Inspired (not so much)

I think it's pretty much noticeable that I'm blogging a lot less now.

I NEED INSPIRATION! (or something interesting to happen :S)

Today I skipped my FM lecture and tutorial :S I just couldn't do it! I haven't been sleeping well and I've been waking up at 6.30ish all the time for some reason!!

What is up with the rain lately?

It's been raining alll the time! I imagine the sky is quite dehydrated now! Must be some typhoon going on someplace (my sister says HK)

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I'm not even inspired to rant randomly :S

I'm out! I'm all OUT!

Connection here sucks. I'm at home by the way :D

I want the holiday to be on MONDAY! MONDAY I SAY! Please let there be a moon :(

lol.

I don't wanna go back up bandar tomorrow :(

I don't know what to do tomorrow.

Random random random.

Rant rant rant.

Ok I think this has gone far enough. BORING POST. I hate writer's block. Or should I say blogger's block!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAH that cracks me up somehow :D

bye bye bye! (bye bye, don't wanna be a fool for you, just another player in your game for two, I miss the nineties! LOL)

xoxo bella

:D

Presented topless, for your pleasure :D

photo courtesy of ronni marlipono

xoxo bella

ps: I just thought I should blog to move the depressing post from the top of the page :D

Desperation

... will make you want to believe anything.

Do you know what I mean?

When you're so desperate to have this perfect life, you are willing to blind yourself to people, or make up lies so you don't have to face the truth.

He's only acting that way because he cares.

I'm pretty sure there's someone out there who's in love with me.

I am not a bad person.

He feels the same way.

Do you know what I mean?

But when you just can't lie to yourself anymore, when that illusion shatters, you just see this nothing of a life stretched out before you. Because you're so intent on blinding yourself, you have made pretty much a mess of your life in reality.

It also suddenly hit me how underachieving I really am. (Is there such a term as underachieving?)

My name is synonymous with no particular achievement.

It feels like everyone has moved on with their lives, and I am left behind.

I know this is an emo post. Hehe, sorry. :)

xoxo bella

Break!

I need a break from this thing. AGAIN I procrastinated. GAWD WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? :( So much for new resolutions, I'm hopeless. Anyhoos.

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1. what time is it?
- 1.28am

2. what are you listening to?
- Just the little clicks and clacks that goes on around the house.

3. what are you wearing?
- a white t-shirt and cat boxers!

4. is your hair up or down?
- up. where it does the least damage.

5.are you an innie or outie?
- innie :)

6. are you shy?
- errr depends on the circumstances I guess. Usually no?

7. what do you say when you being introduced to someone?
- Hi/hey/hello!

8. where are you right now?
- in the living room

9. name a bad habit that annoys people?
- a tie between my inability to stop whining and correcting people's grammar.

10. first thing you said this morning?
- nooooooooooo (because I didn't want to get up)

11. is it hot or cold?
- it's cool.

12. are you ticklish?
- yes, at my neck.

13.are your lips kissable?
- er.

14. hottest celebrity?
- guy: I can't decide. (You were expecting me to say Jake weren't you? lol.)
girl: OH!! Megan Fox. oh my she is a hottie.

15. name 3 songs that you currently love.
Elevator - T-Pain ft. Timbaland
Bella Luna - Jason Mraz
Clockwatching - Jason Mraz

(I know the last two are old, but I'm loving them again!)

16. what do you wear when you sleep?
- clothes.

17. do you like to cuddle?
- :( who doesn't?? I have no one to cuddle with!!

18. last time you cried?
- errr sometime last week I think.

19. reason behind it?
- I was upset :P

20. do you have any posters on your bedroom walls?
- No. Hellooo? I'm 21. OH I have this poster of my name, but it's not hung up on any wall.

21. phobias?
- Ending up alone

22. hot or cold weather?
- COLD!!!!!

23. something bothering you right now?
- "something". hah.

24. something you're excited for?
- Hangouts with the girlies

25. do you have an even tan?
- NO! :( My arms are a bit more tanned than the rest.

26. where were you at 3pm?
- Here. There. Nowhere!!

27. last time you laughed?
- earlier.

28. what shoes did you wear today?
- flip flops. comfy!

29. a compliment you received today?
- "no you don't sound like a man" not exactly a compliment but I'll take what I can get

30. adriana lima or angelina jolie?
- Adriana Lima

31. brad pitt or jay z?
- Brad Pitt

32. youtube or metacafe?
- Youtube

33. are you easily amused?
- hehehehehe this question amuses me, does that mean I am easily amused?

34.choose a same-sex celebrity to make out with for $5,000
- Refer hottest celebrity.

35. who did you last kiss?
- oh man.

36. mood?
- a bit tired and cranky.

37. who did you hug last
- my sister.

38. do you like your smile?
- I do! :D

39. did you enjoy this survey?
- cheh, it's just a distraction.

40. what are you listening to now?
- still the same silence.

41. what time is it?
1.39am

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Screw it, I'm going to sleep. I'll wake up early to finish everything off.

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

Today is (technically) Iain's birthday!!!!

Happy Birthday Iain!!!!!

Green. You know why :)

And I say technically because in the UK it is still 22nd August.

So happy bruneian birthday!!

So some of you may wonder who on earth this Iain is. Or maybe you do know because he magically appeared on this blog around 5 months ago. HEHE. Iain is my MSN BFF, my poke buddy, my fellow stalker (and stalkee), and he is a pervert! :D

lol, just kidding Iain's a sweetiepie!

So have a hyper hippy happy huggable birthday Iain, and I hope you enjoy your special day. You deserve to have a really great one because you are one of the nicest, kindest, most tolerant (to me at least :P) person I've ever known. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise!!!

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

:D

xoxo bella

WARGHH

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I have never been so bored :(

And I keep forgetting what I wanna blog about, I know there's a bunch of stuff in my head somewhere.

Speaking of forgetting, I'm getting more and more forgetful, it's a little scary. :S

I keep leaving stuff around, like I left my textbook at the office, and then I lost my trusty pencil, and I always forget where I parked my car :S

I know it's in Parking Lot B, I just can't remember where. hehehehe thank goodness my car is pretty easily noticeable :D

Also bellatitis is making a comeback VIS!! I typo so much these dayssssss!!

Am I getting old or something? LOL

LALALA

I'm still lazy :P I'm not working hard enough in uni it seems. But so far I have not skipped yet. Though it's not like I pay attention though, I just chit chat with Tzen and bother Mike who actually tries to pay attention HAHA >:D

MEHHHH imma be a couch potato and watch Desperate Housewives. :(

xoxo bored bella

A Beautiful Farewell

I heard this on Desperate Housewives and thought it was beautiful. Unsure of who really penned this poem, but this is the one closest to what I heard on the show:

Do not stand at my grave - and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep...

I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond - glints on snow...
I am the sunlight on the ripened grain-
I am the gentle Autumn's rain.

When you awaken in the morning hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft starlight of night.

Do not stand at my grave - and weep
I am NOT there; I do not sleep...
I am awake, and guiding through the Night -
Towards a gentle gleam of Light

Do not stand at my grave and weep -
I am not there; I do not sleep...

-Karin Aleida Vorrink

xoxo bella

BORED!: The Seventh

Hola, I had such a lazy day today.

Barely moved. And did not touch my books!! :S I was planning to revise but arghh too lazyyy

I'm bored..................

We're feeding a stray kitten atm, it's been starving, and going blind in one eye :(

Vicki and I are NOT cat lovers, but we couldn't help but get sad looking at it!! It'll meow and meow pitifully and look up at you with one of its eyes glued shut *heart shatters*

LOL

but yeah, we're both allergic to cat hair so we can't really take care of it properly, but at least we're feeding it. It's so tiny and cute!!!!

SPEAKING OF CUTE!!

WEEHHH!!! so cute!!

This movie is SOOO adorable, I love it!!! 8/10 :)

The storyline is quite unique, and it got cheesy in some parts, but you can't help but go AWWWWWWW!!!!! Plus it's funny! :)

I really recommend it, especially to you girls who are suckers for sweet stories :)

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A Guide To Hugs!

Hugs are an important expression of affection. By hugging someone, you remind them that you care about them and support them.

Steps

1. Approach the person. Depending on the person's relationship to you, you might want to approach differently:
   
   • Family Hug: Approach kindly, but not too emotionally.
     
   • Friend Hug (girls): Approach caringly, sometimes humorously, and smile.
     
   • Friend Hug (guys): Approach quickly, usually not looking them in the eye.
     
   • Crush Hug: Approach carefully, but do not seem shy. Smile slightly and perhaps say a caring word or two.
     
   • Lover Hug: It doesn't matter who starts this; either can make it just as romantic. When approaching, put your hands on their shoulders and look them in the eyes. Say you love them, how much you care for them, and how much you are loving every second with them. Then fall into each other and hug with all your heart.
     
   
   
2. Embrace. Lean forward and wrap your arms around the person.
   
   • Family Hug: You can keep talking when hugging; it will not ruin the momentum. Where you place your hands is not important; the hugged won't think it over too much. Press gently; it is not necessary to have head-contact. Stroke your hands quickly across the top of the hugged's back. Smile when letting go.
     
   • Friend Hug (girls): Close your eyes and think about how much you love your friend when hugging. Press as much as you feel like. (But don't squish!) Do not clap the hugged on the shoulders or such; it's too masculine and some girls think you don't like them if you do it the guys' way.
     
   • Friend Hug (guys): Embrace strongly, and clap each other on the top of your backs. If it's an emotional moment, keep in the hugged position for a brief moment and do not clap each other's backs.
     
   • Crush Hug: Press the hugged warmly towards you. If you are a man, remember that it is more masculine and more protective to fold your arms under hers. Her arms should be around your neck, and you should be embracing her around the waist. When pressing her against you, you can lift her up a bit, pressing her chest and upper stomach against yours. Keep it in that position for a while, and then let go. Look her in the eyes when you separate and continue the conversation naturally.
     
   • Lover Hug: 1) Males: Carefully sliding your hands down from her shoulders, put them on her waist and slide them around her lower back. Put your head on her shoulder and press her towards you for as long as you like. If you want to, you can give her a small massage with your hands, and try to warm her. When separating, you can look into her eyes, smile genuinely and, if the situation is fitting, kiss her. 2) Females: Extend your arms toward him and hold them around his neck and shoulders. Lean as close as possible and press your torso against his. In situations of extreme intimacy, interlocking your leg in his is appropriate. Avoid holding your arms below his shoulders and/or embracing strongly and tensely.
     
   
   
3. Don't hug too tightly. The best way to judge how tight or loose to hug is to let whomever your hugging tell you by how hard they squeeze. If they are soft, be soft back; if they like bear hugs and squeeze tightly, do the exact same back (but don't suffocate him/her).
   
4. Don't let go too early. A hug is a powerful way to communicate your caring for another person, as it can feel great and greatly improve one's mood. If someone hugs you, they may want a long, loving hug (maybe they are upset or down), so just go along with it and hug them until they let go or loosen their hold.
   

Tips

• Be welcoming when you hug. If either of you requested the hug, then be warm and loving and just make it feel like the person you're hugging is safe from anything else and that you and whoever are the only people that matter at the moment.
  
• Make sure you're clean and showered.
  

Warnings

• Do not confuse a lover hug with a friend hug. Things might get complicated and awkward.
  
• Unless you've hugged the person before, don't hug them without asking first. In addition, use your best judgment in choosing when and where to hug someone. There are certain situations where one might be embarrassed to be seen hugging someone else.
  
• Hug only when the person you want to hug has their arms out, they may not want to be hugged if their arms aren't out.

[source]

And on another related issue (I find it hilarious):

How To Hug A Tree

1. Find yourself a quiet park, forest, or woodland area.
2. Walk among the trees until you feel comfortable in their presence.
3. Feel the different bark textures with the palms of your hands.
4. Smell the scent of the various woods.
5. Absorb their life's energies as you look upwards to the sprawling branches overhead.
6. Find the perfect tree that fits your mood. You will know which one is right for you.
7. Vertical Tree Hug: Encircle it with your arms while gently pressing your cheek to the trunk being careful not to scratch your face. Squeeze tightly. Sigh deeply. Be one with your tree.
8. Full Body Tree Hug: Sit upon the ground wrapping your legs around the base of the tree and at the same time embracing it with your arms.
9. Up in the Air Tree Hug: Climb a tree. Sit upon a strong limb and straddle it with your legs. Bend forward and place your belly against it while wrapping your arms about it.

Tips:

1. Feel free to hug more than one tree if the mood strikes. Besides, other trees might get jealous.
2. You may like to take home a fallen leaf or nut as a keepsake from your new friend.
3. Be sure to return each season to visit your tree. And don't be afraid to talk to it as trees are good listeners.

[source]

Yes I've gotten lazy. I don't rant anymore. :D

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

HOLLAAAA! *major celebration*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TZEN!!!

love ya loads babe!!

fun times!!

Let's see I met Tzen a little over two years ago in State & Society (YUCK). She asked me for my notes, I lent them to her, and we've been inseparable ever since... LOL

It sounds stupid, but that is the truth though. :D

We had the same classes, we stayed in the same hostel block, and we basically hung out all the time.

Once, Tzen and I were heading towards our class, but I hung back a little because I was too lazy to walk fast. And Yani caught up with me and asked in a hushed voice, "What happened?" And I was like "what???" Yani: "How come you're not walking together? Did you guys argue?" And I laugheddddddddddddddd!!

I think that was when it dawned on us that we're strongly associated with each other. hahahahah

And how bout that time, that only time when we got into a real argument? And the subject of the argument was SO STUPID!!

MIB!

We had just finished an MIB lecture at Chancellor Hall, and had just fixed our hair and everything after taking off our tudungs. Coming out of the toilet....

T: Hey you've got something stuck to your kain
B: Oh? *looks down* Oh it's a sweet wrapper.

*brushes off wrapper*

Then I started to walk.

T: You're just gonna leave it there? *incredulous voice*
B: What? It's not my wrapper.
T: Yeah, but you're littering.
B: So??
T: So unethical!!

And I swear, the look on her face when she said that, like this look of disgust and disdain, really ticked me off.

B: SO? Do I look like I give a f***? It's just one tiny wrapper! I don't f***ing care!

(Yes I know my language, but I was really pissed off :P)

And at this point we were just screeching at each other. Then we fumed in silence all the way to Tzen's car (we had made plans to go eat after the lecture so we just automatically headed towards the car)

Silence.

Drove out of parking lot.

Silence.

Drove past entrance to UBD.

Silence.

Highway.

Tzen started to laugh, and I looked at her with a WTF look on my face.

T: Can you believe that we got pissed off at each other over a SWEET WRAPPER?

HAHAHA that pretty much broke the tension and I don't think we got into any other stupid arguments such as those :S But such a funny story!! :D

MBargooooooo!

Anyhoos, I've went off topic but yes that is basically some of the funny times during out friendship.

Tzen is probably the first (and possibly only) person that I've met that has the same violent mood swings as I do. Tis scary! We even have a psychic mood link! Our moods can be synchronised, or influenced easily by the other's. I dunno.We're weird people :P

Anyway Tzennypoooooo Happy 21st Birthday, though your mind is waaayyyyy advanced beyond your years :P *whispers* Tzen's mind is a dark and scary place.

HAHAHAHHA I just realised whatever I've said in this post is not necessarily nice. :S

Ok I'm editing this if Tzen doesn't like the content :P

Everyone say Happy Birthday to Tzen, or GET OUT!

love love.

xoxo bella

Muy Loca

I krazy!! It's 12.12am and I still have not finished my taxation assignment.

PROCRASTINATION SUX! Also my sister just HAD to put on Desperate Housewives, and I can't tear my eyes away from it :(

I'm beginning to panic yo. I hope I won't get called on tomorrow and crap, did I just jinx myself by writing that down

I dunno. I just have this thing like if I screw up this tutorial, THE FIRST TUTORIAL, I'm pretty much screwing up the whole semester. I'm also terrified of the lecturer a bit. I don't think I take criticism very well and he seems very critical/mean. :(

I'm so stressed, I'm chugging chocolate milk like no tomorrow HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA chocoholicccc

No booze bah eh. :P

Anyhoos, I have a journal article to summarise, and bulls**t to come up with :D

I have some little anecdotes of my niece to share but I'm thinking I should finish my assignment first.

toodle-a-loo!

xoxo bella

Journals Suck

HATE HATE HATE scouring through journal articles :(

And I hate emerald. Actually no, scratch that. Emerald is good.

Why do I feel like there are so many things to do? Why did I schedule three tutorials on the same day? GAH! *bangs head against the wall*

I hate taxation. I changed my mind. I don't want to migrate, I wanna stay in tax-free Brunei. LOL

I think I'm stressing myself out unnecessarily. I'm having trouble sleeping because I'm constantly worrying.

My sister flew off to Korea yesterday. This is one thing I malas wanna talk about. Only that the silly girl actually cried when we sent her off. I, heartless as I am, pointed at her and laughed. Ten days lah, not ten years! lol.


tax tax tax tax tax tax tax semua pun ada tax

Ok, I go now

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

Oh dearie me, lookie at the date 14th August!!

Happy Birthday Elvis!!

HAHAHAHAH this picture cracks me up.

Hope your knee feels better, stop showing off.

:D

Ciao bello!

xoxo bella

Mumble Mumble

Blogging because I've been slacking off apparently :S

I've been feeling muchos frustrated over everything in my life. School-wise, me-wise, love-wise.

PAH! Why can't life be like The Sims? So easy to find a job, and if you ever get lonely someone will create a mate just for you. Also you increase your skills just by doing stuff like attempting to paint, or reading... Man, from all the reading I've done I would be a total genius in The Sims. har har.

Ok went off on a tangent over there.

Having a slooooooooooooooooow msn convo with Elvis because he's online through mobile. And we all know how that service sucks.

I'm sorry but I'm not the sort to say out loud how I really feel. Putting myself out there, it bugs me. Plus the risk of losing someone so special to me is just too damned scary. I kid myself that I'm being practical by doing this, but I'm actually quite scared.

So far had two meltdowns. Meltdown one with Tzen in the car. Meltdown two chatting with Scott and Fairuz.

I give up easily. I'm a quitter! If I weren't puhlease I would NOT be feeling stuck in life right now.

Oh there's this mysterious smell in the house that I've yet to get rid of. So I'm gonna go ahead and try to solve that mystery.

Toodles!

xoxo bella

Infuriating!!

National pride at an all time low today. Definitely in the negative range. :( You probably know why.

Of course going to The Mall and witnessing some stupid kids doing some kinda dance-off which resembled seizure attacks did not help. DUMBASS PUNKS YOU SHOULD STOP WASTING YOUR TIME AND GO STUDY DAMMIT

My sister and I wanna cari some angmohs to kahwin :P

Anyhoos.

My family came up to Bandar today. As usual, we got into arguments and heated debates. Well at one point my dad was getting all worked up over some random thing and we were listening (well I was tuning out) and he was like saying how some relative was talking big and said, "I was nodding along, but in my heart I was like yeah right!!!" The thing was when he was saying "in my heart" he reached up and tapped his temples.

That made me burst into giggles!! We kept going, "so how do you feel in your heart daddy?" while tapping our heads. LOL

And people keep spitting on me today!!

I was on Facebook playing Text Twirl and my sister and mum were watching and they kept shouting random words to help me (and they weren't much help most of the time! They kept giving me either nonsensical words or words I've already gotten) and both my mum and sister got too excited and splattered me. SAY IT DON'T SPRAY IT!! :P My dad said they're just trying to "bless" me with good luck, lol.

Ok lectures officially start tomorrow. ROAR.

I am broke. :(

xoxo bella

ps: why so many foreigners in the mall today?? American from what I heard. But doesn't look like soldiers/sailors.

your careful words both reassure and discourage.

There's No Point

...to this post :P

I'm just bored. Fell asleep earlier after dinner due to tiredness (from the heat, also did not get enough sleep the night before :P)

Got up around 11pm.

And heeeeeeerreee I am. LALALA

I'm constantly waiting to be inspired.

OH OH OH!!!

It is now 08/08/08 :D

BEIJING OLYMPICS OPENING CEREMONY!! (which I will not be able to watch on account of having to freaking work. WHOOPEE! T.T)

frick, why is it that whenever I'm online NO ONE SEEMS TO BE! WAH!! (maybe because it's 1.30am girl.)

I argue BUT IT IS FRIDAY TOMORRAH! Sleep in! :P

hahahaha I'm boooooorrreeeeddddddddd :P

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I like things done a certain way sometimes. A bit neurotic methinks. I realised this when in the shower. I always have a routine! I'll always start with my hair, then work my way down. (I'm trying not to be too descriptive here, hehe)

Hmm, hold on.

The True Neurotic
You scored 57 anxiety, 67 awkwardness, and 61 neuroticism!

Congratulations, you are The True Neurotic, you nail-biting, conflict-avoiding worrier, you. You're plagued by self-doubt and anxiety, which makes social activity hard--even though you may be well-liked, you feel under a storm of silent criticism. It doesn't help that people give you funny looks for organizing all your pens by color or sharpening your gnawed pencils to a delicate point.


Your high anxiety score implies that you are unable to relax, worry about the future often, and probably are plagued by irrational fears and self-doubt.

Your high awkwardness score implies that you are socially inept, probably stick out from the crowd, and feel uncomfortable in large groups of people, such as at parties.

Your high neuroticism score implies that you exhibit neurotic behaviors--probably organization, fanatic obsessions (can you recite the entire first LOTR movie?), repetitive mantras, constant checking, or orderly rituals

Really??? I don't think I'm that bad. Though I think I am a worrier. And self-doubt, definitely!! I'm seriously worrying about how I'll do this semester!! I don't trust myself, honest!

I get anxious at the thought of being outside of my comfort zone. If it's something that I've never done before I usually get nervous and worry that somehow I'll do it wrong. Though NO I can't recite the entire first LOTR movie. I can't remember a specific line even! harharhar, but yeah, I do get obsessive :P

Oh yes I HATE CONFLICTS!!! But I've always thought that was just the Libra in me.

WAH!! :S

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It is much too quiet. I shall put on something on to watch. HAHAHAHAHAHA OMG. RYAN! I'm still laughing about what you commented on Lina's photo. Frick that is some funny stuff.

Am I just fooling myself?
To want something, that I can't have. To have something, that I don't want.

Okay, somehow between beginning this post and ending it, I managed to depress myself. :(


xoxo bella

A Kiss Is Not A Kiss

without your sigh.

I like Casablanca! Although I have never watched the film, but I do love that song. There's a sad quality and it also brings back memories of laser discs and my dad singing. The reason why I know a lot of oldies is because I grew up hearing my dad sing them on karaoke! :P

In case you don't know what song I'm talking about:



Need more sleep.

xoxo bella

Bwahahaha

Heat makes me random, and I am hot. (Panas bah eh, :D)

Holllaaaa I did not have Spanish today and here is a list of what I wasted by going to uni:

1. Sleep!
2. My shower (which went to waste once I stepped out of my car)
   
3. Tissues (wiping up sweat)
4. My energy (You think walking from Point A to Point B ain't exhausting yo?)
5. Water (I drink to combat the heat, and my shower was a waste and I sweat everything out)
6. The soles of my slippers (The hot hot hot bitumen ain't good for the soles of me slippers, hahaha antam)
7. My baju that I have to wash because I sweat, and hence water and Breeze powder and also fabric softener
8. Fuel! Hell yes my fuel because I rushed to school and thus I sped.
9. Panadol that I am going to take because the heat gave me another headache.
   

Bah, I think that's all. In hindsight, it was all my fault for not checking Dr Paolo's office. Anyway I got to hang out with Sheena, Grace and some of the boys so 'twas not all wasted :)

I feel very zexy now because I stripped once I got home. LOL just kidding I'm still wearing the tube I wore under my top. Why did I wear a long-sleeved shirt plus a tube underneath in this weather? Because the top low-cut and also aku paloi for not thinking, I just grabbed the first thing on top of the pile of clothes lalala

Ok, I am still sort of moody, but now in happyish mood. I want a sundae but the traffic is crazy so maybe later.

It's tiiimeee to bum around now.

xoxo bella

Hell No!

DAMMIT I'm feeling so friendless. :(

Oh I need a life. Am I forever doomed to be stuck in this explosion of stink that is my suckfest of life? I like my words!

Yes oh yes I am feeling angsty/emo/depressed now, the fire that was my rage earlier has finally fizzled out, and for some inexplicable reason I feel unliked! And I'm not liking myself either at the moment.

..... and I'm remembering what my previous post was like so I can't say that I'd blame anyone for that HAHAHA!!!

Could it be that my period that is almost A MONTH LATE has finally decided to make an appearance? I've been stuck in permanent pms limbo for ages, or maybe I am just being unpleasant for no reason NO! Hell no! I wanna be nice!

I swore that I wouldn't write about my menstrual cycle but I can't help it!! :S

Ack, time to fulfil my duties as an unpaid chauffeur, sigh. Life is boring.

xoxo bella

Gah

CRANKY! I'm so cranky!!!!!!

Hello people today I am a very angry Bella.

If I was a bitch to you today then...

Actually I'm not gonna apologise if I was. Because it wasn't an unreasonable bitchiness, only little nuisances seem to really set me off today, so HAHA serves you right for being a nuisance :D

Also you can blame the heat. And the fact that the stupid frickin airconditioning wasn't working. If I knew I wouldn't even have bothered taking a shower.

Headache now because it's so hot.

I don't know what to do now. I hate the fact that my timetable's like one lecture per day, WTF I feel so unproductive, and it depresses me to come home. I'd rather just have something to keep me busy all day.

I started this semester with NO expectations of a perfect timetable or a great lecturer. I think I'm used to having sucky timetables so I don't really bloody care when or what time my tutorial is. Whoopee if I get a good slot, whatever if I don't. Company Taxation doesn't seem easy, and wtf, did he say that he rarely gives B's, much less A's? Die lah, definitely cannot slack anymore. I'm actually worrying already. But I guess it's better than being all lackadaisical like I usually am. Though I might turn out that way later in the semester, but I've commisioned Mike Lee to give me a slap if I ever start getting lazy. So yay! HAHAHA

I'm rambling but I don't care :)

Spanish tomorrow, I'll get to see Dr Paolo again! YAY YAY YAY! Spanish is like a de-stress class for me! The only thing I actually feel motivated to do well in :D Not sure if Tzen is taking it this sem, she's all maxed out on units and I have no idea if the other people from last sem is still continuing but oh well. I'm in Intermediate Spanish, yo! But ask me to say something in Español and you'll see me opening and closing my mouth like a fish out of water lol. Oh well! Viva España! Random.

Oh right, I forgot to draw out a timetable thingy for my notebook har har. Ok I'll guess I'll do that now, and take a nap after that lalalala I didn't sleep well last night. HEHE, just like old times :)

bye bye you who bothered reading this!

xoxo bella

ps: I can't stand stupid smart people.

edit: Oh I forgot to say. Funny wah this Mike. The Taxation man was like saying,"I've got good news and bad news. Good news is, you are back. The bad news..." and Mike scribbled in his notepad and showed me: "Bad news is perut ku besar" LOL that made me laugh, it was so randomly mean! hehe.

Birthdayyyyy

It is officially the birthday of my very very special friend: FAIRUZ!!! LOVE LOVE YOU LOADS!

Happy Birthday Fairuz!

Babe, I so can't wait for you to come home! :)

I MISS YOU, FAIRUZETA
you gorgeous gorgeous piece of ass :D

LAWA KAN! HAHAH stolen from her facebook! shhhhhh :P

I've been friends with Fairuz for yearssssss now, almost a decade! We (Rinni, Lina, Fairuz, Amee and I) are BFF's! I love my friends :D

Centralised post because Fairuz is the centre of my life

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Ciao bella!!!!!!!! (I learnt this from Fairuz :P)

Ok that is all. So basically what you learnt from today's post:

1) It is Fairuz's birthday
2) I miss Fairuz
3) I love Fairuz
4) We are getting married LOL
5) I don't know what the point of this was.

xoxo bella

The Most Annoying Thing!

Construction going on in my area and it's so bloody noisy!!! It sounds like it's right outside my bedroom window and it also sounds a lot like some big machine picking up trucks and throwing them around, so damned annoying! It's impossible tosleep through all the racket :(

So yeah, I'm all good now, not so sick anymore :) Not totally well though, I have the sniffles and my nostrils are still clogged :P

I think it's the sick season or something. I either got my cold from my colleagues or from getting caught in the rain the other night. Anyhoos, my boss got sick as well :S Whoopsie daisy!!

So it's the end of the holidays! Nooooooo/Yayyyyy!! (Mixed emotions) lol. I can't wait to see everyone again but I'm scared of how this semester will turn out...

I'm reading The Lollipop Shoes by Joanne Harris. :)

My summer reads:
1) The Book Thief by Markus Zusak (most recommended!)
2) Crimes, Crooks & Corruption (interesting and disturbing read. I enjoyed reading about the murders the most heheheh)
3) The Good Guy by Dean Koontz (very meh!! anti climax much?)
4) Return To The Summerhouse by Jude Deveraux (not as good as its predecessor, but better than the Dean Koontz)
5) Chasing Harry Winston by Lauren Weisberger (also quite mehh)
6) A Quiet Belief In Angels by R.J. Ellory (depressing much???? it was a bit too dramatic for my tastes. it's hard to believe that THAT many bad things would happen to one person. also it's very sick/disturbing.)

Best so far: The Book Thief :)

I miss reading. There was a point in my life where I read everyday, though I think that was because I was depressed and the books allowed me to escape to a different place for a while... :)

but still, I love reading.

Ok back to MSN!!!

xoxo bella

Harry Potpot!

Sixth movie out 21 November!



I wanna go to Hogwarts! *random*

xoxo bella