Happy Birthday Rinnayyy!

Love love ya woman! You can join all us 20 year-olds now! Hippo Borthodox! :D

See ya in less than month YAYYYYYY hangouts! Hopefully dapat lah, coz Fairuz said you might be busy.

But still. We'll be in the same country, YAYYY!

xoxo bella

ps: stupid diet lasted for like 5 hours before I caved due to stress from stupid Cost Accounting test and unfinished assignments plus dreading English interview (I eat when I'm stressed). Also I missed Body Pump and Hi-Lo yesterday due to exhaustion. :( So basically no diet, and no exercise. Fatty!

Stuff It.

Hola chicas (y chicos)! Today's the last day of my so-called holiday. I have a test and assignments to complete but I've yet to start on any. I never could study at home. Too comfy... Bed... MMMmmmmmm...

I got a haircut today, nothing new I just really needed to trim my bangs, I am so sick of clipping it back. I have two zits on my forehead that I can now hide :D

Anyhoo I bought some useless stuff from the $1.80 store. Damn you for having cute and cheap stuff, LETHAL COMBINATION!

Ehh ehhhh my biceps macam karas lahh... HUAHAHAHHA setayi baru two classes of Body Pump saja. Tomorrow again! YARRR!

Oh by the way, it begins today. "It" being my strict eating regiment. No lar. I don't do diets. Seriously though, CNY has not been kind to my waistline. My body is mean to me, because all the fats go down to my bottom. I wanted to buy a new pair of jeans just now and tried it on and....

T.T

Malas wanna say. Sakit hati only. BENCI I! :(

Imma have to watch what I eat from now on. My aims:
- more fruits in my diet
- everything in MODERATION
- RESIST ALL CRAVINGS!
- no more suppers for me
- more veggies too
- apa lagi ah
- oh yeah WATER ONLY! occasionally a soft drink once a week.

Why was I born with a love for food? :(

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So yeah I should've blogged yesterday. Brunei's 24th National Day.

I spent the whole morning in bed, how's that for patriotism?

Okay, I'm a citizen, but I won't be one of those people who pretend that they're all patriotic and stuff.

There is no ideal nation, and Brunei is no exception. Okay so I bitch once in a while about how Brunei is all restrictive and shit, but I'm lucky to be living in a country that takes good care of their people.

Education? Free.
Medical facilities? (Mostly) Free.
CHEAP PETROL! :D

Although sometimes it's annoying, I kinda like that Brunei is so small that everyone knows everyone, it's like we're one big family. Sometimes it feels like I'm related to soooo many people here, I'll meet some random person at school/work and find out I'm related through them somehow. Bah.

OH which reminds me. A bit stale news but how bout the whole "controversy" about that blogger who dissed UBD eh? I got a bit insulted (how can I not, I'm a UBD student la) but there is a grain of truth in her grammatically-wrong sentences. Tapi kan. No need to be so negative lar. And don't sound like you're too damn good for UBD. I have my own complaints about UBD, but I guess progress is there, no matter how slow.

And my only (lame) defence is, you want to study overseas but your English like crap lah. I don't remember what she said, but I remember one of her first sentences: "I want to continue my study in UK" My yeecky-grammar alarm went off. After that I don't wanna really read the whole thing. Oh yeah I was doing my work at FBEPS-FASS the other day and some students were talking about it, and they were saying how the now-infamous blogger wanted to take Psychology but UBD doesn't offer it, and I eavesdropped heard them say:

"Oh I know why she wanna take Psychology bah, ia mental"

HAHHAHAHAHA so funny k. I was trying so hard to not look like I was kaypoh-ing. Haha.

Alritey, I'm off. Going up Bandar later.

xoxo bella

Sudden Weird Obsession

Weh I suddenly find Omarion uber hot yo. As I said to Ryan, "I find him hot in that need-to-take-a-cold-shower hot..." to which he just replied uncomfortably, "Okay..."

Huahahahha! Hot wah his body. Omarion, not Ryan. But don't worry Ryan, months of Body Pump will get you closer :D then maybe you can call yourself Oma-ryan heh-heh-heh

Also he's such a yummy dancer. Please watch You Got Served to know what I mean. I watched it a few days ago. Sucky storyline but his moves... So hot. Oh gawd...

brb

*splash cold water on face*

hahah jk. A bit. =P

I'm trying to find a picture of him shirtless...

Why, hellooooo there.... *pervy smile*

So cool in white :D

Marques Houston (also in You Got Served) and Omarionnnnn

omg! I know why I find him so hotttt! Just look at this here pic ^

Wawawawawa

xoxo bella

ps: I am not a pervert :(

=(

I'm so tired... I literally feel like I'm gonna keel over from exhaustion right now.

Am attempting Company Accounting tutorial question for the second time. It's the one I couldn't comprehend at all last week. And I heard other people who's doing the same question hadn't been able to do it either. Which proves I'm not totally stupid! :D

Anyhoo, I'm meeting Masairol tomorrow at 11 so we can discuss (or rather he can tell me) how to do the damn thing.

Headache... Can't think. Can't wait for holiday this saturday.

xoxo bella

Time

Feel up to a long post today? Yeah, me too.

It's approaching March; has 2008 been kind to you so far?

I honestly cannot believe how fast time flies. I've only realised the other day that I'm halfway through my second year at UBD and I only have about 2+ years to go before graduating (overconfidence? *knock wood*).

I am now listening to Kanye West's Stronger.

This song throws me in this weird mix of depression and euphoria for reasons I can't explain. It reminds me of 2007. Of times that has passed. Moments I won't experience again. (If you haven't guessed, I'm in a brooding mood now.)

I'm feeling jaded. J-j-jadeeeed~

No seriously. Lately I feel like I'm constantly having something to do. It feels a lot like being swept away by a current but trying hard to stay afloat. Yeah, it feels like that.

I don't know if it's a good thing or not. Sure, I'm not bored but I have so little "me" time.

Honestly speaking, it kills me to know that the world does not revolve around me. No I'm serious! And if you were honest, you would admit that you feel the same way.

I know my thoughts seem very haphazard right now, but hey you guys know how random I am. =)

If only...

Those words, those painful painful words. I think they pretty much sum up all my regrets about things I've done, or chances I wish I'd taken, and all those words I wish I'd said, and all those words I wish I hadn't.

Ok I don't think I'm up for a long post anymore. Will blog when my mind is not a mess.

Anyway. I love you guys. <3

xoxo bella

ps: I can't stand stupidity. I'm just saying.

I Feel Old

What sucks about being surrounded by kids all the time like I am when at work, is that I feel so envious of how much they still have to experience.

Sure I'm just 20 years old, about to turn 21 this September (ahem mesti awal remind k =P ), but I feel so goddamned old...

Also, those silly kids... keep calling me "auntie"... I AM NOT YOUR AUNTIE K, CALL ME KAKAK OR JIEJIE DON'T CALL ME AUNTIE WAAAAAA. Oh and yesterday I died a little inside when a Form 5 boy called me "cher"... FORM 5 OKEH?! I was in Form 5 like 5 years ago only and he thinks I'm a teacher. Eh apa kan *checks mirror for wrinkles* oh and I was a bit rude to him because he looked eeriely like my ex. LOL.

Oh and Happy Valentine's Day to all. Even though it'll be like any ordinary day to me *bitter* hahah

I'm feeling very overwhelmed by workload and trying to juggle work and school and trying to make time for myself and also for gym.... It's so far not going too well... I feel tired all the time. And I've got a presentation later which I'm totally not prepared for... Anyway, yeah... I'm feeling down..

xoxo bella

ps: I'm cramping everywhere. Body pump + possible menstrual cramps = inability to function. Also feels like my wisdom tooth's acting up again. Note: kill self.

EDIT:: YAY I managed to get my presentation postponed since I had no idea how to do it. Why I kena the most difficult question ha? Anyhoo, even if I did want to present today I would still have to present next week because not enough time just now hoho. AND MUCH LOVE TO TZEN FOR VALENTINE CHOCOLATES! Love ya babe! <33 I also love the A-plus management for giving me angpow. Mucho dinero! ^^

I See Lions

Heya people! Today's the last day of my CNY holiday before having to go up Bandar again and face the mountain of work (exaggerration) that I have to get done by this week. SIGH-NESS!

Anyhoooo, today I went to my Aunt's shop because there was gonna be a liondance there (I dunno why we bothered because I know I've seen it SOOOOOO many times already in the past few days.. Bleh. Oh well anyway I stupidly forgot to bring my phone so I had to use my sister's laggy plus not so clear dia punya camera phone. Plus, those lions move fast yo. Most of the pictures I snapped were a big yellow blur. Anyway, here are the lucky three that made the cut. Yes, only THREE:

Oh dear lion prancing around. I must find out what this whole ritual means actually.

Yes it is the lion's back. Haiya what do you expect it was in my face so by reflex I snapped a picture :S This was right after he was shoving his head in my face I had to press my back against the wall XD
Eh, my sister this take photo. It was supposed to be a group photo with my uncle, aunt and my cousins but you see the top kena potong. And yea you know what, I always find the joker guy with the fan very annoying. I know he's supposed to be mischievous and all that but I always have to urge to slap the fella. This one kept fanning us with his fan.

Anyway I told my dad this and he went off on a tangent telling me about this elderly guy who used to be this particular troupe's joker guy (this new one was a kid I think). Apparently, the elderly guy was really good at the whole act but he passed away. And apparently they only found out that he was dead after like three days when they found his body in his house. Isn't that sad?

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Ok I blog bout something happy k?

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Yo Sheena, this is dedicated to you XD


One day Doraemon was walking down the street. He then bumped into Hello Kitty so he greeted her. He said "Hello, Hello Kitty!" But Hello Kitty did not answer. Why?

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Because Hello Kitty has no mouth! So she couldn't reply!

(pause for possible laughter)

Anyway, so when Hello Kitty went home she got someone to record "Hello Doraemon!" on tape. So next day she was walking down the street and then she saw Doraemon. So she took out the tape recorder and played the recording. But Doraemon did not reply. Why?

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Because Doraemon has no ears!!! So he couldn't hear!!!!!!!

HHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Ok some of you might find it lame, but it's funny! I first heard the joke from Sheensies. LOL

xoxo bella

Closure

... I think maybe I've finally gotten it.

I scare myself with my stalking abilities, but I finally feel at peace with myself. No longer will the incident haunt me, no longer will I wonder whether I dreamt it all, now I know that it was real, and it happened and now I can move on.

So yeah. But seriously, I scare myself with my tracking abilities. I think maybe I was an investigator in my past life, if I did have one...

Anyway... now I'm feeling a bit dazed.

xoxo bella

ps: Should I skip tomorrow's classes? Or should I drive up for a ONE HOUR class and two other TWO HOUR lectures which I mos'def (haha) will not be paying attention to...? Hmmm... I think I'm PROBABLY skipping. Sorry Tzen, I know I said I'm going if you're going but seeing as I am still awake at 1 am with no intention of going to sleep soon (as I am watching PB Season 3).... =)

Home!

Heya guys! I am finally home after being up in Bandar for weeks (exaggerrating). Drove home and almost got killed on the way (maniac driver weaving in and out of the lane at what I can only presume to be the speed of sound). Also, I am guessing that Wednesday is catch-them-speeding-bastards-day cause I almost got caught in a speed trap AGAIN (last Wednesday also).

Moral of the story: Watch out for suspicious lump hiding behind camera Don't speed.

Hey speaking of which, do you think one of their own ever got caught speeding? Probably not eh? They probably warn them over the walkie talkie or something.

"Speed trap at so-and-so, hypocrite coppers slow down"

LOL

Anyway I am STUFFED! Dinner was a magnificently fattening but delicious affair. Plus my sister brought back Bakerlyn donuts. Rawr! I got out of dish duty because I helped prepare dinner. And when they protested, I threatened, "YOU WANNA SMELL MY GARLICKY FINGERS!?" I really hate that garlic stink sticks to your fingers till the next day. I suspect it's why my mum gets me to chop them up every year -__-"

Leading up to the point of the post...

GONG XI FA CAI!!!

Hope this year will be lucky and prosperous one. Prosperity burger! bwahahahha

xoxo bella

ps: lamiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Randomly Speaking

I've been having trouble getting out of bed.

My swollen gums are no longer swollen.

I think that if I were to be an
addict, I would probably be addicted to prescription drugs, because painkillers are my best friends.

I have a pair of pretty BLACK shoes, an ORANGE dress and a BROWN top for CNY. No reds. =s (but I do have a red bra =)

I don't know what I want.

I need to work hard this semester, so far I haven't slacked too much. Which is great. Must not get caught up in life.

I daydream a lot. I think Libras are daydreamers. We probably like to think about the what-ifs and the impossible.

I am addicted to the xoxo's.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo bella

ps: I am so random. ^^