooooHooooooo!!! Gotta meet up soon babes! =)

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Is it weird how friends can drift apart so easily?

Considering it's hard to actually form a bond between two people, how come it's easy to just stop talking, to stop seeing each other, and not even have it affect your life significantly?

And you'll only realise it when someone asks, "So what's new with so-and-so?" and you don't have any idea.

I can count the number of good friends with whom I've been out of touch with for ages on one hand.

I always wonder whether we could still be friends now, because we've changed a lot over the years. Surface friends, maybe, but never with that same closeness we used to have.

But you know what they say, true friends are forever. =)

So much love to mi amigas! <33

Ok, will continue to stare blankly at textbook now. Stupid question.

xoxo bella

ps: My head's in overdrive again. I can't stop thinking about things I don't wanna think about.

Post-Rip Off

... dang that dinner was a rip-off.

Food: $64 (5 dishes altogether, all medium)
Rice: $2.50 (5 plates, 50 cents each)
Coke: $1.50 (from a glass, filled with ice. Not even sampai a whole can that I tell you)
7-Up: $1.50 (ditto above)
Iced Milo: $2
Watermelon juice: $7 (two glasses, $3.50 each)
Peanuts/pickles: $4 (GILA! WHAT PEANUTS/PICKLES YOU SERVE KAN?!)
Tissues: $1.50 (Those wet scented tissues kind, WHICH they offered to us. You know how they offer? They ripped open the packet and then offer to us. Like that still can refuse kan?)
Tea: ___ cents (can't remember how many cents it was, but it was insignificant compared to the others)

Total: $84.** (and something cents)

PALOIIIIIIII

My father was like, "Sakit leher ku eh, makan $84."

Anyhoos. A bit of pics.

My mum eating chilli, apparently.

Food!!! Attack!!

*burp* The carcasses of our meal.

My sister with her brand new Sony Ericsson, which I call the shake-shake phone. Because if you want to change songs you shake-shake only.

HAHAHAHHA I like this picture because it looks like my mum is flipping me the bird. Gangster mama!

Yah. Masih sempat camwhore outside restaurant. Baby sis and I.

Hockay!! I need to snoooooozeeeeeeeeeee. Happy Easter!!

xoxo bella

Don't Let Me Down

GAH!

Today I had a Quantitative Analysis test.

I really hope I'm psychic because all I did was pick the answer that I sensed was the correct one. Nazi put his faith in his coins.

Nazi's method of getting answers from his coins:

Two heads - A.
Head first, Tail second - B.
Tail first, head second - C.
Two tails - D.

0__0

Meanwhile, Grace... I also dunno what she do. She calculated the percentages of the answers and used the same percentages with other answers kah apa I also don't know.

Some looked at others' answers.

Some shared answers.

The rest of course(includes Alyaa, Sheena, Amie and Razan), used the boring ole method of "studying". Huh?! Whassat? =P

Today's my mother's birthday!

She is now 54 years old.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!!!

Gotta go shower, and get ready to go out for dinner.

Ciao.

xoxo bella

ps: Don't let me down, psychic power!!!

I May Need Help

I should seriously stop listening to emo songs because they depress me.

What is this song?!

Ok I am apparently listening to Can You Help Me by Usher.

I've been feeling worn out these days. Physically, emotionally, mentally, whatever. I'm not sure. All I know is, this year so far all I've been feeling is tired and weary. All I want to do is sleep. It's like I have to keep waking up for some reason or worse, none at all. It could be to send my sister to work. Or to go to class. Or to rush to work. Or just waking up for no reason at all and having to lie there staring at the ceiling trying to figure out where the hell I'm going.

I'm feeling desperate for something, but I don't know what.

Companionship. Friends. Time. Intimacy. Freedom. Money. Achievement. Success. Love. Happiness. Hope. Innocence.

It could be one of them. It could be every one of them.

Sometimes I think I emit this same desperation in waves, and that is why people tend to stay away from me. I know people, but I call very few of them my friends.

I like to think that I have this knack of psycho-analysing people's traits and characters. And I used that on myself.

I realised that I may have some intimacy issues. I don't like letting people get too close. It's probably why I crack so many stupid jokes to make people laugh. It's a safe way for me to be liked, but not letting them get too close. It's also probably why I empathise with people. Why I can be such a fake, two-faced hypocrite.

Sad reality, but I know deep down it's true. Did you guys suspect that about me? I don't know why I'm saying all this but I'm just so so so tired of carrying this facade sometimes. So afraid of treading on people's toes. So afraid of losing friends. So afraid of not being liked by people that I like, or love, even.

Dang, I do need help.

xoxo bella

Heads Up

These goes out to those drivers/cruisers:

1. If you insist on cruising around with music blasting out of your speakers, at least make it so that it's GOOD music. I lost count of how many grinning idiots I've seen blasting dangdut at full volume. So not right.


2. If your music is loud enough to set off my car alarm, it's too goddamned loud. We don't need everything to be a-thumping and a-vibrating.


3. Cruise a certain place once, not five times.
   

Once: Okay normal.
Twice: Oh cari parking maybe..
Three times: Still no parking? Tu ada!
Four times: Waiting for someone kali...
Five times: Psycho-stalker kali...

True story. Was at CoffeeZone with Ryan and this person circled like five times. I stopped counting after that.


4. Cool car... windows down... cigarette-holding arm draped lazily out the window... driver looks samseng as hell... listening to Bad Day by Alvin & the Chipmunks... What is wrong with that picture? Also true story.

Oh, I was once a passenger of a car that was blasting Stop - Spice Girls at full volume. This was on a dare though but I didn't think he would do it, haha. The looks we drew from DeRoyalle customers were hilarious.

(all based on real events)

xoxo bella

The History of Love

I hear it when the wind whistles against my ear.
I hear it as I fall asleep to the hum of the aircon.
I hear it in the ringing sound of silence.
The sound of our quiet laughter mingling together.
Your voice whispering in my ear.

suckiness by xoxo bella

ps: I am currently reading The History of Love by Nicole Krauss. I'm not sure how I find it. ttyl.

Funny/Random

Oh this sounds exactly like what I would say.

The dorkiest, and possibly coolest thing I've ever seen :D



HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

[Kaz] Let's tell scary stories!
[The_Karma_Police] Ok, I'll start.
[The_Karma_Police] There was this guy, and he was in the kitchen...OF DOOM!
[The_Karma_Police] And in that kitchen, he baked...THE PIE OF LOST SOULS!
[The_Karma_Police] And to cool that pie, he put it in...THE WINDOW TO HELL!
[Kaz] Ok, let's promise ourselves to never tell scary stories again...ever

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You know, it sickens me when bloggers go all mushy in their blogs. I don't get it. I mean sure it's fine to say something about your other half once in a while but this is like all the time, all over the blog. Like they'll be talking about something random and then slot in their partner's name or something.

"I went to buy some coffee today. I love coffee. But not as much as I love my sayang... Love you honey.."

IN EVERY SINGLE POST?!

It's pretty sickening.

......

You can tell that I'm single, right?

:(

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GRRRRR selfish ungrateful people pissing me off again........

xoxo bella

Where The Fun?

My blog has really gone down the drain hasn't it? I was going through my archives and I realised that it has gone from semi-entertaining to just plain boring.

What do what do?

You know, I always end up playing the role of the peacemaker. I hate conflicts and arguments and fights and tension and discomfort and what-else-the-thesaurus-may-come-up-with. It seems like I always have this urge to calm the atmosphere and act neutral.

It sucks, because I always feel the pressure to remain on the fence and not say anything negative about either side.

They say Libras are good are looking at the whole picture. They must be right. (fyi, I'm a Libra. The scales. Having the ability to balance both sides.)

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Everyone seems to be annoying me lately. I guess I'm feeling irritable, but everyone seems to really have the ability to push my buttons easily.

Selfish

Stop doing things for yourself only and letting me everyone else scurry around and trying to juggle everything. Wouldn't kill you to lend a helping hand once in a while.

Arrogant

Get your head out of your ass and realise that you might not be better than me. And I might, and this may be hard to comprehend, but I just MIGHT know as much stuff as you do. I'm so sorry that I may seem like a phillistine once in a while, dammit.

LAZY LAZY LAZY

(*^&^$%#%$# For fck's sake. I just... God, I don't know.

/vent

So annoyed.

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On a lighter note, I've managed to squeeze three visits to the gym this week.

*dances around*

I'll try to go more frequently next week. Have to go during mornings since I'm working at night, damn it all.

Who wants to go with me?! PLEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAASSEEEEEEEEEEEE.

I want a buddy to go during mornings 'cause I don't really wanna be alone in the classes. It would be pretty obvious if I can't keep up and stop to take a break. Which I always do. =(

OH speaking of gym, I went to Yoga the other night with Ryan. This girl just basically folded herself in half and like managed to raise her legs and bend them over so that her feet were on the floor behind her head. Okay wait lemme give you a visual.


LOL seriously that's how our faces looked like. Never seen it done so effortlessly. Then she rolled herself so that she was back on her feet.

I WANT ALSO. Can you imagine what I can do with such flexibility???

I'll let your imaginations run free with that statement. :D

xoxo bella

Bee-sy!

What is "bee-sy"?

Busy as a bee = Bee-sy

HAR HAR HAR

Obviously I have nothing better to do with my brain, lol.

I got my Prado serviced finally! But it cost me a day of sleeping in and I just got home, and now I have to drive up Bandar again like in a few minutes.

Therefore I feel so bee-sy.

ttyl

xoxo bella

YES!

Oh joy joy joy the mid-semester break is finally here! :D

I am nocturnal lagi, but I'm gonna be turning in real soon, because damn, I've only had like 3 hours of sleep. Such a long day. Yesterday I slept at around 3.30am and woke up around 7am to finish off my OB report. Took me 3 hours to complete, so at around 10, I was happily printing it out already! Huahah. Thing is, the deadline was at 11am and I also had a class at 11, plus I still haven't showered and stuff. Had to rush like hell and I ran to FBEPS to hand in the assignment and then ran like hell to CLT for Spanish.

I was a-huffing and a-puffing, lol.

Anyhoossss I skipped Company Accounting and Quantitative Analysis. AGAIN.

BLAH

Atu pun I managed to get an hour's nap before having to wake up to rush to work at 5pm. Now I'm still awake. Don't ask why. I also dunno. I have to work tomorrow morning lagi.

What is wrong with me? It's like I'm a glutton for punishment. :S

Oh I stumbled upon this site when blog-hopping.

I totally was shockified because I knew about this "controversy" since I was like 10 years old, and I totally know which house he's talking about. Before he discovered blogging, he stuck a sign in front of the house telling all about his father's story. And I specifically remembered a sign saying "Rumah Anak Mak Weng" or something like that. So weird. I thought the whole issue was over and done with. I don't feel bad blogging about this because I think that's what he would want anyway. I don't really know the whole story so I'm not gonna say what I think about the whole shazam. ^^

I'm driving back to Lumut after work tomorrow and coming up either Monday or Tuesday. HECTIC HECTIC

I am so glad it's hols :D

Baaahhhh I go sleep.

xoxo bella

Nocturnal

I'm turning nocturnal these days. Look at the time of this post.

Oh nooooo Popadum just msn-ed, jangan kacau ba jangan kashauuuu. Ten bucks he's berating me on the late hour.

Colorpull says (3:12 AM):
aiyo akhir also you go online?

KAN. Nda ku paham, he sama also two time five. (Dua kali lima)

AHAHAHHA

I think the late hour's getting to me.

Tapi kan, I'm not sleepy wah.

Oh and you know what, I haven't even completed my assignment due tomorrow. No, wait, make that TODAY. Gila wah.

I AM TIRED KALI AH.

Dang, I feel like quitting work. But I ain't a quitter, just a procrastinator.

TELL ME THAT DOESN'T SOUND LIKE A HIT!

No my work's been on the table, collecting dust, and I ain't lyin'
I feel like quittin' but that ain't an option
Coz why? I ain't a quitter,
just a procrastinator.
Say wha?
I said I'm just a procrastinator.
Fo' sheezy.

OK PALUI I KNOW

I should go

xoxo bella