Sick!

I'm sick~

Sigh.

Anyhoos.

I watched The Dark Knight last night. WHOO HOO!! I felt like the movie took forever to end though but that might be because I was sick eheheeheh

Heath Ledger was FRICKIN' AWESOME as The Joker.

Awesome.

He managed to freak me out and make me laugh at the same time! And!! He really really came off as a crazy maniac. I think he may be one of the coolest villains ever. :D His voice, his mannerisms (like the way he would occasionally lick his lips with a flick of his tongue, was so subtle, yet so creepy), the way he talked, and his FREAKY LAUGHTER. He was soooo good.

His stories of where he got his scars freak me out. hehehehehe. I don't like knives :S

Malas wanna say so much lah. My head feels like it's stuffed with cotton :P

xoxo bella

I Love This

True, no? So Iain... whenever I'm in a pickle... ;)

xoxo bella

All By My Lonesome

... tonight. Usually I'm okay with it. But tonight while driving home from work I looked up and saw fireworks. It made me feel like crying suddenly because I think you should always watch fireworks with someone, special or not. Also I was very aware that my friends were hanging out somewhere at that very moment, and my sisters are back at home with my family. I was coming home to an empty house :( Yes I'm so melodramatic tonight. Hehehe.

Anyways my mood was lifted up by the appearance of this person:





Val Emmich, guest starring in 'Cougars', an episode of 30 Rock. He is so YUM, and he has dimples! And a deep sexxayyy voice. He's actually a musician who does little bits of acting. EH! I just read that he'll be starring in recurring episodes of Ugly Betty! WHOO! How awesome.

OMG. I think I am in love.



Absolutely Still


Oh damn. He is married. :( HAHAHAH as if I had a chance if he was single. lol.



You're Not The Only One Lonely

His songs make me sad. Heheh.

Goodnight people :)

xoxo bella

I Wanna Go Back!

Rewind to a week before! What is it with the end of vacations that depresses us so?

Sigh.

It's not only the blandness of life, but I really enjoyed being on my own and not really having to worry about things.

I'm such a worrier sometimes.

I love my music.



You, Me & The Bourgeoisie - The Submarines



American Boy - Estelle ft. Kanye West



Mirando - Ratatat (video a bit violent-ish)

I love driving with these songs playing at full blast. :)

Am I looking forward to uni? I don't know. I half am, if only to do something productive. I am mostly dreading it, because I want to do well, yet I have no faith in myself. I don't believe that I have enough willpower or discipline to stick to a healthy study plan. Why am I so lazy? I probably can do it in the beginning (I usually start out really rajin in the first half of the semester) but I usually fall off the wagon after a while :(

I think this semester will be different. I hope this semester will be different. I feel like I've been such a disappointing failure. To myself, to my parents. I just keep thinking, do I want to be average all the time? I know I have it in me. I do.

Must work with what I have.

I must!

:)

I also should take a hiatus from the internet before my exams. :S I don't know which I'm more addicted to, Facebook or MSN. lol.

I feel better now!! I just realised that You, Me & the Bourgeoisie is a happy song

Everyday I wake up,
I choose love,
I choose light,
And I try, it's too easy just to fall apart...

I should live like that :)

Alright, enough rants.

I'll see you later people!

xoxo bella

Hewwoo!!

Must I blog?? I just uploaded a crapload of piccies on fb, captions and tagging and all. I'm tiiiireddd!!!!!

:'(

Actually I'm okay. Just lazy :P

Bali was grrrreat. :)

I had loads of fun and lots of laughs. Can't really remember so I'll just post random moments.


"It's AirAsia bah!"

This we discovered on our last day in Bali at Ngurah Rai Airport. We were complaining of how slow the counter was and how inefficient and stuff and we concluded that everything sucked because it's airasia bah!!

A: Someone died on the flight.
B: OMG! what happened?
A: Aiya, it's AirAsia bah!!
B: Ohhhhhhh *nods in understanding*

-as related by RYAN LEONG! lol so hilarious!!!!!!

WE LOVE STARBUCKS' HOT CHOCOLATE

Tzen and I overdosed on hot chocolate while in Bali. (Brunei no Starbucks :'( ) So I think in the end we got a bit hyper and high from all the sugar (mine was caramel chocolate YUMM) and got all giggly and stuff. I remember jumping up and down on Ryan's bed and we were just in giggling fits over nothing in particular. :D Might also be the tiredness from a loooong looong day. hehehe.

Balcony moments!!!

I quite like our nights on the balcony. Usually we hang out there when we're eating or waiting to club (since the clubs only open at midnight) so there was one night in particular (the last night I think) when we were talking about random things, like life and love (or lack thereof to be more exact) and then we put on music and sang. Horribly. (Ryan lah, Tzen and I weren't too shabby) we moved onto nineties' songs!!! Trying to remember the lyrics to all the 98 Degrees, Backstreet Boys, and other boybands we loved in the nineties. 'twas fun :)

Crazy Bali drivers

You want to drive like a through and through Balinese? Just follow these steps.

1. Drive in the middle of the road. Only move when there's a car coming from the opposite direction
2. Drive fast.
   
3. Overtake as much as possible.
   
4. Honk when the car isn't moving out of your way fast enough.
5. Honk when you're speeding around a bend.
6. Honk when a car is taking up the road.
7. Honk when someone sneezes.

:)


Too lazy to think. Tzen and Ryan, I don't remember any more :'(

My favourite pictures from the trip:

Straw hatsssss us in straw hats~~

I REALLLYYYYYY like this photo :)

hehehehe I liked the blurry quality on top and our jaws look sexxaay HAHHA

Such a gorgeous sunset!!

Loved this.

Okayyy the rest up in fb. Loads of moments that I did not enjoy though, but meh, I don't really wanna blog about it :)

ta ta people!!

xoxo bella

Birthdayyyyy

We're in Bali right now buutttt it is RYAN'S BIRTHDAY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN!!!!

Hope we're having fun right at this moment :) lol.

xoxo bella

Goodbye

BRUBRU AND HELLO BALI!!!

Eye candy here I come. :)

xoxo bella

I'm Off!!!!!

I'm leaving for Bali tomorraahhhhh!! :D

See you guys soon!!!

I'll be back in Brubru on 22nd.

tata!!

xoxo bella

ps: Don't miss me too much :)

Quickies

Briefly again:

1) Am back at home home but going up later because I have to work.

2) Feeling like I'm getting sick, NOOOOOOOOOOo

3) I finally got a haircut. At the salon:

Woman: Eh why don't you get your hair straightened? (obviously after seeing the frizz disaster that is my hair :'( )
B: Cannooot lahhh I have no moneyyy
Woman: How can no money?
B: I go makan angin laaa
Woman: Wah wanna go makan angin but your hair so ugly!
B: T.T

Realllyyyy mean wahhh (but true, oh so true)

4) KARA-OKE!!!!! I like to sing-a!

5) Body clock semi-fixed! Fell asleep around 11pm but woke up around 1.30am. Tossed and turned for about an hour and a half. Fell asleep. Woke up around 11am. IMPROVEMENT OKAY! I got out of bed before noon :D

6) Oh, I FINALLY upgraded my SIM card to that 3G thing. My SIM card says GO! lol. I wonder if I can use it in Bali. And I think my annual fee of $25 is coming up soon. I swear I don't know the point of the fee.

7) I was randomly inspecting my IC and drivers' licence and I noticed that it expires the end of July.

Ok that is all. Can't think anymooooore. My head feels drowsy and my throat is scratchy and my nose is itching.

xoxo bella

Sleep = Sanity

No sleep = Insanity.

Definitely having insomnia for the past few days. It's screwing me up in the head a bit. And yes, I did say I was staying off the net for a while on Twitter, but screw it, I need to blog.

I was happy that I managed to fall asleep around 1.30am, but I was woken up by my phone. And it wasn't even for a text or anything, it just beeped softly because the battery was dying. I woke up with my mind racing. Stared at the ceiling (or a blur of the ceiling, I'm blind haha) for half an hour before I realised I definitely was not gonna be able to fall asleep. So yeah, here I am, awake since 3.40ish.

Oh I wiki'ed insomnia and here's what I found (highlighted ones are the ones that I think applies to me):

Insomnia can be caused by

• Psychoactive drugs or stimulants, including certain medications, herbs, caffeine, cocaine, ephedrine, amphetamines, methylphenidate, MDMA, methamphetamine and modafinil
• Hormone shifts such as those that precede menstruation and those during menopause (OH HAHAHAHAHAHA SCREW YOU MENSTRUAL CYCLE!!!)
• Life problems like fear, stress, anxiety, emotional or mental tension, work problems, financial stress, unsatisfactory sex life (Great. No sex = no sleep.)
  
• Mental disorders such as clinical depression, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, general anxiety disorder (I'm not ruling out mental disorders. Because I know there's little crazy in me somewhere.)
• Disturbances of the circadian rhythm, such as shift work and jet lag, can cause an inability to sleep at some times of the day and excessive sleepiness at other times of the day. Jet lag is seen in people who travel through multiple time zones, as the time relative to the rising and setting of the sun no longer coincides with the body's internal concept of it. The insomnia experienced by shift workers is also a circadian rhythm sleep disorder.
• Certain neurological disorders, brain lesions, or a history of traumatic brain injury
• Medical conditions such as hyperthyroidism and Wilson's syndrome
• Abuse of over-the counter or prescription sleep aids can produce rebound insomnia
• Poor sleep hygiene (Oh most definitely.)
• Parasomnia, which includes a number of disruptive sleep events including nightmares, sleepwalking, violent behavior while sleeping, and REM behavior disorder, in which a person moves his/her physical body in response to events within his/her dreams
• The full moon lunar phase (Does this mean that I could be a werewolf? That's what I think of when I hear "full moon".)
• A rare genetic condition can cause a prion-based, permanent and eventually fatal form of insomnia called fatal familial insomnia (Say what now?)

Hate this. I've been uber depressed for the past couple of days too. I don't know if it's because of my inability to sleep or whether it's causing my inability to sleep.

Now I'm depressed, and also cranky because I haven't had a good nights' sleep in days. I want to cry.

Oh I am so tired.

"Here in these deep city lights
A girl could get lost tonight
I'm finding every reason to be gone
There's nothing left to hold on to
Could I hold on to you?"

Sara Bareilles - City

Ok back to reading about murders and crime and all that crap.

xoxo bella

Hancock

Went to watch Hancock with Ryan earlier.....

(I don't like the poster)

And I'm not too fond of the movie either.

I liked it up to the middle. Then it just got weird/lame/meh.

I really liked Hancock when he was all cranky and drunk and stuff, hehehe he was pretty funny.

Woman: *disgusted* I can smell the liquor on your breath!!!
Hancock: 'coz I've been drinkin', bitch!

HAHAHAHA that made me laugh.

But yeah, not a great movie. I might actually prefer Wanted (but that's just because I love the shootouts <3 )

So I don't really have much to say.......... It really wasn't as good as I expected.

Next movie of interest? The Dark Knight? I'm not sure if I want to watch this movie. I think it might depress me (Heath Ledger! Waaahh!!!) but I probably will lah. I dunno.

Feeling a bit ..........................

Looking forward to getting out for a while.

xoxo bella

BORED!: The Sixth

OMG OMG OMG OMG I can't SLEEP!

You'd think I'd be zonked out on my bed by now. I had work, and I went to gym. Actually the work was not exhausting (but it did cut into my sleeping time, I woke up at noonish rather than my normal 2 or 3pm :P HOLIDAYS WAH HOLIDAYS! I've been sleeping at 3ish and 4ish and I have to wake up to send my sister to work again and blahblahblahrandommeaninglessrant) but the gym!! I went to Body Jam for the first time since like NOVEMBER, and what the hell, the dance moves were practically the same!! But it did a number on me, I developed a stitch in my side and had to stumble outside to sit for a bit and then I got hungry, and then I just couldn't keep up so I just swayed from side to side while the others performed HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH but at least I lasted through the hour :D a few others couldn't take it and bailed midway ^^

Anyhoos, I came home around ten-ish and showered and went online. Chatted with Fairuz, Rinnayy and Scott!! Then the girls left and I started to get sleepy so I said I was turning in. "Early night for me!!" I said.

Yet here I am..... I made a hot drink but if anything I think that woke me up more. Paloi.

Oh and my back aches~

Whooopayyyy!!!!!!!

Darn, I thought I had something else to rant about. Hrmmmmmmmmmm.

Oh well. I haven't done one of my random long posts in a while anyway. HAHAHAHA.

What's small, black and sweaty?

An ant doing push-ups.

HEHEHEHEHEH I think I heard that one from Vis :D

OR!!! What's big, yellow and eats rocks?

A big and yellow rock-eater! That one from GP in Sixth Form. From She Who I Loathed or better known as She Who Loathed Me. harharharhar.

OH! HAHAHHAHAHA I remember what Ryan answered to that!!

What's big, yellow and eats rocks?
Ryan says: Miss Tham on a bulldozer

HAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAAHHA OMG SO FUNNY!

lalalalalalalalalalalalala

I finished "The Book Thief". It's quite good!! In the beginning it was so very confusing because of the way it was written but then it got really good in the middle. And it was SAD! I was reading it at work and I got to the really sad part in the end and I got teary and someone walked in and gave me a weird look.

MEH! I hate war :'(

Anyway now I'm currently reading "Crimes, Crooks and Corruption" (I think that is what it is called, not sure of the order of the words) I'm still in the front bit with all the bits of famous murderers. (It's non-fiction btw.) Quite interesting in some horrific way. So many sick people out there. And that book makes me feel so cynical/jaded. hehehehe

Hmm. I think I wanna read it now.

Which means this post has ended.

Goodbyeeeeeeeeeeeee

xoxo bella

Soundtrack To Your Life

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense.
4. Write the answers down, or even comment on it.
5. Tag 5 people.

1. How are you feeling today?
Seal - Kissed By A Rose
mmmmm, if that means pms-ey and cramping that whoopee how fitting! ^^

2. Will you get far in life?
Blink 182 - All The Small Things
say it aint so i will not go turn the lights off carry me home na na na na na nana

3. What’s your best friend’s theme song?
System Of A Down - Hypnotize
interesting. which best friend?

4. What is the story of your life?
Oasis - Fade Away
how depressing

5. What was school like?
Christina Aguilera - Reflections
hmmmm

6. How can you get ahead with life?
The Killers - Mr. Brightside
okie dokes!

7. Whats the best thing about your friends?
David Guetta - Love Is Gone
whaaaa-? :'(

8. Describe your grandparents.
I don't wanna do this question.

9. How’s your life going?
The Kooks - She Moves In Her Own Way

10. What will be played at my funeral?
The Strokes - Politics

11. Will you have a happy life?
Evanescence - Everybody's Fool
..... I guess not.

12. What do your friends really think of you?
Get Well Soon - People Magazine Front Cover
artiste - song. So people think I should be on People's Magazine? *delighted*

13. Do people secretly lust after you?
Mariah Carey - Touch My Body
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

14. How can you make yourself happy?
Oasis - She's Electric
oooohh!!! One of the songs on my happy list!! :D

15. Will you ever have children?
Keane - On A Day Like Today
what? that's too damned soon :S

16. What song would you strip to?
Nobuo Uematsu - Otherworld
fyi, the soundtrack to Final Fantasy X. That would be such a strange strip.

17. What does your mom think of you?
Puretone - Addicted To Bass
.... alritey.

18. What is your deep, dark secret?
Sara Bareilles - City

19. What is your enemy’s theme song?
Nobuo Uematsu - Victory Fanfare
=_____= fyi, the song they play in FF games when you win a battle.... so I guess my "enemy" was victorious! :S

20. What’s your personality like?
Twista ft. R. Kelly - So Sexy
:D you're so sexyyyy purrfect for meeee

21. What will be played at your wedding?
T-Pain - Buy U A Drank
uh. what?

Tagging everyone on blog roll!

xoxo bella

Quickies

Brief updates:

1) I'm gaining weight :(

2) I've only been to gym once. I'm SO LAZY! I will try to go tomorrow.

3) Vicki woke up with a millipede on her face. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

4) I hate that I smile without realising sometimes. I was thinking of something funny while walking earlier and apparently I was smiling to myself. My sister caught me and said, "You're so weird." :'(

5) Bali in a week and I've spent more than I'm supposed to the past two weeks :( (Iain please send me money ^^)

Alrite that's all, sighh

xoxo bella

Wanted

I watched Wanted last night. :)

Overall rating: 6/10

I'm a bit conflicted about the movie. I don't know. I don't hate it, but I don't like it either. What I do like about the movie however!!!!

1) Beautifully choreographed violence LOVES IT!!!!!!
2) James McAvoy YUMMMM!!!!

:D

I was trying to find a clip of my faaaavvooourriiiteee scene in the movie. It was a kick-ass factory shoot out. SO AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's just so indescribable, but unfortunately I can't find a clip of it :(

Here's a trailer though, you can catch a bit of the scene at 1:58 :)




And the movie might not make sense to you. But bear in mind it's based on a graphic novel :P

Oh and as usual, I managed to guess the plotline again, I watch way too many movies methinks, lol.

Oh and my second favourite thing:

Three whoops for JAMES MCAVOY!!!

WHOOP!

WHOOP!!

WHOOP!!!

:)

hehehehehehe

Ok that is all

xoxo bella

I Wanna Be Reese Witherspoon

How. Lucky. Is. She!

First, Ryan Phillipe.

And now.... now.... *sobs*

JAAAAKEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are just so hot....

....that I wanna cry T.T

So damned luckyyyy!!! Random. He is the Prince of Persia.

I sighhhhh heavily :(

xoxo bella

ps: Ed Westwick & Chace Crawford.......... gay? Is Perez spreading rumours again? btw, is Wentworth Miller gay or not, I still don't know. and I don't care if you're sick of my boy-craziness! Happy July everyone.

EDIT:: Wentworth Miller IS gay. hehehe. Ciao, bello!