Change Is Good?

Sheena's latest post has made me think: Should we have to change for the ones we love?

I've always believed that if you really love someone, you would accept him/her regardless of their flaws. Let's say, if I were to change a part of me, wouldn't that make me less ME? I would be different, and not the same person I was. All my life, I have been told that I've been inadequate, not good enough. I still am being put through all that. The difference between then and now, is that I've given up trying to change who I am. I've made peace with the fact that, if they would find that I changed for them, they would continue to point out any flaw that they find, and it will never end. Because there is no such thing as a perfect human being. Everyone has their flaws. These flaws are what makes us different from each other.

I am lazy.
I am a procrastinator.
I make lame jokes.
I am loud.
I am loud AND annoying.
I am a people pleaser.
I can be selfish.
I can be bad-tempered.
I don't exercise.
I can't cook.

Those are some flaws that I know I possess. You say I am lazy. I say you are a perfectionist. You say I can't cook. I say I have brains that I can find a good job with, then I won't have to learn to cook because I can hire someone to cook for me. You say I am ungrateful. I say you are ungrateful to not know what I have put up with all these years, and yet I am still here, and I am still sane. You say I don't exercise. I say at least I have restraint, and I can actually control my eating habits, unlike you.

I'm not saying that you shouldn't change at all. Sometimes change is good. I know that I should get rid of my laziness and procrastination issues. But I can't change all of me. I can't change the way I think. Especially if I know I'm not the one in the wrong. But at least I am open-minded.

When I get my selfish moments, I try not to indulge in them. It's hard, because sometimes I would long for something so bad, I don't think about whoever is affected.

I hate that I am a people-pleaser. I don't think I can ever change that part of me. I only can ask for some people to please give me a break once in a while. Sometimes I am tired, and I get cranky, and I get bitchy. But I've put up with your crap for so long, can you not put up with mine for just a little while? I am a person too, not just your doormat.

I love my friends. They accept me for who I am, and I can really feel that I am liked for who I am.

And to you, thank you for saying that you like my weirdness. Thank you for listening to my whining, thank you for trying to cheer me up when I am depressed, thank you for always making me laugh whenever I cry. I'm sorry for being weird. =)

I know this post sounds like I'm totally self-absorbed. But the only thing I can say is that I don't think I can change for anyone anymore. If I were to change it'll be for me.

P.S: I can learn to cook if I want. I just need a good kitchen, ingredients, utensils and no one to nag me while I try. Oh, and a good cookbook.

All Better!

Well... Not totally, but hey I feel less depressed.

I was gonna drown in my misery and cry myself to sleep while listening to depressing songs, but I couldn't fall asleep.

Tzen was still awake and she was all hyper and excited about something that she just had to tell me so she came down to my room to do just that. Man was she hyper. She was bouncing everywhere. Picture Tzen jumping around in my room, Bella sitting on her chair morosely watching. We were like the polar opposite of each others' moods. She was so restless that we went out for a walk. I guess it did me good, or maybe our moods kinda clashed and leaked into each other, 'cause she sobered up and I was cheered up a little. Hehe. Sometimes I do love that biatch. Hahaha.

It's a beautiful, nice, COOL night. We actually felt chilled! Isn't that weirrrdddd?? (No not really, it isn't =)

Anyway part of why I was depressed is because of one *^^&$%^$8. Sometimes I feel like he's playing games with me. What do you want from me kan? Ee.

Speaking of depressing songs, I found another great Death Cab for Cutie track! Yay! I'm loving their songs! (Well two of them so far lah)

Enjoy~

I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab for Cutie

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me "Son, fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

(chorus)

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

(chorus)

Then I'll follow you into the dark...

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Loving it! Haha. And since it's still 26th February..... again, HIPPO BORTHODOX my lovely Rinni!! Hahaha. And I forgot to mention, I'm having a bit of a cough. Stupid, quite hard for me to sleep lar. Yeesh.

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I feel like I have no purpose in life. If I died, I don't think I would've lost anything that's in my future. I honestly think that I won't make anything out of myself. I feel so useless and worthless.

What am I doing to my life? It's so freaking pointless. What can I make of myself anyway? UBD sucks. I hate it. Stupid place. But I've got nowhere else to go. UBD is all I've got, and I know it's hard to get a good, well-paid job without a degree. And I'm not ready to work anyway. What the hell is UBD teaching me? NOTHING. I really don't give a rat's ass about the validity of an argument. I don't care what kind of argument it is. I don't care PERIOD. And why the hell am I taking Islamic Business Ethics? It's like Ugama, in English. And MIB? It's a freaking waste of time. I get it. MIB. It's our country's philosophy. I would feel so much more patriotic if I wasn't subjected to racism. I know you're not fond of us Chinese people ok. We can feel it.

My Microeconomics lecturer is an idiot. She can't freaking count. 2 divided by 0.2 is not 1 you stupid eejit. And your English sucks ass. I feel like I'm wasting my time. These people are wasting my time. If I get a degree, I would feel like I've achieved nothing, since everything I've learnt are pointless and stupid. I actually feel stupider than I was before entering UBD.

I am not going to get anywhere in my life. I can already feel it. I feel like all the chances I've got, I screw up. I did screw up many many opportunities, wasted so many chances I've had. Because I'm so stupid. It's like I'm subconsciously screwing up my life on purpose. I could've gotten that scholarship. I could've gotten better grades. But I'm just too damned lazy and stupid to actually make it work.

What the hell am I whining about anyway? I'm not making much sense, I know. Just venting out my frustrations.

Sigh. I feel slightly better. But still depressed. And not going anywhere.

P.S: Happy Birthday to my lovely Rinni!!!!! Love you woman. Counting the days till you get back. <33

I Love That I'm Devious

...seriously I do. I won't tell you what I did to feel so self-satisfied, but sometimes I just scare myself. I honestly amaze myself with my own ingenuity. (Looks around her blog at the sound of gagging.)

I must never use my powers for evil, I know. Must resist the Dark Side. xP

Oh, by the way, what's the noun for "devious"? Is it deviousness? That doesn't sound right. Tell me so I can sleep better at night.

I'm feeling very groggy (and quite crappy too) right now because I just got up from a nap which wasn't very satisfying. I got back around almost 3pm. My class finished at 11am, but I had to wait till Sheena's class ended at 12pm, then we went out for lunch at Excapade in Kiulap. Wasn't planning to go sushi, but who knew that so many chinese restaurants are still closed. Fifth day already what.

Anyway, excellent service in Excapade. Seriously, I just lurrrveeeeeeeeeee calling out to every random waiter/waitress and waving my arms around like a loon. I knew there was a reason I liked Misato better. *dreamily thinks of the way the Misato waitresses can be summoned with a clap* Sigh.

I am understanding Logic again!!!! I was saying goodbye to my 'A' this semester in last week's lecture because I was stupefied at all the T's and the F's. But I get it now!! Yay!! Tutorials do help!! *vows not to skip a tutorial*

(pause)

*.... unless I really really really really really do NOT wanna go*

(nods in satisfaction)

=D

Tzen coming back tomorrow! Don't tell her, but I actually miss her. Hahaha~

I wanna go visiting random people's houses!! Yeay!!!

I Am Going Crazy

Sigh. Haven't blogged in a week.

So what's new? I have a zit on my right cheek. The little bugger just popped out of nowhere. I hate my zit hormones. Stupid zit.

CNY has been ok... so far. I haven't really gone visiting much, other than to relatives' places. Plus I still have classes to attend. At home now, because I have no classes today, but I have to go up to Bandar tomorrow with Sheena again.

Tzen coming back on Friday instead of today, and I bet she's having fun just drooling all over the eye-candy over there in Shanghai. *cries out of jealousy*

Wilson coming back on Sunday. Ummm... Yeah. Heh. Not sure where he is, last I heard he was flying from Guangzhou to some other city, and I haven't heard from him since then. Er, should I be worried? Anyway, my handphone has been silent without him. =(

Kinda bored right now. I wanna go visiting to some random person's place, but I can't, because I am me. (Yes I realised that makes no sense whatsoever.)

I hate it when the PC screen starts to waver like your handphone's gonna beep or something then it goes away and you look at your handphone and it just stays silent! Stupid indecisive radio waves or whatever they're called. It's like they went, "Oops! Wrong phone! Suckerrrrrrr~!"

Don't ask me why I changed my URL. I realise that some people might be wondering what happened to my blog, but I couldn't be bothered to tell them. They'll find out sooner or later, and they can link from my Friendster anyway.

Oh have you guys heard all about Britney Spears' breakdown? It's almost too painful to watch her f*ck up her life. Yes Britney, you will definitely impress the judge when you show up to court bald or wearing that ugly, cheap blonde wig of yours. I'm sure they'll grant you the custody of the children. And good luck on the second try for rehab. I'm like having a premonition that she's gonna like, die, soon. I'm totally serious. Ryan says this is highly improbable, as Anna Nicole Smith has died recently, and two blonde deaths so close to each other just isn't likely. That's Hollywood for you. Read all about it in TheSuperficial.com. Go on, just click on that link over there.

I'm feeling very moody now. Don't know if it's just PMS, boredom or because I miss Wilson. Yes I miss him. xP You can wipe that grossed-out look on your face, Mandy, if you're reading this. Heheh.

Hmm nothing else to say I think. Will blog more when free. Bye people.

Death By Mosquito Bites

Argh I'm getting bitten to death by mosquitoes.

Happy Valentine's Day!!! <33333333333

Much love to whoever's reading. Waiting for Tzen and Ryan to finish watching American Idol so they can pick me up. We're going dinner together as each other's Valentine date. Heehee.

Not fair lah, I wanna watch also. =P Oh well. Gah there's a bite on my lower back, one on my right arm, and one on my left shin. Itchy bitches.

I'm hungryyyyyyy... They should be coming soon. Oh crap I can't use that word anymore without laughing. "coming" -- this word. Paloi-ness

Anyway... Hmmmmmmmm Nothing much to say. Just killing time till they're ready to pick me up from hostel.

Later then.

xoxo from yours truly on this lovely occasion.

Love Is Watching Someone Die

I'm so confused. I hate that I have trouble controlling my emotions. And making sense out of it.

I feel like crying, and I have no idea why...

If you think it's V-Day, then you're wrong... I have a Valentine. Who obviously likes me very much. He's so sweet. He got me a Valentine gift. But I still feel unhappy.

I feel like he deserves someone so much better than me. I just screw up everything. But I'm too attached to him to let go. In a way, I do like him, but I don't know if it's enough... I miss him though... I'm such a loser.

Anyway, here are lyrics to the song I'm currently loving, stumbled upon it by accident actually =)

Sad song, but beautiful, moving lyrics.

What Sarah Said - Death Cab For Cutie

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself

'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die?..

Tagged By Sheena

Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!


Goddamn the italics won't turn off.

Anyway, six weird things about me.

- I'm half-convinced I have some kind of psychic power. Sometimes I get moments where I feel an unexplained feeling of dread, then later that day something crappy will happen and I would just wish that I'd stayed at home. Also, I get many moments of deja vu where I know that I've went through that same moment in a dream that I had before. Oh, also my sister Vicki and I are psychic to each other where we'll suddenly start singing the same songs at the same time, or one will suddenly voice out what the other was thinking. =)

- I get very bad mood swings. I guess this doesn't exactly qualify as weird, but I find my mood swings extreme sometimes. I can be flying high and all hyper in the morning, but later in the afternoon I can be depressed as hell. My moods are also easily affected by different things, like songs, movies , whatever. Sad songs can literally make me blink back tears, for no reason other than the fact that it's sad. I'm very emotional lar.

- My extreme love for eggs have gained me some weird looks. I don't know why, but they say it's 'cause eggs are a weird food to love. I don't know why I love eggs. Maybe it's the fluffy texture, the taste... AAH I LOVE EGGS!! My family finds it funny, because sometimes I'd order fried kueyteow or something, and when my order arrives, my face will fall in disappointment. My mum will be like, "Why? Wrong order?", and my reply will be, "No... Correct... but the eggs so little..."

- I'm very very very very paranoid. If I ever do something I'm not supposed to do(which isn't that often ha!!), I'll find myself stressing over the fact that I'll get caught and obsessing over every single detail, like what will I do if I get caught, how my explanation will be, and steps taken to make sure I wouldn't get caught. Also, I'd get these bursts of paranoia when I'm doing normal stuff, like walking. I'd be walking somewhere and I'd catch a glimpse of the drain and suddenly imagine myself catapulting into it and landing on my face, which always makes me flinch. Thus, I'd give the drain a wide berth, and watch my steps carefully.

- I hate public toilets. If I need to pee, I'd rather wait till I get to a familiar toilet or a really nice fancy CLEAN one. But sometimes I just can't wait, and I'm forced to use them. In these cases, I usually prefer one of those squatting toilets and wash my hands for like a minute after using them. Like in Misato or Coffeezone, I'd use the toilet, wash my hands, go outside, and wash them again in the sink outside. Ryan apparently does the same thing. I'm not the only weird one, yay!

- Sometimes I like to be alone. Although my ultimate fear is that I'd end up alone, I find that I always isolate myself. Like reading alone in my room. And I like to watch movies or shows alone, I can't stand all the talking, I have to concentrate. I don't really know if this qualifies as weird, but I really have trouble thinking of anything else. I'm pretty sure there's more than six, but can't really think of anymore right now.

Ok people that's all. Very very sleepy and tired now. Woke up at 9am although I slept around past 3am. XD

I have that IICT assignment to do and the Microeconomics test to study for, but I'm too sleepy. I have to sleep. I'm probably gonna wake up later anyway. W will definitely wake me up. =D


P.S: Whoops almost forgot. I don't really know who to tag, so I tag Zuk, Alicia, Rachel and Vis. Wonder whether anyone will actually do it. Hee.

Sleepy Bella

Hwoaaarrr!!!

I actually need sleep right now. Having a headache, mostly because of my sleeping pattern, which has been irregular lately.

Anyway, I figured I'd blog for a while. Crap, why is it whenever I want to blog, I always forget what it is I want to blog about in the first place??

Hmmm...

Anyway, I was thinking the other time, it seems as if there are more and more Bruneian bloggers. It's as if, blogging is the new craze. Why is that?

What is the concept of blogging anyway? It's basically where you post up your opinions, thoughts, reviews, whatever right? My favourite kind of blogs are always the ones that is witty, thoughtful and LONG. I loveeee long posts, especially if they're interesting. And funny. Check out some of the links on my blog, they're really interesting.

Oh and I think there's a new kind of blog called the "Photo Blog"?? The name itself is self-explanatory.

=)

Oh yeah, who do you think was the first one to come up with emoticons? And how did he come up with the idea of making faces out of punctuation marks?? Do you think one day he was playing around with his keyboard or something and typed :-) and tilted his head to the left and thought, "Wow!!! That vaguely resembles a smiling human face! I'm gonna be rich!"...??

So weird hah. And now so many different smileys exist. Such as ^^ which I so think is adorable, and XP is another one I love, and my personal favourite T.T

Is there some place somewhere where someone is diligently trying different combinations of keys to try and find the next big smiley??

It must suck to come up with an original smiley and have the rest of the world use it and not know who came up with it with the first place. Haha. They should get it copyrighted or something.

Yeah yeah, boring post. I seriously have not been thinking interesting thoughts lately. Because I'm too busy obsessing over something else.

=D (also my favourite)

Eh, are they called emoticons or smileys? Smileys right? Hmm.. Oh well.

Whereeee is Wilsonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn??

Falling Asleep To CoffeeZone's Soundtrack

....zzzzz......... I am falling asleep as instrumentals play in the background. As if instrumentals are not sleep-inducing enough, instrumental OLDIES some more....

W is pissy =D

but W loves me.

I need to pee.

Now at CoffeeZone killing time. Don't think I'm going back home this weekend. Gawd, I have to do that Micro and IICT assignment... and face horrible Tuesday again... UBD is fupressing....

fucking ugly = fugly

therefore:

fucking depressing = fupressing

(This is a theory developed by one Suk Tzen)

Mocha Latte makes me pee... Caffeine makes me pee...

My bladder is weird.

I like double-spacing.

I'm so random today.

W is pissy...

=D

I'm With Stupid

I am so goddamned stupid.

I haven't been sleeping well, so I fell asleep while waiting for a phone call. And slept all the way through the night. Also, the hp went anal on me, and wouldn't ring if someone calls. The light will just blink, and will probably wake people with light-sensitive eyelids only.

I've known about the phone call the whole day, and I was looking forward to it.

So why in hell did I have to fall freaking ASLEEP?

Paloi-ness.

I Think My Vincci Flats Are Possessed

They're cursed, I tell you!!!

I have tripped, slipped and fallen down like at least 10 times, and I've only been wearing them for 3 weeks!!! They're cursed!!! I slipped again just now while walking towards my hostel room. Syikin was very lucky to have witnessed me careening into someone's shoerack =(

I mean, come on, they're just flats! How can a pair of flats cause so much havoc? Answer: They're POSSESSED.

Some mischievous being has taken residence in my Vincci's and given them a mind of their own, causing me to slip and stumble even on flat ground. Gawd.

The evil culprits:

Yeah, you can practically see my footprints stamped on it. They're there as a result of me digging my toes into them while trying to regain balance during one of my fall-down moments. Do not be deceived... Sure, they look all innocent just sitting there, but they're EVIL! Evil I tell you!!! Tomorrow I'm wearing sport shoes.

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P.S: You guys noticed that CNY is just around the corner? And so is that other one. You know which date I'm talking about =(

WTF Is Wrong With This Thing?! Oh, and Happy Bday Zimannnn =)

Blogger is screwing around on my blog. It was error-ing like hell since yesterday, then it magically goes back to normal. STOP SCREWING AROUND ON MY BLOG!!! It deserves better!!!

Anyhow, on a happier note, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO ZIMANNNN!!!!!

Last night I went out with Yani and Wella to Coffee Bean, and somewhere on the way there they hatched a scheme to ask Ziman to come along and surprise him with a cake.

Ziman arrives with a couple of friends. One of them take residence upon my laptop, leaving me to watch as he goes Youtube-ing on it, while I wait politely for him to finish watching the 8-minute clip(which was, granted, funny but still). At this point Yani and Wella have conveniently disappeared off somewhere to the toilet, with (strangely enough) their wallets. I chat with Ziman to pass the time.

Ziman: I want my laptop. It has everything.

Bella: (says pointedly with a wry smile) Yes, I want my laptop too.

Ziman's friend continues to Youtube happily in his oblivion.

Several minutes later, Yani and Wella still nowhere to be found, Ziman's friend finishes watching the clip. As I wait for him to acknowledge that I have been sitting there right next to him for the last 10 minutes just waiting to use what was my laptop, he proceeds to search for another one to watch.

!!!

Unable to bear it anymore, I say(trying to keep the annoyance out of my voice, but not quite succeeding) "Can I have my laptop back now?"

I didn't wanna be rude to Ziman's friend, but I didn't go to Coffee Bean to watch someone use my laptop. Sigh. Oh well. At least I got it back. And Ziman's friend is nice, although a bit oblivious.

Then Ziman asked where Yani and Wella went, I just mumbled something incoherently(really malas wanna use my acting ability). Haahaahah he probably guessed it already at that point. I just said like, "Oh they went to the toilet, and maybe they wanted to buy something..."

Ziman: Like what? Pads??
Bella: OH!! Speaking of pads, thanks for reminding me, I need to go get some.
Ziman: Now?
Bella: (kinda reluctant to leave my laptop alone again) Uh.. maybe later laa...
Bella: (joking) .... unless you wanna get them for me??
Ziman: Yeah sure.
Bella: You serious?
Ziman: Yeah. What kind?
Bella: Overnight.
Ziman: Brand?
Bella: Kotex.
Ziman: With wings?
Bella: Yeah.
Ziman: Ok. Be right back.
Bella: A large pack k.
Ziman: Sure.


!!!!

Why does he sound like he's done it so many times before??

Ziman rocks!!!!!! I love Ziman!!! Hahaha, he came back 10minutes later with just what I asked for. THANK YOU ZIMAN!!!!!

I belatedly realised that while my other friends were off buying Ziman a cake, I made Ziman buy pads for me =(

Ferdouse and his girlfriend joined us. And later another guy who I wasn't introduced to, but who reminds me a lot of Hiro Nakamura from Heroes.

Anyway, the girls finally arrived with the cake (Ziman didn't try very hard to look surprised) So as usual picture picture, eat cake, laugh laugh. Then we had to rush back to hostel.

So pictures from last night:

Wella, Ziman reading his card & Ferdouse smiling for the camera! (And I have no idea who that other guy is)

Ziman and Ferdouse. I told Ziman to look like he's gonna cry. Heehee.

Ziman taking one of his vain pictures. Ziman is crazily vain.

Hmm Hmmmmmm what to do now.... Boredsville. Let nothing happen to this blog again.

Missing Someone Much

Killing time with a blog questionnaire, courtesy of Sheena's Blog. Here I goooo

# Are your parents married or divorced?
married

# Are you a vegetarian?
nahhh i like being a carnivore. just the thought of living without cheeseburgers makes me shudder.

# Do you believe in Heaven?
this qn reminds me of micro. :S

# Have you ever come close to dying?
hahaha nothing so harrowing as that. did almost drown tho. some scary shite.

# What jewellery do you wear 24/7?
don't wear earrings anymore, i keep losing them!!! so always left with mismatched earrings. and after a while, i just said ahhh f- it.

# Favourite time of day?
early morning i guess, not too hot, and somehow watching the sunrise makes u feel like something wonderful will happen.

# Do you eat the stems of broccoli?
yeaaa broccoliii yum.

# Do you wear makeup?
yea i do.

# Ever have plastic surgery?
nooo i'm just 19 waa. and don't think i'm ever getting one..

# Do you colour your hair?
when i feel like it. but very rarely. i'm putting my hair to fallow for now. heheh.

# What do you wear to bed?
depends.......

# Have you ever done anything illegal?
complex qn!!! fallacyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

# Can you roll your tongue?
yessss

# Do you tweeze your eyebrows?
yeaaaa

# What kind of sneakers?
not really tat much into sneakers.

# Do you believe in Abortions?
sighhh another complex qn. i think under certain circumstances, it;s acceptable.

# What is your Hair color?
blackkk it's so black now.

# Future child’s name?
boy: vincent, nicholas, joshua, ian
girl: sera, lily, elizabeth

# Do you snore?
maybe like the normal deep breathing kinda snore.... and when i have a bad cold and have no choice but to breathe thru my mouth =)

# If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
uk or japan where my friends are.

# Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
yeaaaa my purple teddy bearrrrrrrr. i love to hug it when i go to sleep. but when i wake up sometimes i find it kicked to the bottom of the bed or on the floor. :S

# If you won the lottery, what would you do first?
pay off family debt. then SPEND LIKE HELL. (after setting aside some for savings lor)

# Gold or silver?
silver

# Hamburger or hot dog?
ooooo i like bothhhhh

# If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
eggs!!! love eggssssssss, prolly will get sick of it, but EGGS!!!

# City, beach or country?
city

# What was the last thing you touched?
the keyboard. the letter r. HEEEhEEE

# Where did you eat last?
in my room, with food from the canteen.

# When’s the last time you cried?
HAHAHA!! last sat!!! was crying while saying to a fren "no i'm not crying u idiot!!" hahaha. spontaneous tears.

# Do you read blogs?
yesssss blogger and blogder indeed.

# Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
u mean dress like a guy? what throw on a shirt and jeans?? i thought we were already doin tat.

# Ever been involved with the police?
uhh noo.

# What’s your favourite shampoo, conditioner and soap?
no particular fave. using pantene now. and waitrose papaya and starfruit shower gel.

# Do you talk in your sleep?
heheheh i wouldn't know since i'm SLEEPING what.

# Ocean or pool?
ocean. ppl don't glare as much when u jump in the water with ur clothes on.

# Window seat or aisle?
windowwww

# Ever met anyone famous?
the sultan??

# Do you feel that you’ve had a truly successful life?
ask me in 10 yrs. but check if i'm really successful first. if i'm not, i'd prolly kill myself after the qn.

# Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
twirllll

# Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
eh. neither.

# Basketball or Football?
hmmm toughie. i dunno. not much of a sports person. but it's fun to watch a game.

# How long do your showers last?
about 15min???

# Automatic or do you drive a stick?
both.

# Cake or ice cream?
ooohhhhh i dunnoooo it's like asking me to choose between my sisters

# Are you self-conscious?
ummm i think so. but i do have my blur blur moments.

# Have you ever drank so much you threw up?
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa try playing indian poker with wilson!!! =D

# Have you ever given money to a beggar?
yeah i think....

# Have you been in love?
nope not yet. =)

# Where do you wish you were?
somewhere fun.

# Are you wearing socks?
nopeee.

# Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
umm... i think i have.. long time ago when we got into an accident.

# Can you tango?
haha no. wanna learn to dance!!!

# Last gift you received?
the gifts from shini and ryan that I STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN!!!

# Last sport you played?
heheh. don't have laaa

# Things you spend a lot of money on?
dvds!!! food!!! shoes!!!! clothes!!!

# Where do you live?
lumut :(

# Where were you born?
panaga hospital

# Last wedding attended?
my cousin's wedding last nov.

# Most hated food(s)?
ginger!!!! brinjalllllll!!!!!!!!!! hahaa

# What’s your least fav.?
least fav??? ummmmmmmmm i don't know.

# Can u sing?
i've been told that i can. =) can sing in tune, and that's basically it. *thinks of ryan's singing* (shudders)

# Last person you instant messaged?
tzen tzennnnn

# Last place you went on holiday:
(sheena: hey i was in kl xmas 2005 too!!!) brisbane july 2006 =)

# Favourite regular drink?
water?? lemon ping? ice lemon teaaaaa

# Current Song?
McFly - Too Close For COmfort



Sorry for the broken english and the non-punctuations. Too lazy to write properly. Shall leave you with my stupid face so you don't forget me.

I am happily vain.